I Don't Hold Grudges

Hello to you all, hope you have had a good week and are staying warm on the east coast!

As we start this episode with Kyle saying she was coming over to my house, relaying the story of Vegas to Mauricio, it appeared to me that her recollection was slightly different to mine. Anyway we decided to talk just us, without the intervention of the others.

First let me be very clear here -- if I held a grudge I wouldn't probably speak to many of these women ever again. But relationships evolve, dynamics change, and sometimes loyalties divide.

In regard to Kyle, I always believed that whatever has transpired between the two of us, our friendship was always worth saving. Many situations that have taken place -- the first tea party, the reunion, witnessing the conversations between her and Taylor -- have all manifested in a substantial change in my feelings towards her. I regard her differently. Now if that is interpreted by her as me holding a grudge, then I do not have the power to change that. I personally feel it is a passive aggressive swipe once more. And it's also hard for me to understand how she recalls the many issues as "petty." I would never minimize the feelings of somebody close to me. . .

Whenever any of these instances were brought up, it was always treated with a slightly dismissive attitude by herself and Mauricio, never truly validating the depth of hurt that ensued after some of these instances. So I voice my opinion, but sincerely wondered if any of it would resonate. I can't deny how we can laugh and we still continue to have moments where caution is thrown to the wind and we resume the carefree relationship that once was. But when you really hold a friend close, you need that reassurance that if all goes awry then they will support you. I rarely need it, as I am a strong but sensitive woman with an emotionally uncomplicated life. But I value that quality and will always repay it.

Yolanda with her daughter Bella and the horses made me smile. I love to witness scenes like that and am happy that Brandi is developing a closer relationship with her, as it was wearisome being the only one who would ever support her. We are all in agreement that she was guilty of revealing something that was inappropriate, but she had apologized. . .That should have sufficed.

It was decided that another tea party is in order. Camille I felt, was regretful of her sudden outburst, which I have to say I could never quite understand. So let us try once more.

Adrienne had been absent from our group, which when we embarked on this journey so many moons ago, was not what we signed up for. We should endeavor to communicate without the need to become litigious, to resolve our differences, to articulate how we feel without financial bullying, which ultimately is redundant when we hope to all have a future together.

Taylor provokes the situation, not that I blame her. She must still harbor feelings of resentment when the identical legal situation presented itself previously. I admired her candor, even though it was cloaked in alcohol -- never an ideal choice at tea but there you have it.

The tension mounts. Brandi is indignant and becomes aware that the only way to substantiate her claim that she had received a legal letter was probably to expose it.

So tempers flare and no resolution this week. Keep watching as this fascinating tale is not quite complete. . .

And on that note I bid you farewell and encourage you stay with us on our complicated voyage until next week.

Love always, Lisa