RHOM Meets Mean Girls

I can't get over the fact that Adriana said that Miami is “full of wannabes” and that Karent “wants the limelight so bad.” Hello, Adriana, you are on a reality show -- don’t tell me that you don't want the limelight so badly. The last I checked, we are all on a reality show, so doesn't that make you a bit of a hypocrite? We are all on a reality show for a reason, and we use it as a platform for whatever business ventures we have. For her to say these things about Karent is laughable when Adriana is the one that seems to be so desperate to be seen and stand out of our group of women, especially after her big complaint over who tweeted the photos of the artist first. It all seems very immature to me. This episode reminds me of the movie Mean Girls. Some of these women need to be less bitter and focus on their own lives! The energy they spend on worrying about why Karent has a publicist could be used for a better cause. I am so happy I didn’t go to this party filled with classless bullies that are just trying to make themselves visible and important. (I am not speaking about all the ladies; Ana and Lea seemed to want to stay out of it.)

Alexia should worry less about Karent having a publicist, but more about her own life and her own family. I have to say that Karent is full of class to go back and say good-bye to the women after that unnecessary drama.

Rumors are a natural thing in Miami. The more successful you are, the more people talk, and I never believe that nonsense. But after that call I got about Romain being too close with one of the dancers at Mynt, it made me start thinking, especially since he had been distant lately and something was telling me to check his laptop, since it was right there in front of me… Once I found the emails with Romain and this girl flirting, telling her he wants to take her away for a few days to a secluded island, I will admit that for a second I wish I never went on his laptop and found them. I became numb and my heart was breaking. I never in over five years even thought Romain would be capable of flirting, let alone cheating with another woman. But the emails were written proof that it was in his thoughts, and it now made perfect sense why he had been a bit cold and distant towards me. At that moment, I would normally call Romain and rip him a new one, but I wanted to think this through, and that is why I decided to meet with Ana and get her opinion, since she had been married for many years and I wanted to get advice from her. I’m glad Ana and I had our conversation, as she opened my eyes that texts and emails are one thing, but actually going out and cheating is another story. Before I cooked him dinner, I also called the girl and confronted her. She told me they never slept together, but in the back of my mind I didn’t know if I believed her, since I am sure she was planning this all along. I never trusted her, and Marta told me numerous times to keep an eye on her. I didn't think of her as a threat, so obviously this shows that Marta was right and I should have listened to my sister. I had a feeling she was a trouble-maker, and I’m sure that for the five years that she was working at Mynt she took advantage of their friendship and Romain’s being nice to her, trying to manipulate and flirt with him. Since I am sure he told her our relationship was on the rocks, she found the perfect time to try to step in and make him feel wanted. (I am sure he told her that he doesn't feel wanted by me and she dove right in just like a typical girl that has no shame). But no matter what, this is something that will always be in the back of my mind, because if he wasn't happy and wanted to leave me, he should have broken it off with me or told me that he needed a break. Even if nothing happened, what if I didn't find the emails and it happened eventually? But I do believe the truth will come out one way or another.

During our dinner, the points Romain offered made a lot of sense. The fact he told me he wanted to leave me and tried to forget me really hurt, because no matter what obstacles I had to overcome over the last year, I never once looked at another man or even thought of going away with someone, even though I wasn't happy and had the same thoughts of leaving him. My love for him was too strong for me to let go. I understand he felt that I abandoned him last year, since I hardly ever came to Miami. I was too focused on my career, especially since a big project I had waited two years for had fallen through. It devastated me, and my relationship with Romain wasn't my priority. I will admit that I was being selfish, but at the same time I was very down and hard on myself, and I should have just let Romain be the shoulder I cried on. But instead I shut him out and pushed him away. Romain also could have made the effort and came to LA more often knowing that I was going through a tough time in my career/life. He could have understood that I was not being myself and just needed him to be there and emotionally support me through this tough time instead of looking at cowardly ways to get out of the relationship and leave me. I believe if you love someone, you do everything in your power to fight for the other person and not let them go.

However, no matter what I did, there is no excuse that would make the flirtatious emails OK. If I forgive and forget, will I trust him that this won't happen again in the future whenever we are in a fight? I won't make excuses for myself, and I definitely don't blame myself, because it takes two people to make a relationship successful or fall apart. But I am also not the easiest person to deal with, especially if I have issues that I am dealing with in my life. I close down and don't want to be around anyone. I am glad that I cooked Romain a nice dinner to bring this up to him and found another approach to deal with this, rather than calling him and yelling at him and moving out, like I would normally do in this kind of situation.

Time will tell and hopefully will heal the pain.