I can't get over the fact that Adriana said that Miami is “full of wannabes” and that Karent “wants the limelight so bad.” Hello, Adriana, you are on a reality show -- don’t tell me that you don't want the limelight so badly. The last I checked, we are all on a reality show, so doesn't that make you a bit of a hypocrite? We are all on a reality show for a reason, and we use it as a platform for whatever business ventures we have. For her to say these things about Karent is laughable when Adriana is the one that seems to be so desperate to be seen and stand out of our group of women, especially after her big complaint over who tweeted the photos of the artist first. It all seems very immature to me. This episode reminds me of the movie Mean Girls. Some of these women need to be less bitter and focus on their own lives! The energy they spend on worrying about why Karent has a publicist could be used for a better cause. I am so happy I didn’t go to this party filled with classless bullies that are just trying to make themselves visible and important. (I am not speaking about all the ladies; Ana and Lea seemed to want to stay out of it.)
Alexia should worry less about Karent having a publicist, but more about her own life and her own family. I have to say that Karent is full of class to go back and say good-bye to the women after that unnecessary drama.
During our dinner, the points Romain offered made a lot of sense. The fact he told me he wanted to leave me and tried to forget me really hurt, because no matter what obstacles I had to overcome over the last year, I never once looked at another man or even thought of going away with someone, even though I wasn't happy and had the same thoughts of leaving him. My love for him was too strong for me to let go. I understand he felt that I abandoned him last year, since I hardly ever came to Miami. I was too focused on my career, especially since a big project I had waited two years for had fallen through. It devastated me, and my relationship with Romain wasn't my priority. I will admit that I was being selfish, but at the same time I was very down and hard on myself, and I should have just let Romain be the shoulder I cried on. But instead I shut him out and pushed him away. Romain also could have made the effort and came to LA more often knowing that I was going through a tough time in my career/life. He could have understood that I was not being myself and just needed him to be there and emotionally support me through this tough time instead of looking at cowardly ways to get out of the relationship and leave me. I believe if you love someone, you do everything in your power to fight for the other person and not let them go.
However, no matter what I did, there is no excuse that would make the flirtatious emails OK. If I forgive and forget, will I trust him that this won't happen again in the future whenever we are in a fight? I won't make excuses for myself, and I definitely don't blame myself, because it takes two people to make a relationship successful or fall apart. But I am also not the easiest person to deal with, especially if I have issues that I am dealing with in my life. I close down and don't want to be around anyone. I am glad that I cooked Romain a nice dinner to bring this up to him and found another approach to deal with this, rather than calling him and yelling at him and moving out, like I would normally do in this kind of situation.
Time will tell and hopefully will heal the pain.