Hope you are all enjoying the season and had a great summer. Thanks to all of you who have been following me on my social media and staying up to date on what’s going on in my life. I’m always up to something, and my life is so busy that it’s fun meeting you all in my travels.
When I went to Meghan and Jim’s party, I went in with a thought that if I see Shannon, I will simply remove myself from wherever she was. She has continued to put out to the universe that I am a liar, and I’m fed up with it. Everyone who knows me, knows my heart and knows I would never do anything like Shannon is accusing me of. I didn’t lie about “his” illness and I don’t understand why she is so fixated on this topic. Everyone who knew “him” and I, experienced the same thing I did and also believe(d) he was/is sick. I don’t know anything more than that and I’m done talking about it. I’m also DONE with her and her continued negative attitude and bashing of me and her bullying me. I’ve told her over and over again, her desire to keep my ex-boyfriend’s name and the problems I went through with him in her vocabulary is her problem and her issue. I have zero desire to utter his name, speak about him or think of him ever again. It’s been over a year since we have broken up, I’ve moved on so why can’t she? She has zero compassion for what I went through, and I can’t spend any more time discussing it with her.
When Shannon came up to me at the party and wanted to confront me about not acknowledging that I called her, I thought it was inappropriate timing and just plain rude. I know after I was hurt, she really didn’t care about me or how I was recovering so why make a fake phone call. I think she called me only to save face because the other ladies were so nice to me and questioned her and her lack of compassion (without me prompting them to). I’m finding out that Shannon will follow Tamra’s lead around like a little puppet. If she thinks that Tamra thought she should have phoned me or come up to me at the party, then that’s the only reason why she did it. It wasn’t sincere at all.
Tamra thinks that I was upset that Shannon didn’t see me in the hospital which was true, but also I saw (as you all did) that Tamra and Heather thought she should have shown up too. It wasn’t just me. I had asked if one of them could run to the store and grab me some inexpensive sweat pants, t-shirt, and sandals so when I was discharged I had clothes to wear home since they were cut off when I got to the hospital. It’s not like I needed her to hold my hand, just a quick stop in to see if I needed anything would have been nice. I’m over it, moved on and really know now I can’t count on those two for help. It’s fine, I get it.
When I called Shannon a liar, is because she is. We all have lied in the past for something, whether it was a white lie, a malicious lie or something in between. I’m tired of Shannon’s negative attitude and turning so vicious towards me for nothing that I did to her. I’m tired of her continued rant that I lied about my ex and his health. I didn’t and if she has questions about HIM and the reasons he did what he did, she should contact him directly as she has his phone number. Again...very weird that she can’t let this go.
The truth of the matter is, I know something that is very hurtful about the Beadors which she has lied about. I have no desire to hurt her or her family, but she has hurt me beyond words and I don’t know what to do about her anymore. I simply want her to stay away from me, to stop talking crap about me and my family for attention and to just focus on her family and what makes her happy. I don’t like this type of friendship, and don’t have these issues with my friends outside of this circle of women. I have compassion for people that are hurting, and don’t want to make things worse for her or for her family.
Now onto Tamra. I truly think if she and I had our own show without all the other negativity it would be fun. When I saw our little shopping spree together, it made me laugh out loud. It’s definitely hysterical when we are together, no matter what we do we always have fun. Unfortunately, when Tamra gets in her little circle of "friends" (puppets), she changes and then creates problems (AKA: pot stirrer). I can’t figure out if it’s for real, or if it’s to cause drama and to get attention. When her and I are together it’s good and we have never had any issues. I’m at the point where I’m desensitized from her perpetual mood swings and screaming at me (which you will see more of when we get to Ireland). I just don’t understand her motive. Is this how she believes Christian women speak to one another? Is this something that is uplifting and inspiring? If she doesn’t respect me, or like me that’s fine. I’m tired of her dishing it out to me (and anyone else that’s in her path), and never being able to take it in return. I just want her to keep her negativity away from me. I’m not ok with name calling or hurtful comments from her anymore. If she’s not fighting or arguing with someone, she is not being Tamra. She’s done it every year with someone and quite frankly I’m tired of it...enough is enough.
Watching Michael and Kelly interact with each other the night of Heather’s book party was hard. I know they have gone through some tough times, and it is always heightened when alcohol is involved. Steve and I have spent one on one time with them and they are a lot of fun and I know they love each other. They are working through their “issues”, and how to manage them especially in tense situations. Kelly has been a good friend to me, and I to her. We have each other’s back when the heat gets turned up by these other women.
I’m so proud of Heather and Terry and personally I don’t know how Heather manages to do everything she does with four kids, writing a book and the show. I haven’t read her book yet, but when I get some down time I’m definitely going to take them up on their advice on how to age gracefully and look our best.
Now onto Steve who you met in this week’s episode. My daughter told me when I wasn’t looking, a great man would appear and it would be in God’s perfect timing. Well my daughter was once again right and God is good. He has blessed me with an incredible man when I was least expecting it. We met at a charity event back in April and have been inseparable ever since. He’s kind, he’s a Christian, has a great career, he has a beautiful family and my children and grandchildren love him. We are taking it slow, but we have a respectful, loving, and happy relationship and I am one lucky lady.
I hope you are all enjoying the season, we are on the home stretch. The reunion films in a few weeks and I still don’t have my dress picked out so if you have any ideas, let me know what you think I should wear. I’m always down to the wire on this.
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