Hello loves, I've missed you guys! I've just been so busy running my Fortune 500 company. LOL, JK! I have a lot of awesome surprises to share with you all soon!
Let’s jump into the most recent episode. First off I would like to thank all of you for tuning in each week. Up to now it may seem as if my RHOA sisterhood is slowly crashing and burning. After each week I have realized that these are real situations that people go through, and some of those times can be tough. After going through my recent split, the last thing that I want to happen is to lose my sisters. Sometimes we feel "tried" and pushed in corners. But at the end of it all, we end up making it right. As long as we try to treat others on how we would want to be treated, then the ups and downs will fade away.
I can't begin to tell you how excited I was finding out I got the part in Kandi’s play "A Mother's Love." The journey to the audition was long and hard. I'll give you a little background. I started singing when I was younger in church, took some time off, then came back and sang as an adult on my church praise team. S/O High Praise! As time moved along I started singing demo tracks for various producers and studios. I ended up getting married and ended up losing my support system that wanted to help push me into the music industry towards my musical dreams. Well long story short, now I'm on my own and ready to follow my dream! I have always wanted to be a performer, but I have also always dealt with fear. One time I was in church and it was my turn to sing the lead. There were three lead parts, and I was supposed to take the third. By the time my part came up I got so nervous and scared that I just FAINTED! It was so embarrassing, everyone ran up to me and thought it was the Holy Ghost (they started speaking in tongues) when actually I had just crumbled under pressure. After that I decided I would believe in God and the gift he had given me. I told myself fear was not of God and I shouldn't give into it. Thank the heavens I was finally healed and am now free of fear when I sing. Now I still get nervous, but I just try to put my heart and soul into my songs and hope that people hear more of my soul when I sing.
At Kandi's audition I tried not to think about it too much. I knew I had naysayers, but I also knew Kandi believed in me, which was very encouraging! I have to say I thank the haters that motivate me and push me to be my best.
I also wanted to let you know that currently I've finished a single that means a lot to me. The single is called "Flatline" with producer Chris "Traxx" Rogers. This song speaks from my heart and tells the story of any person who has ever had their heart broken or had loved someone and was let down. I can't wait for you all to get a listen... When I get emotional I lean on music to help me get through hard times and I use music to express when I'm in a good place. I'll be releasing the single "Flatline" in two weeks. Well guys I have to go, it’s my Poopa’s birthday today! Talk to you all again soon. Happy Birthday, Lauren! Turn up! Love you to bits! Kisses!