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The Rewind Button
Kathy wishes she could do over certain moments from the season.
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I want to start this blog by telling you how much I have appreciated everyone's love and support in our first season. It has been an amazing journey into unchartered waters for my family and me. As I have mentioned many times before, it has been just as difficult for me to see some of the scenes play out as it is for those of you watching at home. I don't walk around with a mirror in front of me as I talk all day so, yes, facial expressions do say a lot. I know that mine have certainly been reflective of my feelings. I always say, your eyes don't lie.
Watching myself has really taught me so much. I continue to pray that with each day I learn a bit more about myself and the world we live in and try to do better. Don't you wish there was a rewind button on life? Too bad there isn't one. All we can ask is that we keep moving forward, learning from our experiences, and making changes for the better.
Every family has issues. When you think about it, it's because you are family that the issues are there in the first place. If you weren't bound together, you could easily just walk away. No more issues, plain and simple. But since you are bound together by love, you have an inseparable connection. Whether you want to interpret it as the love of the idea of a great big happy family, or the love for what once was, or just the love for someone that you are related to, family becomes an ongoing part of who you are.It was very sad not to have Jacqueline with us at the reunion. At the time our reunion was filmed, she was very upset and it was best for her not to come. After a few weeks of working through her feelings, I am happy to say that she is in a better place. Jacqueline has been very kind to me from the very beginning, and I won't ever forget her kindness.
Although Caroline and I got off to a rough start this season, I can fully appreciate where she was coming from. It did not always make it any easier to deal with, but I did appreciate her very gracious apology. As you can see, as we spent more time together we have grown to like one another and more importantly, to respect each other. It's been a pleasure to get to know her family.
I want to say how proud and happy I am for Melissa. She has been an inspiration for so many to follow their dreams. The Gorgas and Wakiles are closer than ever, and this is what family is all about.
I have been receiving so many inspiring emails and messages from so many wonderful viewers. I want to thank you all once again for laughing with us and crying with us. You've gotten angry along with us and sometimes angry at us. Sometimes all in one episode! However, this is life! It's our life, and it's learning to take the good with the bad and hopefully emerging stronger.
One letter from a viewer stood out the most and I'd like to share the quote she included.
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense" -Ralph Waldo Emerson
As Season 3 ends, I'm glad that you've gotten to know Richie, Victoria, and Joseph. Your support and concern for my family and me has meant the world to me. This would have never been the same without the viewers who are there for me.
As you have wished for me, I also wish for you -- much love and happiness!
I'm thrilled to tell you I will be launching my website soon, so let's keep in touch. I will be posting what the Wakile family is up to next (www.KathyWakile.com).
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Twitter: http://twitter.com/#!/kathywakile
Lots of Love,
xoxo Kathy