Seriously?

Playboy magazine wanted to interview and photograph me. In addition to amazing pictures, Playboy is known for their articles. Hugh Hefner is a pioneer in the magazine world. He had a brilliant idea, why not add provocative images and evocative text? I was not only flattered to be photographed for Playboy, but I was even more flattered to have an article written, which sometimes ensures that the story will run and may be the feature. I met the writer at the restaurant Cafe Select and was shocked at how handsome he was. I barely gave him any information because I was so charmed by him, and honestly more interested in him than in the questions he was asking me. We never went on a date because I don't like to mix business and pleasure, and I make a concerted effort to keep my personal life personal. One may argue, then why I am on a reality show? This show is not about my life, it's about different women in New York and how their lives intersect. One day you may see my real life. You would be shocked at how much it mirrors your own.

Dating for me has always been really hard. I am incredibly shy and honestly insecure. I have a lot of male friends, but I had also been in a relationship since my mid twenties through my thirties, so I am not very proficient in the world of dating, and I am definitely not dating savvy. I am real, I don't play any games, and therefore I get my feelings hurt a lot. Regardless, I would rather not be bulletproof and welcome every moment. I have the worst radar, or so my friends tell me. I admire smart men who act like men. I am looking for someone like my father who is well educated, well mannered, and curious. I don't need a playmate. I would like him to do well, and I'd like him to let me do well, so we can do "us" well. I have two beautiful girls who deserve an amazing man in their life. I am looking for someone who wants to share and celebrate the life I have worked so hard to build. I want Chapter 2 with family and love. Everyone deserves to be loved.

Ally's photo shoot for Seventeen Magazine was so much fun. I was so flattered that Jill invited me to come and watch Ally model. It was so sweet to see Jill interact with Ally. Jill is an amazing mother and she is so excited for Ally. I was excited for Ally! The pictures looked great, and Ally was proud. Job well done.

I was flattered to be at the Brooklyn Fashion Week meeting. I started ELLE Accessories and judged the work of students graduating from the PARSONS School of Design many times with Tim Gunn. I admire young designers for their creativity and confidence to do what they love. Bethenny brought up the Daily News article. None of us wanted to give it oxygen, because Bethenny is infamous for putting herself in the press and giving slanderous articles to gossip reporters. I had to endure her press smackdown all last year, and it seriously affected my reputation and my children. I will never forgive or forget what she did to defame my reputation or hurt my children. Gossip is ugly. I needed to clear up the "I'm up here" statement I made last year for the viewers, because it was clearly misinterpreted. A lot of times when I am around Bethenny I feel like Crystal Carrington. She needs drama to stay alive on the show, starts fires, and then becomes the victim. I like to foster and hone creative ideas, not start fires or placate victims. The drama bores me.

When I got Jill's email, I was disappointed. I have been trying to make an effort with all of these women. I understand that Bethenny and Jill are both upset about their friendship, but it's their friendship. I am not known for being an intermeddler. I will continue to be polite to Bethenny until she proves me wrong. And I will continue to be friends Jill until she proves me wrong. Life is too short. We are all so lucky. Stay real, and tweet me anytime @kikilet. I prefer your impressions to mine.