Well this week was all about "glamping" and it looked like a blast! I was so bummed I didn't get to go on this trip because, believe it or not, I grew up camping! I went to the desert and rode dirt bikes every single weekend and camped in a motor-home or a tent! So this would have been right up my alley!
I also really wanted to go to support Alexis and the trip she had planned but it was three days prior to my performance and I knew I would just be talking the whole time (which is exactly what the doctor ordered me not to do). I could feel tension between Alexis and I brewing ever since I decided to make amends with Tamra and I really wanted an opportunity to talk with her and try and figure out why. I'm sad we never got that chance.
I was disappointed to hear Vicki blame her ill feelings towards Alexis on Tamra. Vicki knows full well she has never been a fan of Alexis and had talked plenty of crap on her. Actually if you remember Tamra and Alexis were friends when they first meet, but Vicki had nothing but mean and judgmental things to say about her (and Jim) and was always in Tamra's ear. Maybe it was the other way around and Vicki rubbed off on Tamra. I didn't exactly hear Vicki defending her new friend Alexis when Tamra referenced her as dumb in the kitchen. Either way if Alexis and Vicki want to make amends I think that is great, I just hope it is for the right reasons.
It's hard to see Heather and Alexis still butting heads. I was hoping this trip might help a little with the tension, but I guess I am not surprised. Heather is just a matter of fact girl and calls it like she sees it. She doesn't really allow you to get away with anything on her watch! But I actually like it when she does it to me, because I like people that just give it to me straight -- even if I don't like what they are saying sometimes. I know she means well, but I can see how the delivery seems strong if you don't know her that well.
Of course, it makes me sad that it took Vicki going through the "what if" with Briana to have an "Aha" sympathetic moment towards me and Slade (about me losing Jeff and Slade suffering daily with the fact this his child is dying of cancer, while she accuses him of being a bad father).
When I heard Vicki say that she owed me an apology I almost fell out of my chair! I literally hit rewind eight times to make sure I heard it right! I couldn't believe this was happening! Now two of the women that absolutely despised me (Vicki and Tamra) were saying they are sorry to me this season! Yeppppiee! My parents were right when they said, "always keep your nose clean and live with integrity and it will come back to you."
It did make me laugh though when Alexis said, "Leave it to Vicki to negotiate her apology." LOL. Well either way, thank you Vicki for saying you're sorry. It truly means a lot to me.
After choosing not to go glamping you see me working with a vocal producer that Robin Antin recommended. Obviously I was still beyond upset and disappointed that my voice was not 100 percent. I was having a very hard time hitting the high notes in the song and at this point it was only three days before the performance! I started to cry in the car and got very emotional about it. I am sure you all can understand. At one point or another in life, everyone has had a great opportunity but known you just aren't at your best, and you feel hopeless and so disappointed that you can't do better. I am a perfectionist and I wanted to do as best I could!
I know I have only had a couple of voice lessons, and I certainly know I am not Christina Aguilera or anything, but I still wanted to do well and not let anyone down that believed in me and my talent -- like Robin Antin. Look bottom line, I would not have been booked for this if I couldn't sing a lick. Someone like Robin is not going to put her name on the line like that. Obviously she heard me sing before. She actually surprised me and put me on the stage with Matt Goss when I went to his show in Vegas months before, and later admitted it was a test to see if I could really sing. Here's a pic of me and Matt Goss on stage.
She felt I had strong enough vocals to book me for a Live Las Vegas show with her Pussycat dolls! So I didn't want to blow it, but I had to start to accept the fact that my voice wasn't 100 percent and I could only do what I could do!
You see Slade ask me in the car if I want him to just cancel the performance, so I have a big decision coming up! Do I go for it or do I chicken out? Be sure to stay tuned to watch and see what I decide to do!
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