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I'm Still Me

Sonja doesn't apologize for who she is -- and rises above those who criticize her.

By Sonja Morgan

I cringe when I see that argument between Alex and I. It really is a testament to our friendship that we got through it. LuAnn is right. Alex and I weren't close before, but we got closer after the fact realizing our future together is more important.

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Kelly gets upset when Alex is nervous? Why? Because it makes her uncomfortable? The question was why is she belittling Alex's feelings and calling her weird. That's not nice. But I think when Kelly is nervous the adjectives just come out. She herself said she is not comfortable with 1970s-style feelings.

People think that I pay for the parties but they are comped. The restaraunts are happy to host my clientele, because they are notable and can afford highend restaurants. Also I am happy to give them the exposure. Its a win-win for both of us. I love any excuse to celebrate love and life. I'm blessed to have both! Also a lot of my parties are for charity, and the vendors donate things or a portion comes out of the ticket price (per usual in the world of charity functions).

The best comment from Kelly is when she says she has no idea, and it's not her business when she is referring to her comments about my house not being mine, or clean or organized. She can say that again. What would make Kelly make mean-spirited comments about me? I have been nothing but kind and respectful of her -- protective in fact. I broke the ice between her and Ramona before we went away because I wanted her to be comfortable after our last trip. She said she gets uneasy around powerful assertive women, but this I deserve?

I never put Cindy down. I asked her to not put Ramona down. Ramona introduced her to us, and then she's not tolerant of the Ramonacoaster! There is a pecking order. Take care of those who take care of you. Cindy is always twisting the story, and she is always insulting me, while I do not insult her. She has been very aggressive even after I broke the ice between her and Ramona so she would be invited to Ramona's party that actually turned out to be a surprise birthday party for me!

No one's time is more important than anyone else's. Everyone gets to decide if they want to put business before their friends and family but not on someone else's invite in their home. Especially if your new "friendship" is already off to a rocky start.

Who am I supposed to act like other than who I am? I am friends with the Rothschilds. I do own my home, and I do have help at the house. I do live well. Which part are the girls saying is an act? Just because one of my business deals went badly doesn't mean every other branch of my my life is broken. I'm still me. Good and bad. Besides having less or more money doesn't take the personal pain away that I am processing. You win some, you lose some. Onwards and upwards.

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