Hello again. Such a difficult episode for me to watch. . .
I am of course extremely upset when I see, for example, Brandi bringing up the subject of Cedric. All of you who have followed the story from the beginning will understand Cedric was a precarious subject and one that out of loyalty to Brandi I would never have raised. But now she is saying I had Cedric deported. I will explain, with regard to him being deported. It should have been done, but unfortunately Housewives don't have that much influence over Homeland Securities. . .If after he left us he was working in violation of his visa, then I am sure it was a problem. I believe he left to return to England of his own volition and to renter America he would need another sponsor.
The most interesting thing that I discovered, which I would never have exposed is the fact that Brandi had never met Cedric. She wasn't a "friend" of his and they hadn't modeled together. She had somehow concocted the story with somebody else. She came into my life on a lie. . .that should have spoken volumes.
I honestly felt that Kyle initially offering the necklace was some sort of peace offering. But when a ring appeared I didn't quite understand the connection between a blue skull and a gold ring.
Again, it's confusing as to why Brandi felt the need to run to Kyle to try to create a rift between us. Now I have a better understanding when I see Brandi tweeting that she was a little jealous of Kyle and I when they had shown us playing in the pool, and remarking how she found it strange as she believed Kyle and I weren't that close. I had previously tried to placate Carlton at her event with regard to Kyle, but after seeing just how badly the anti-Semitic remark had affected her, I understood it was a precarious situation that required a deeper conversation. I like Carlton so very much, and I know how traumatized she had been by the accusation -- and I don't think a ring would fix it.
Now after reading Yolanda's blogs and having seen endless comments on film, I have realized I called it wrong. Obviously Kim and Kyle had been truthful about what had transpired in Paris, I just had refused to believe it. Joyce had warned me at the beginning of the season, and I chose to ignore her account of Yolanda desperately trying to engage her in a detrimental conversation about me. I didn't know Joyce at that time and I was hoping that the bond between Yolanda, Mohamed, and our families would supersede the negativity she harvested.
I understood at the beginning of the season there was no support from the other women. It was discussed in rehearsals when I was on Dancing With the Stars between us struggling competitors how strange it was. How it was expected that the Housewives or members of a competitors team would vociferously tweet and vote in support. Apart from Brandi tweeting a couple of times, the other Housewives were silent. They came for the one appearance, that you saw on the show.
But I never expected this, and to be honest after seeing all the episodes it has been pretty traumatizing. I thank Carlton and Joyce for being so supportive. In the year I have known them I have grown to adore them. They will testify to the fact that I never talk negatively about the other women. I always believe it says more about them than it does about you.
And so on we go, on this tumultuous journey riddled with obstacles that sometimes seem insurmountable. You will see. But lastly I have read your comments, which see me through, and your supportive tweets, and I thank you for that.
Also just a footnote, there's another evil story connected about me, which I have voraciously defended against all this week. It's becoming exhausting. Have a good week.