So Miami was fun. . A lot of alcohol and not a lot of sleep, but still SO much fun. The one thing that almost ruined everyone's trip was Kristen, and I see that now watching it back. It was really hard for me to watch my best friend cry and to know I had no idea what was going on inside of her. Yes, that weekend for me was filled with unicorns and penis straws. I was oblivious to all of the negative passive aggressive comments. I probably shouldn't have let Kristen come. I know that and everyone continues to remind me of it, however at the time Kristen and I were still close. Despite what she did at my birthday party, I forgave her. I thought this could be a trip where she could prove to me I could be friends with her as well as Ariana and all learn to co exist like mature adults. Guess I was wrong again. I always try to see the good in people. Even if it is buried deep, deep down, everyone still has some good inside of them. I was all about having a good time on this trip and making it one to remember for the rest of my life. No drama, just fun with unicorns, rainbows, and penis straws (and a wand that Jax reeeeeeeally liked). In order to make that happen, I basically ignored all of the side eye shade and snarky under the breath comments Kristen continued to make. It was one of those things that was in one ear and out the other -- because I was selfish on that trip and didn't want her to ruin my happy. I just tried to ignore it and let it go. However, had I known how difficult this was on Ariana, both emotionally and physically, I ABSOLUTELY would have said something to Kristen and done something about it. I never want to see my best friend cry. Every time I watch that scene I get tears in my eyes. I feel absolutely terrible and like a failure of a friend to be so oblivious to what was happening to her.
Ariana is one of the strongest women I know and a damn good friend. She never cries, she's never sad and she is always there for me when I need her, no matter what time day or night. For me to not notice how hard this trip was on her makes me feel terrible. There was just so much going on, and so many people there that I really didn't notice. I thought she was just tired and didn't want to go to a club again and again and again. That's just not her thing.
For all of that Ariana, I am truly sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like you were for me. All Ariana wanted me to do was have a fun time. Mission accomplished! I had one of the best trips of my entire life, and I'm so glad she was able to share some of those fun times with me especially the boat ride. That was by far THE BEST part of that entire trip. All in all, leaving that one piece of baggage at home (Stassi) made the trip even THAT much better. I mean clearly she is incapable of being a part of anything that isn't centered around her and that's just sad. Her and Kristina spent their week talking sh--, hating on what was such a fun trip and they missed out. For Kristina to say it sounded like "such an awful bachelorette"? I literally laughed out loud. I want to know one person who agrees with her. . .Anybody? No? Didn’t think so. #HatersGonnaHate