Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Teresa: "I Wouldn't Wish This Situation on Anyone."

Teresa opens up about the finale and the interview with Andy.

Hello Sweethearts!
 
I can't believe another season is over. And I can't believe it ended like the last two did: with everyone trying to blame me and make me apologize. I've apologized more times than I can count, but if that's what my brother needs, I'll keep apologizing until my tongue falls out. I've never tried to hurt him or Melissa. I only care about my family. Hopefully we've wiped the slate clean and can start over from here now. Since my family is in the public eye, we've got to be strong, we've got to support each other, and we've got to stand united. I never want to go back to that dark place with my family again.

I'm not going to talk too much about Penny and Johnny because I don't have anything much to say about them. I've met them a few times, I knew she wanted to be on the show, and I stayed as far away as I could from whatever rumors she had or didn't have on Melissa. It's a small town though, I guess I didn't stay far enough away! How did she have my phone number? I have no idea, but most people around her do have it. It's easy to get. I'm not a super secretive person. I give it out to everyone. To me, that's no big deal. If we were really working together, she would have texts from me and photos of hanging out at my house with me and my kids -- like all my other friends do. I'm not buying that she deletes all her texts but saves all her Twitters, but whatever. It is what it is. I can't do anything to stop strangers from coming after me and my family. The only thing I can do is protect my family the best I can. And if that means getting up and walking away, taking the blame, or apologizing, then I'll do it.
My amazing hairdressers did want me to point out that I've never had my hair done by Penny or at her salon. Melissa knows that too, I have no idea why she screamed that. She likes the drama. I went with Kim D. to have my makeup done at Penny's place last season, but that was it. I love the people who do my hair -- thank you Edyta and thank you David at Hair by David in Kearney, NJ. He's the official hair stylist for Youthful 8 Milania Hair Care and he carries it in his salon of course! And when I do it myself, the Youthful 8 Milania Collection helps keep my locks looking luscious! (End hair commercial here.)
 
It was great to have everyone at my shore house. I loved seeing the kids together especially. It kind of felt like old times hanging out with Caroline and Jacqueline again. We've all been through a lot these last five years. Our friendships have had ups and downs just like everyone else's. Hopefully things will stay looking up!
 
Joe did a great job rebuilding our shore house. I especially love the back deck since that's where we do all of our entertaining. And yes, we grill every day! Did you see the new bottle for Fabellini? Do you like it? The Watch What Happens Live interview with Andy was intense. I think he was very respectful and did a great job. Hopefully we answered enough questions, but it is aggravating to not be able to speak freely about everything. When this is all over, we will! As Joe said, we pleaded not guilty for a reason. Thank you all so much for your support and for withholding judgment until the trial is over.

 
I'm not in denial about it, I know it's serious and terrible, and I wouldn't wish this situation on anyone. If you've ever been in any kind of legal situation, even a divorce, you know it can suck your soul dry faster than almost anything else. It's not a pretty process. But I choose to stay positive. I really believe that being positive and being happy is a choice. It would be easy to stay in bed and cry all day. It's hard to keep moving forward, keep working, and keep your head up, but that's what strong women do. Especially being a mom, I can't fall apart. I have four little girls looking at me to see how to handle bad times. I want to set a good example for them because life involves bad times. You have to know how to cope and not to crumble. And I trust in God. I trust that no matter what, we'll be OK. Worrying isn't going to do one thing to help us. Thankfully, I have a wonderful support system including my amazing husband, my wonderful parents, and all my other family and friends. And all of YOU! You all lift me up, keep my laughing, and help me keep putting one foot in front of the other. I wish I could give you all a big hug. Thank you so much!
 
Tanti Baci,
Teresa xx
 
P.S. You can get my favorite recipes in my newest cookbook Fabulicious!: On the Grill -- available now at bookstores everywhere and Amazon (http://amzn.to/RtCq8e).
 
And visit my website for information on where to get Youthful 8 Milania Hair Care, Fabellini, and Skinny Italian Foods: www.teresagiudice.com.
 
And Tweet me your thoughts on the new Fabellini bottle @Teresa_Giudice. It will be everywhere nationwide at the end of October!