Shannon Beador: I Have Forgiven and Moved on

Let me just dive in. I am not looking forward to having the inevitable conversation with Vicki because I have made the decision I no longer want to have a friendship with her. I don't make decisions like that lightly. I believe that I was lied to for well over a year, longer than any other cast member, because Vicki knew I would defend her to the end. I am a loyal friend and I was the last person standing in her defense. I am entitled to make decisions that are best for me. I am not stuck in the past. I am tired of Vicki saying that I am making everything about me. I am tired of her calling me "disgusting and vile" which she has done numerous times.

I have forgiven and moved on. Tamra, Heather, and Meghan all know that. Some may say I have no heart. Some may say I am a bitch. Some may say I am a mean girl. I am sorry they feel that way. It's not about being right or wrong. I don't want a person that continues to fabricate things and not take accountability for them in my life. I am not going to put myself in the situation to be hurt and used again. I am only protecting myself and I am allowed to make decisions ensuring that will happen. I'm tired of talking about it.

It's interesting to hear Kelly say to Heather and Meghan that the past issues with Vicki are none of her business. Wondering why she continues to bring it up every time we all see her?

At this point, I am ready for some fun so I want to throw a 70's party. I just want to have a silly, quirky, and crazy fun night!

I'm excited to have the party, but don't know what to do about Vicki. I truly am fine being in a room with her. I also remember how she defended me last year when I wasn't invited to Meghan's party. I want to extend Vicki an invitation, but am having an issue figuring out how to invite her. My initial email was harsh and I am glad Tamra was there to help guide me in softening the invitation.

Next on RHOC: A 70s-Themed Argument

Next week is yet another party from hell. I am going to New York next week to be on Watch What Happens Live. Tune in as I'm sure we are going to break this party down!

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