Hello…before I jump into the episode, I want to address the twins’ previous blogs as they are still commenting on Ash Wednesday. They both took a shot at me for brining all of you with me to church on Ash Wednesday and for my call to Tre. The Catholic faith is very important to me, and their simple-minded comments are a big “no-no” to me. They should be grounded without Belvedere for a week for their statements. (I know this is harsh punishment for them.) My response is as follows. Ash Wednesday is NOT “a holy day of obligation,” it is a day of reflection. We look at who are and where we came from, hence “ashes to ashes.” Their critique of my observance demonstrates their lack of appreciation and knowledge of their own religion. I attend mass on Ash Wednesday, and since Bravo is capturing, well, uhm, my reality, I feel blessed with the opportunity to share my faith with the viewers. I love and appreciate all different types of faith. In fact, I have studied Judaism, Buddhism, Hinduism, most forms Christianity, Islam, and even Kabbalism. I am very interested in watching how other religions celebrate their own faith as I hope others will be interested in mine. The more we explore other’s faith, the more respect we will have for our differences.
Through my studies and personal tragedies, I found my home within the Catholic faith. My faith is important to me, and for that reason I attend Church. My family makes prayer apart of our daily lives, and Jim and I choose to bring our children up in faith. Bringing Isabella to mass is my duty as her mother as I lead by example. I was able to bring my other children later that evening. I am proud of my faith and I would like to thank my Parish for allowing me to show how beautiful the Catholic faith is. As I reflected on my life, I thought of Teresa. I believe Faith is an intimate relationship between a person and their God; no one has the right to criticize or judge. Our country was founded on that belief. I was confirmed a few years ago and made the adult decision to follow the Catholic doctrine, because it is the religion that called me. Catholicism has been a light during dark times in my life and a guide on how to be a better person. I do stray at times from its teaching, but it is the ideal for which I would like to strive.
Now on to the episode. I was touched to see Jacqueline crying with her daughter and my heart breaks for her pain. As mothers, we feel our babies' pains and frustrations. I applaud her for being brave enough to show her pain and bring much needed attention to autism. This is something that I honestly have never seen before, so I am so thankful she is sharing.
I was sad to hear that Rosie and Ellen are not together and that Rosie is unhappy. I met them as a couple on a few occasions and they seemed happy together. I wish Rosie happiness and love. Kathy is a good person for her to talk to, as well as her entire family. Kathy and Richie are genuinely supportive; she is fortunate to have a loving family. Stay strong, Rosie, and keep the faith -- true love could be around the corner. As for Kathy, Rosie, and Richie at dinner discussing Joe and Tre, I do not have much to say, they are family and their opinions are their own. I agree; all we can do is pray for their family. Florida, OH, Florida. This is not how I wanted it to turn out on any level. This is a difficult blog for me to write, because it will be a lot of explaining Jim’s perspective as I was outside with Dina and trying to get Bobby to come out of the bathroom. I can say, I wish that none of it happened and feel that it was a mistake to mix alcohol with friends that have so many unresolved issues. Jim does not think any of these people are my true friends and thought I was being set up plain and simple. And now seeing how Dina told the twins, his hunch was damn accurate. I had high hopes for everyone just having a blast. I am the “forgive and forget” type -- love, peace, and happiness, it comes from my Mom’s hippie side, I guess. Jim is in stark contrast. He went down with good intentions, but was ready to unleash hell at the first sign of trouble. My husband loves me, and if everyone reached out to me with open arms, asked me about my health, and Bobby acknowledged him instead of treating him like a jerk, things could have been different. Instead Bobby was arrogant and self-righteous. Bobby should have been a man and at the first sign of discord took Jim aside to hash things out. A simple apology or even a display of remorse for what happened at his home would have gone a long way. This would have given them a chance to understand one another, prevented the awful fiasco, and saved Nicole from heartache. Jim gave it a chance, walked in, smiled, said hello to the gentlemen. Bobby returned it with a cold and rude reaction; he ignored him and made stupid faces behind his back like a little boy. Just like a foolish child, Bobby did not realize Jim could see in the windows and heard his comments.
Because Bobby acted like a child, Teresa saw her sister upset and went at Jim really hard. It appeared TerESSA was doing Bobby’s dirty work. TerESSA kept coming at Jim even though Jim did not have a cross word to say about her sister. But unsatisfied, TerESSA crossed the line. Jim went back at her as hard as she went at him. She made comments about his privates, kids, and much, much worse. Problem is, she picked the worst person to pick a fight with as Jim was still pissed about the ambush at Bobby’s house, the hair pulling, and the backstabbing by Bobby with bowling night. In addition, he had not forgotten how she insulted our children on multiple occasions, for example calling my child “a little f---ing kid.” I truly hope you see how much TerESSA kept after Jim. He was on the couch talking to Melissa and Joe very calmly. It took a lot for Jim to get to that point. Joe’s contention that men need to treat women differently only applies when a lady acts like a lady. You want to take it to a nasty level, then you get what you give. TerESSA has one of the most vile, venomous mouths going, and she has hand problems. She did not behave as a lady, so she was not treated as one. TerESSA learned a lesson in life about what happens when you attack someone that was smarter, sharper, and has more hurtful information. I have not forgotten the smug, pleased look TerESSA had when she and Nicole attacked me. TerESSA is not smiling anymore. Joe gave Jim sh-- for talking to TerESSA, but Rino hid up the street just two miles away and Bobby was in bathroom. TerESSA drinks way, way too much and does not know when to keep her mouth shut. A matter she will regret next week as you can see in previews.
