This week the bull was so big it got out of the pen before I was even saddled up. So hold on cause the bullshi-- is flying this week!
WhenBrandi Redmond volunteered to take me to my surgery because Rich was called into work that morning, I thought she was genuinely trying to make up for not taking me to Memphis. At the tea when Brandi tried to comfort me, I believed that she honestly felt bad for hurting my feelings. My, how time can change an opinion! During the entire drive to surgery, I got to hear all the horrible thingsCary Deuber was saying about my surgeon. And, to be clear, Cary doesn’t even know my surgeon! Brandi also reminded me of how stressed out she was before her own mommy make-over. Cary had told her that Brandi's own surgeon had, "KILLED SOMEONE ON HIS TABLE". I just can’t even imagine how apprehensive Brandi must have felt. No wonder she went to multiple appointments in order to feel more comfortable with her doctor. I don’t understand this need to insult a person's surgeon RIGHT BEFORE SURGERY! While I think Cary would like for it to come across as concern - it doesn’t. It just creates so much fear and no one should be put through that in the hour before they are anesthetized. Look, I am not good with surgery to begin with. It truly terrorizes me to even think about what could happen when things are out of my control. Let’s call me a little bit of a control freak that is being made unnecessarily scared on the trip to my surgery.
When I later explained this to Rich, he said that there are two ways of being the good person -- The first is to actually be the best person you can be or select option two: try to make everyone else look bad.
Oh, and as for my comment to Brandi on the way to my surgery, "That talk is going to get her in big trouble." I meant as far as the legality of defaming someone. Can you really say someone killed someone on his table if it’s not true? I’m not a lawyer but it just doesn’t seem right or legal.
Brandi’s comments on my nipples are hilarious! I could have given anyone a two-nips up at any time. We all remember my ex-friend from last year, well, she was the one who recommended the surgeon who created what’s called “sunny-side up” breasts. So, I appreciate the level at Dr. Trues! Who doesn’t want a more leveled life? Not to mention breasts!
My "conversation" with Brandi at the surgery center seemed very one-sided. What I mean by that is, in a normal conversation there is give and take. I truly only heard the take! I feel like I was completely baited in an into speaking about something that should not have been discussed.
I honestly can’t recall this conversation. It’s horrible to watch it back on TV. If you feel disappointed in me while watching this, let me tell you, I feel it 1,000 times harder. This is not who I want to be and not how I want to be. When people push my buttons, I want to be calm and respond in a calm manner. My heightened fear took all of that away from me. I own it, but I am not proud of it!
Any true friend taking you to surgery would have built you up, not asked you to discuss people trying tear you down.
Now regarding the Brandi phone call to Cary….
"LeeAnne is very upset and won’t let it go." - Um, Brandi, you started this conversation by repeating what she said.
"She says she is going to hurt you." - NEVER SAID THAT
"Spitting in my face and her eyes were delusional." - Never spat in her face.
"LeeAnne says she’s gonna kill me." - NEVER SAID THAT
"Brandi said she’s gonna strangle me." - NEVER SAID THAT
Now we all have said things in the past that we regret but the voice of reason, D'Andra Simmons, did help explain some of my past comments when she said, "LeeAnne pops off! That what she does!" Finally, some TRUTH!
And when Mark suggests that maybe Cary not go to Mexico, Cary says "I’m not gonna let her ruin my fun"… okay folks here’s where it is common sense to see two things very clearly: Cary is not scared and she absolutely knows I didn’t mean what I DID said.
Having these women continue to say that I said things that I never said is, to me, as inexcusable as my behavior has occasionally been. Do they believe that if they say it enough others will say it, too? Seeing Brandi so clearly stand up for Cary and Stephanie after all that they have done to her, yet throw me under the bus with complete ease, blows me away. It makes me question if the girl’s fight ever really happened or if it was just a massive manipulation to get inside of my world and bait me into conversations that they could use against me later.
Oh well. Mexico, here we come. Yes, Brandi was passed out on the bus. The resort was amazing and then the truth comes out. While D’Andra and I are in our room, the girls down the hall are totally trash talking about me in a condescending way, just for a laugh. Cutting to Kameron in her interview questioning this line of conversation is a moment of clarity for me! Here is a woman who was preloaded with same amount of crap about me as these other girls were last year and yet is giving me a chance! Then we cut back to Cary- “Let’s go show off our titties that we had done…by REAL plastic surgeons.” Yup. Nothing condescending about that! I can’t imagine why I would think you don’t like me.
Until next week, when even more truth comes… and more lies! Aren’t we having fun!?!
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