Adrienne Didn't Mean to Make Trouble

Hi everyone. I hope you're all having a wonderful week!

In watching this episode as you can see there was a little drama but all in all we had a good time.

Going to Yolanda's was nice. It was a beautiful at the beach that day and it was so nice to visit and get to know her a little bit better. Ojai is special to me, and I guess it has a special place in her heart as well.

Watching Kyle and Alexia at the DMV brought pack a lot of memories. Oh how I've been there! Waiting for your child to come out of that testing room is such a big deal. I have been through this four times. My heart was right there with her and Alexia while waiting for the results! As I watched Kyle tear up and discuss Alexia getting her driver's license and becoming more independent, I had a flashback to when I was tearing up because my daughter was moving out. I remember Kyle saying something like "It's part of life Kim. You need to find your own life now." LOL. As I watched Kyle, I thought. . .it's just a driver's license, little sister. She's just going down the street! Haha! She'll be back In 15 minutes! Bye-bye! My heartfelt so huge for her because I completely understand! Well Alexia passed and she's off to college in Kyle's Maserati. YAY!

I was really looking forward to trip to Ojai. Friendships, growth, and moving forward was the goal for the girls and I! Riding up to Ojai, of course, the scenery was beautiful, and the company was good and entertaining.

Whenever all of us get together in a car and Camille is with us, it seems like there's always some sort of discussion about bleaching or tattooing. . .mmmm! Interesting right? As long as it's not before a meal! Right?

Arriving at the house it was absolutely beautiful! When we took the tour and Sean dropped "five-bedrooms for seven girls bomb" on us everyone froze. I knew we'd figure it out as the house and the room were so beautiful. When Lisa and Brandi arrived it was definitely uncomfortable for a moment. A bit tension in the room. But that went away quickly and we were off to dinner!

I wanted this dinner to be different with no special seating. Everyone got to sit next to who they wanted to sit next to! And it created an opportunity for Brandi and I to sit across from one an another. No it wasn't planned this way, it's just the way it ended up! This gave us an opportunity to get to know each other a little.

In talking with Brandi, I felt like I really began to understand her and that we were connecting! She started talking about how when she's alone in her home that she drinks, and I did too. And then she said when her kids are gone she's lonely and she drinks, and I said I did too. And then she said all her friends are married and she's lonely and she hasn't had a lot of people to talk to and she drinks, and I said I did too! I completely related to her in this whole conversation! And it triggered some real emotions in me, reminding me of how painful some of these experiences have been.

But when she brought up Game Night, that's when I put my hand up. I wasn't angry at her at the dinner table, but it took me back to a place that was way too too painful for me. I just didn't want to talk about it. When she brought it up again, it was just one of those moments what was just too painful and hurtful and too much for me! I don't think that Adrienne was trying to cause problems. I think she saw me crying and was truly concerned. Nor do i think Brandy meant to yell "f---" at the table! I think she didn't want me to be embarrassed for crying! I don't think anyone that night was trying to make a problem. I didn't mean to cry!

I think this is the beginning for Brandi and I. And I really do get to know her a lot better! Everyone of these women are beautiful and have sensitive sides. I'm truly thankful for this experience in growing with them and learning more about who they are. I'm growing every day and learning more about myself!