I am still trying to understand what Bobby thought he would accomplish by hiding in the bathroom from Jim. At that point, Jim was having a little fun at his expense, but the whole group was intoxicated. We were all acting stupid. Bobby could have made light, joked around, and had some fun, but instead ran up the stairs as Nicole said like “la Donna.” I guess Bobby only likes drama when it involves setting others up or trying to look cool with his new celebrity friends. He had no problem calling Nicole stupid and pushing her off his lap. Stupid for what? Those are her feelings. What shocked Jim the most is that Jim was actually defending Nicole, and then TeRESSA literally took Bobby’s side. The entire group constantly calls Jim names, attack his manhood, privates, and his height as if Rino, Bobby, and Joe are accomplished big guys! These should be the last people to address my husband on this issue. Although I wish this never happened, I do firmly believe that if you don't act like a lady, you shouldn't expect to be treated like one. I applaud TerESSA for telling Bobby to get a set of balls, but she should not have stopped there. She should have called Rino and told him to get a “set of balls” and come to the house as Bobby was hiding in the bathroom with all hell breaking lose. I do not buy for a moment Rino wasn’t there because of something my husband did, the last time they saw each other was at Bobby’s house. Rino called Jim a jerk-off, not vice versus. Rino’s lame excuse is not flying. Rino knew he would have to face Jim one on one. I was upset that night, but what I did not know how Bobby was acting or the nasty comments coming from TerESSA. You can say what you want; Jim loves me and would NEVER leave me in that situation or hide. He came to Florida to protect me. Do you really think he wanted to be there? I tried to stop Jim from blurting out what I knew about Bobby, but Jim had enough of the games and was calling bullsh-- on everyone. They set him up and in return, they got served. He was not holding back and he was armed to the teeth. Bobby said welcome to hell, Jim’s reply, “Behold a pale horse his name that sat upon him was….” Revelation 6:8. If you think Jim’s action is a violation of the guy code, then setting up your best friend and having his wife attacked at your house under false pretenses is a “get out of jail free card” for the guy code. One thing about my husband, he will reflect what you provide him. If you are nice, he will be kind in turn. If you come at him with hate, he will return it in spades.
Meanwhile, the conversation between Dina and I was like entering into The Twilight Zone. Please take note of my expression when Dina starts having this “serious talk” with me, it’s just weird to me. Dina’s behavior was completely foreign and bizarre. Wass she really taking all of this seriously? I had done nothing with the rumor and here she is bringing it up again! This is three times she talks about the Gotti rumor to different people. She was not present at the Gotti get together, and this was none of her business. If she wanted to truly “be there for the twins” she should have called them before Florida. To be clear, my lesson learned was not from talking smack about things I lied about. It was passing along what I was told and trusting people that I should not have. I did take note Dina did not give me the heads up that she was putting the blame on me when telling the twins about the rumor. It was ridiculous that she completely left out Gotti. It is not that she decided to tell the twins, it was the in which manner she did. Dina was crafty with how she planted a seed that would get the twins amped at me rather than the source. If I knew how Dina relayed this information to the twins, I would have taken matters in my own hands. I would have immediately taken the twins aside to tell them, “Hey listen, Gotti said that Rino told her this, I bet Rino was being his typical goofy self or you need to speak with Gotti when you get back. It sounds pretty silly, but you got us on your side, now let’s go have a good time!” But NO! Dina was trying to nail it on me. I am so hurt and angry at this, especially now seeing it all play back. Thank GOD my husband was there. Dina was sending the twins to come after me, AGAIN! What the hell is wrong in her heart?! I was there to celebrate the best news of my life, meanwhile Dina is planning a blood bath! I also want to know what her obsession is with calling my husband names, she does not know him. She never took time to get to know him. Dina knew nothing of what Bobby and twins had done that night (or the night of the first responder’s party), yet once again Dina jumped in calling him a vagina and a dick.
None of this is good, drinking alcohol without food is no good, my white eye liner is not good. I truly feel the twins are nothing but foolish puppets believing and trusting people that they should not trust. They place blame on the most convenient party as it serves their self-love and misguided hatred. This makes me smile though, remembering the best line in a movie ever, “Vanity, one of my favorite sins,” (Al Pacino, The Devil’s Advocate).