I can't believe another season is over. And I can't believe it ended like the last two did: with everyone trying to blame me and make me apologize. I've apologized more times than I can count, but if that's what my brother needs, I'll keep apologizing until my tongue falls out. I've never tried to hurt him or Melissa. I only care about my family. Hopefully we've wiped the slate clean and can start over from here now. Since my family is in the public eye, we've got to be strong, we've got to support each other, and we've got to stand united. I never want to go back to that dark place with my family again.
It was great to have everyone at my shore house. I loved seeing the kids together especially. It kind of felt like old times hanging out with Caroline and Jacqueline again. We've all been through a lot these last five years. Our friendships have had ups and downs just like everyone else's. Hopefully things will stay looking up!
Joe did a great job rebuilding our shore house. I especially love the back deck since that's where we do all of our entertaining. And yes, we grill every day! Did you see the new bottle for Fabellini? Do you like it? The Watch What Happens Live interview with Andy was intense. I think he was very respectful and did a great job. Hopefully we answered enough questions, but it is aggravating to not be able to speak freely about everything. When this is all over, we will! As Joe said, we pleaded not guilty for a reason. Thank you all so much for your support and for withholding judgment until the trial is over. [video_clip_url:http://player.theplatform.com/p/PHSl-B/yT7k3t_YLXoZ/embed/select/44VnAc3HXXPr]
I'm not in denial about it, I know it's serious and terrible, and I wouldn't wish this situation on anyone. If you've ever been in any kind of legal situation, even a divorce, you know it can suck your soul dry faster than almost anything else. It's not a pretty process. But I choose to stay positive. I really believe that being positive and being happy is a choice. It would be easy to stay in bed and cry all day. It's hard to keep moving forward, keep working, and keep your head up, but that's what strong women do. Especially being a mom, I can't fall apart. I have four little girls looking at me to see how to handle bad times. I want to set a good example for them because life involves bad times. You have to know how to cope and not to crumble. And I trust in God. I trust that no matter what, we'll be OK. Worrying isn't going to do one thing to help us. Thankfully, I have a wonderful support system including my amazing husband, my wonderful parents, and all my other family and friends. And all of YOU! You all lift me up, keep my laughing, and help me keep putting one foot in front of the other. I wish I could give you all a big hug. Thank you so much!
P.S. You can get my favorite recipes in my newest cookbook Fabulicious!: On the Grill -- available now at bookstores everywhere and Amazon (http://amzn.to/RtCq8e).
And visit my website for information on where to get Youthful 8 Milania Hair Care, Fabellini, and Skinny Italian Foods: www.teresagiudice.com.
And Tweet me your thoughts on the new Fabellini bottle @Teresa_Giudice. It will be everywhere nationwide at the end of October!