Hello to you all, so here we are...our second round...
So it is Dorit's birthday, a rose gold Bentley and Buddha bar party is an excellent poultice to soften the blow of entering your fourth decade. I knew if PK was arranging it, it would definitely be a night to remember. There were old mutual friends from London and some new faces, and a curtain hung in front of what proved to be a fabulous setting carefully crafted to ensure a wonderful party.
What is one to do in these situations? What is the perfect remedy to moving ahead and having some sort of civility between you when previously it had been so ugly?
I don't have the answer, but I stand resolute in the fact that I can't be hypocritical...
I live my life coupled with humor, and as I watch this episode, I know that maybe sometimes I am too provocative in my running commentary as I maneuver my way through the party, but I was absolutely earnest in my offer of condolences to Eileen initially. Her mother had passed and regardless of the tension between us, I was sincere in my acknowledgement of her grief.
When she remarked that she believed I was possibly going to apologize again, I was incredulous and exasperated by the fact she could possibly conjure up the notion of a possibility of me apologizing again, after the endless litany of apologies I proffered last year.
In the world I live in, it is not necessary to keep repeating the same scenario over and over again, as if to tweak a performance until it measures up, so to speak.
Rinna approached me in a vaguely conciliatory manner, informing me of something I was well aware of..."She was hard on me." No...surely not, being called an evil, manipulative liar, too funny. Of course she wants to move on. I would too if I had challenged a friendship with no regard for the history between us.
PK made a speech extolling his love for Dorit. Their relationship is one that is bolstered by respect for each other. A genuine warmth exudes from each of them when they interact. I enjoy their company immensely and their humor which you will come to know.
Yes, I was wildly inappropriate in a jesting manner when I uttered the retort to Eileen regarding Vinny, most definitely a retort to see if we could actually go a whole season dwelling on something I had said...but I think she was wise to me. She knew I was looking for a reaction, and she wasn't going to give me the satisfaction of rising to the bait. Goody, maybe there was hope for us after all. Maybe we could indulge in playful banter and relax a little.
The road to the finale is full of twists and turns, but we had an amazing experience traveling together and investing in each other's lives. The dynamic changes with the integration of a new friend and actions are sometimes misconstrued.
As of this moment in time, the moments that we witness now, is a rather different dynamic than where we stand today, so savor the nuances as we continue our journey.
Anyway I bid you all a wonderfully productive week. Thank you for your comments, stay warm and remember my mantra...Love and laughter supersedes all...And...
As always ...Love Lisa.