First things first, I would have never even brought up any of Jax's extracurricular's at Shay's bachelor dinner if I wasn't so heavily pushed by others. It's definitely not my style, and I'm not proud of it.
When I called Jax out about the San Diego girl, I was doing so because in the past -- if and when Jax has ever had the smallest piece of dirt on Schwartz or I -- he has embellished on it and then gone on to tell anyone with two ears. Then when confronted on this embellished dirt that he has had, he's denied it to our face.
When I told Jax that "I shouldn't have to ask you to lie for me," I'm quoting Kevin Hart, in that when you're best friends with someone, you should always have their back. At this point I'm wanting Jax to know what it's like to have someone like Jax as your friend. The difference is I'm not embellishing nor am I denying being the source of the information. Do you think for one second that if I was worried about some information Jax had on me that I would do this? I can tell you one thing, with 100 percent certainty, I would never choose this time to do this if Jax had any dirt on me. He most definitely does NOT, because doing anything like that to Jax is dangerous. If you are the source of Jax looking bad in anyway, he will stop at nothing to make you look way, way worse, even if it is with lies. He has no perception of equality or justice when it comes to even practical jokes. Example, if you draw a penis on Jax when he's asleep, your likely to wake up the next morning with a penis spray painted on the hood of your car.
The conversation Jax and I had privately had absolutely nothing to do with the dumb, empty Miami allegation. I'm talking about years and years of Jax insinuating or guessing or trying come up with a piece of information that he can turn into something bigger, to either take the heat off himself or to get attention. Jax WANTING or thinking something happened means to him that it did happen, and then some, and then he will go behind our backs and say things that aren't even possible for the reasons I listed above. Jax lies in place of actual information. He takes the smallest iota of an idea or a rumor and blows it up into an elaborate story with tons of inconsistencies because it is all a lie.
At dinner, I got angry because I knew he had talked sh-- behind my back and, at this point, this shouldn't even be a subject of conversation. All it does is fuel the people who want to relish in misery and bring Ariana and I down. There's no pact and there is barely any friend trust there.
Jax doesn't see the difference between me actually witnessing something, and him making up bullsh-- about me. Its funny to watch Jax scramble when backed into a corner. He brings up this Miami thing and quickly abandons it when he realizes there is nothing there of any substance. I understand that everyone will interpret these things however they want and people will always talk or assume the worst, and that's fine. It's fine with me because I am only concerned with one person's feelings in this matter -- and Ariana knows the truth and knows who I am.