Shannon: I Am Moving Forward

It is very frustrating when you only see a blip into everything that has happened in my life. And I get it! I am on a reality show and you are not going to see every second of what happens. You are not going to see every hour of what happens. It's just a short blink.

We all had a fun day together in Napa and everyone was getting along. On the drive to the Bello's beautiful home, Meghan and Jim brought up the charity party they were hosting the following week. They both asked me questions about an event that I hosted for the same charity some months prior. I answered the questions. I gave them suggestions. It was a given in the conversation that everyone on the bus would be attending the party. In addition, I had received a "Save the Date" email for the charity event.

I am upset that Meghan lied to me about how she got my number. If someone gives your cell phone number out, they either call to ask permission ahead of time or let you know that someone you don't know will be calling you. Neither of those happened. When I figured out who had called me, I sensed the manipulation behind it and guessed the exact thing that would happen at some point in the season. And it did at the Bello's party -- Meghan insinuated that I was uncharitable. Can you say "looking for a storyline"???  She never needed to call me. Meghan had numerous, qualified JDRF members to answer any questions she had and a qualified caterer in front of her (although Tamra may argue about that...). The only reason to call me was to create an issue with an existing cast member on the show. It was a pre-meditated ambush and I was understandably upset about it.

When hosting a charity event, it should always be only about the charity. I had already received a "Save the Date" email about the party, so of course assumed I would be attending. When I had dinner with Vicki and Tamra, I found it odd that I had not received an "official" invitation after the "Save the Date", which typically happens.  I was floored that Meghan was taking this thing to another level. She had lied to me about how she got my number and gave me her wrong name, and now she is trying to insinuate that I am unstable??? It is completely insulting. I have been involved in at least one charity at all times after I joined National Charity League (NCL) in 7th grade. That is how I was raised. I have manners. Will end it at that.

I was absolutely shocked that Vicki insisted on spending the evening with me instead of going to the event. I didn't want to make things any worse than they were. But I have to admit, I was so touched that my friend was sticking up for me. I also was incredibly humbled to see each cast member express their feelings that I should have been included in the party. They know all the facts and what happened. I am grateful for those friendships.

Of course any time Vicki and I get together we have an amazing time. Clearly an Aries thing! I always enjoy spending time with her. As you all know, I have been going thru a lot in my life. While not being officially invited to Meghan's party was absolutely hurtful and humiliating, I have more important things going on in my life that need my attention. I'm not going to focus on it or give it any life. I am moving forward.

It was so thoughtful for Heather reach out to Meghan before the party and ask her to reconsider her decision. Lizzie was so kind to reach out to me during the party to make sure I was all right. She is a true friend. And it was incredibly surprising to have Tamra, Lizzie, and Christian show up at my "date night" with Vicki to support me. A lot has happened since last year, and I am proud to call all of the people above my friends. They showed that to me tonight!

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Until next week... XOXO.