Disconnected

When I was first approached last spring to be on The Millionaire Matchmaker, I immediately thought, "No way in hell." After careful consideration, I figured it was worth a shot and would also be a fun way to get my website, TheLuxurySpot.com, out there a little more. What I didn't expect was how the interactions with Patti would go down.

Filming was fun and definitely left some lasting memories, and it's too bad that the fun, light-hearted stuff didn't actually make it into the episode. I'm hardly that serious -- in fact, if you read my website at all you'll notice that most of the stuff I write is downright silly or even kind of shocking. I was disappointed that Patti started the show by introducing me as an "heiress" that comes from the Dannon fortune. The truth is, whatever I have, I've made for myself. I have no ties to Dannon at this point in my life, and I will continue to earn my own money the old fashioned way -- by working hard.

The episode definitely paints me in a snobbish light, and that's a shame because anyone that really knows me would probably tell you the exact opposite story. I'm a 26 year old single mother living in Manhattan alone. Any place I go, anything I experience or own, I've gotten for myself. I have complete, total, and utter appreciation for the people I love, the experiences I have, and all the blessings in my life.

I do feel bad about a few things, though. The truth is that I have no issue with anyone from Staten Island. I feel bad about that way that statement came across.

I stand by my statement about the tanning booths. Gross.

When it came down to the dates that Patti picked, I was really surprised that she brought me a room full of late 20-somethings. I would probably hang out with them as friends, but the truth is just that most 20-somethings in NYC just have no idea what to make of a kid, or a girl with a kid for that matter. Sure, there are exceptions to every rule, but in a city where it's normal to get married and have kids in your late 30's, 20's just seemed unrealistic.

Keith was a super sweet guy, and I think he'll make some girl really happy one day ... especially because he's "good at sex." That's a skill that's hard to come by, and he's got summers off from teaching, so I'm sure he'll be able to put all those skills to good use. In the meantime, I think the most important thing I learned from this whole experience is that it's hard to find someone that you really connect with, and even harder to find someone that you think will fit into life with a child. I feel extremely fortunate, though, because whether I ever get married and go down the traditional road or not, I feel like I'm already living all my dreams. Maybe it's not so bad to be alone?