This is a very difficult episode to watch. I can't imagine how incredibly hard it is for Vicki to relive. It is just a reminder to us all that life is precious and that we should be grateful for every moment we have on this earth with our family.
We shouldn't focus on petty things—which brings to me to my phone call with Meghan in this episode. The party is over and I am done discussing an issue that Meghan wants to be much bigger than it is. I thought it was a perfect opportunity to "extend the olive branch" and show my willingness to move on by inviting Meghan to bunco. I was put off by the way Meghan was speaking to me, but I did my best to stay positive. When she told me to "prove myself" to her, it didn't sit well with me. I am not going to beg anyone to come to a party I am hosting, certainly not Meghan. I was offended that she thought that my wine donation was a "wedge" or "dig" at her. There was no manipulation behind it. I had the wine earlier and wanted to donate it. Period.
I have the most fun group of bunco friends. I have been in the group for 15 years and the rest of the gals have been playing together for close to 25 years! I was excited to have the ladies meet some of them. As you can see, it is a fun game and even Meghan was cheering and laughing during the "game for old people in Mississippi". And thanks for that not very flattering clip of me hooting and hollering, you can see I have a ball playing!
Prior to the bunco, one of my best friends came over to help me get ready. David had just come home moments earlier and started telling me how he ran into a girl. It didn't make sense to me and I thought he was talking "in code" to let me know he had seen his affair. You can see the shock in my eyes. He did not run into her. When that day comes, I am sure it may bring up certain emotions, but that was the past. I trust in the bond I have forged with David in the last year and I know he is committed to me.
David and I have made a lot of positive progress up to this episode, but you hear me talk about a bump in that progress tonight. When infidelity happens over the course of months, it isn't possible to know everything that happened during that time period. The end result, however, is what is most important. If I happen to realize a lie that was told to me during the affair, David affirms his love for me and I feel his remorse. That is communication. That is moving forward. That is love.
I am devastated for my friend Vicki. She had just spoken to her mother that morning and she told Vicki that her blood work was normal and she was going to be around for a long time. To learn such shocking and tragic news is difficult enough, but to do it while being filmed is unimaginable. I know that Vicki's mother is watching over her and giving her lots of light. I wish there was something I could do to take away the pain...