Brielle's Birthday Party

First of all, I want to say "thank you" to everybody who is watching. I am really excited about the show. I also know how blessed I am to be able to be a part of the Real Housewives series. I am living the ultimate dream, but it hasn't always been that way for me. My husband and I split when I was seven months pregnant with Ariana. Brielle was four at the time. I was devastated. It was by far the hardest time of my life, however, it has made me who I am today. I look back now and remember how scared I was to be a single mother with two little girls. I just didn't know how I was going to manage. I did it and I am doing it!!! I worked as a nurse and have been raising my children ever since. You find strength in your moments of weakness. I thank God every day for all my blessings.

Big Poppa: topic of many conversations, with much speculation. I am going to try and wrap it up in a nutshell. I am crazy about him -- he adores my daughters and treats us all like queens, and I don't mean financially. I haven't been happier in my life. My children and I are so lucky to be so loved. From all the reality shows that I have seen and all the marriages that end in divorce I made the decision to keep that part of my life private. At least for now ...

I am recording my first country album with Dallas Austin. My single will be released soon, I have always wanted to sing -- it's been a lifelong dream of mine. I also have recently started a charity with my best friend Cori called "Shoes for Shattered Hearts."

I LOVED watching the second episode because of my daughter's 11th birthday party. It was so much fun having 13 little girls. I have to admit that it did get stressful at times, but all in all it went great. I had my best friend Cori who helped me along the way. I wanted Brielle's birthday to be huge for her this year because she has since started private middle school and won't be seeing all her friends from 5th grade. I love birthdays, holidays, and anything that calls for a celebration. My parents always made my birthdays huge so I try to do the same for my daughters. I am super-lucky to be able to do that.

I was so nervous about Sheree showing up to Brielle's birthday party because the night before NeNe was denied access into Sheree's party and Brielle's major request for her birthday was "Auntie NeNe," so I was having to make a difficult decision between the two of them. I don't like to be in the middle, but then again it was my daughter's special day. I worried all day long about Sheree and NeNe and how that was going to work out. I was super excited when I called Sheree and she said her and NeNe spoke. I don't like confrontation, arguments, or disagreements. I think life is too short so I was ecstatic to get the good news.

Chocolate Pink Cafe was great, aside from the cake. I was so disappointed. I let Brielle decide on everything, from the shape of the cake, to the colors, to the flavor. It looked great but tasted like cardboard! I know good cake when I taste it. BELIEVE ME!!! All the Housewives attended Brielle's birthday, which was fun. We got to catch up on each other's kids, hubbies, businesses etc. It was great. NeNe and Sheree were back to the real friends they are. What a relief...

What a long day!!! I got back to the Intercontinental and so desperately needed a massage. I had been up for well over 24 hours exhausted!!!! I hired the party planner plus three other women to help with the 13 little girls; never mind the fact my nanny Mia and Cori were there as well, but as you saw child after child continued to pour into my room. I know it was all about Brielle and her birthday and maybe I shouldn't have had a massage, but I wanted to treat Cori to a massage for all her help that day. I also really wanted Sheree's security at the door!!!!!

Stay tuned as my life unfolds in front of you. I must be crazy -- ha!