Hi everyone, thank you again for tuning in to see my journey through this experience. I first want to say that everyone has a story and I am not here to judge others but to give grace on situations, relationships and know that through my relationship with God it has allowed me to be who I am. Who am I? I am a free spirit that is very light hearted and loves life to the fullest. Going to La Bare was a fun girl’s night that doesn’t happen too often. The men at La Bare are not nude but literally put on a show with full on dance routines. They too are entertainers and that’s all it is to my knowledge. I had no intention of disrespecting my husband but truth be told, I would have preferred to be dancing with my husband. He is actually an amazing dancer and we won a dance contest as newlyweds. So it is right up both of our alleys to bring a show when challenged.
My husband Bryan was extremely upset and rightfully so when the other man I’m dancing with is not my spouse. Anyone that knows me well knows that I like to have a good time and at the end of the day it’s not about being dishonest, hurtful, or illegal. It was a fun evening with Cary and Stephanie in which we tried to bring a last minute bachelorette to reality. My dancing was a little more invasive than expected. This leads me to Bryan and him feeling hurt by my actions. We have a very open honest relationship and me being truthful with him about the experience, I was hoping he would laugh but instead he was disappointed and hurt. It made me feel like a puppy with my tail between my legs. The pain lingered for weeks. I will say that through this experience, really the only positive thing that came out of this ordeal is that I learned that I should sometimes stop and ask God to be my GPS when I am taking a turn onto uncharted and unfamiliar territory, and look where I am headed to with the direction I was taking in hindsight. I can never go wrong with God as my GPS! Amen to that!!!
My mom came into town to be with me and opened up fully about my grandfather. I haven’t seen my mom so emotional over her father since I was a little girl. Not knowing my grandfather but perceiving one thing and hearing another is a shock. This leads me back to knowing that it is not my place to judge but to listen and give grace is the most important thing I can do for my mother. I respect, love, admire, adore and want my mother to be nothing but happy so when she wants to give her dad a chance…I just want to make her happy. After explaining everything to Bryan, I was shocked at his reaction over my grandfather. I just feel that he is still upset about my girl’s night out and taking out meeting my grandfather on me because of that. I felt disconnect from him and so much more alone than I had ever felt in our 13 years of marriage.
Moving on to LeeAnne’s conversation with Tiffany about me raising my children…First, when you have never met my children, been to my home, how can you say something of that nature? I am a fulltime mother that dedicates my life to nurturing and motivating my children to be the best they can be. I wonder if my children will receive a bitmoji apology…
The ladies lunch in my opinion was ridiculous. Stephanie is a woman of few words, but when she speaks she nails it. I love Stephanie and her voice. She is honest and approachable unlike someone that will BOW at you. Cary is awesome, she just doesn’t want the BS in her life and I don’t blame her. Cary and Stephanie have been good friends to me accepting me for my sense of humor, flaws, and I do the same. Honestly, who wants friends that don’t do that?