Eileen Davidson: It Was Excruciating
Eileen discusses the painful process of trying to let go.
I promise this is the last episode where I’m crying. OK, I can’t promise that. The last year and a half has been especially rough with the death of my sister, my niece, Vincent’s cousin (who was, for all intents and purposes, another brother to him), and Vincent’s dad. I’m not always so emotional, but I do feel like I’ve been wearing my heart on my sleeve. If Kyle is Cryle…I must be Cryleen!
I knew this trip would be the perfect time and place to scatter my sister Connie’s ashes. I also knew it would be another big step in the healing process. She was in love with Italy and always said she was an Italian opera singer in another life. To let some of her ashes go in her favorite country was the best way I could imagine to honor her. It may be one of those things that sounds better than actually doing it. Even though I knew it was the right thing to do for my sister’s memory, it was excruciating. But after I did it, it felt like a burden was lifting, if only a little.
Emotional turmoil aside, I am so happy I was on vacation in Italy with my family while everyone else attended Kyle’s barbecue (without any barbecue). Too many unresolved issues for one dinner table. Faye and Kathryn’s history regarding Nicole Brown Simpson came up. Faye and Lisa V. saw each other after not seeing each other for years after an unresolved fight. And Lisa R. and Yolanda were in the same room since the whole “Munchausen” thing came up. I really care about both these ladies, and I hope they talk it out and put this to rest.
On the Faye and Lisa V. thing, I didn’t even know they had a history, so I can’t really comment on it since I don’t know any of the details. All I can say about Faye is that I’ve met her several times and think she’s a lovely person.
I’m in Italy for some of next episode, too. Can’t say I’m that sorry to be missing the rest of this BBQ!