I’m really happy that Vicki found Steve. He’s an incredible guy, and I love seeing how happy Vicki is every time she’s around him.
Speaking of Vicki, there was a moment at the Lambo event that I believe deserves clarification. I had brought up the Ireland trip (my bad!) and noticed Vicki did not want to talk about it at all. Completely shutting me down, she mentioned to me, “You don’t know anything about it” when I asked about how the trip went. From her facial expressions and her shaking head, I could tell how uncomfortable she was with me talking about the situation. I respected that and chose not to keep questioning how the trip went and proceeded to change the subject.
On the other hand, Meghan kept feeding fuel to the fire and went on and on about Vicki’s behavior and how invalid some of her actions were. When someone keeps pushing buttons to a point where it becomes immature, somebody has to stop that person.
People are overreacting about me touching Meghan by physically shutting her lips, but it clearly had no malicious intent. I was smiling while I was doing it and laughing in a harmless way after I did it. I did it to squeeze her pretty lips together and stop talking about it and pushing Vicki’s buttons to avoid having any sort of drama at our event.
I could tell Meghan knew what she was doing when she kept going on and on about the topic, and I just cringed watching her ask all those questions when I watched the episode. She kept dragging on the topic when Vicki was clearly over talking about it.
I couldn’t believe my phone cracked! I thought it was so funny that as Diko and I were at home talking about the Lambo event, Meghan called me. I asked her, “Were your ears ringing?” It was ironic that she called the moment we were talking about her. It wasn’t her fault that the phone fell on the ground from the vibration of the ringtone. I’ve never seen that happen in real life, so when the phone fell and cracked the glass, I was kidding around that Meghan needed to fix my phone, which never happened, by the way, because I didn’t expect her to.
When I finally got the chance to speak to her after joking around about the phone, I made a comment about passing Aspen around to the women so that nobody would have the chance to fight. Clearly, she misunderstood me. My point was since Aspen is so precious and adorable, nobody would want to fight and scream while holding this God-sent child in their arms. It’s a guarantee that nobody would be in the mood to fight.
Beating a dead horse: This is another topic that deserves to be clarified in advance. As you can see, I have an amazing relationship with my husband Diko. We have the best of times being silly, with love and laughter, even having fun with a topic of idioms such as "beating a dead horse." I googled it later, to find out it meant something pointless to discuss since it's been discussed so many times already; he's so right.
Its literal definition is to discuss an issue that has already been resolved. It’s pointless to keep discussing, since it’s in the past. If an argument erupts and it's one that has been previously settled, then the idiom "beating a dead horse" might be said by someone who sees any further discussion on the topic to be meaningless.
I made a comment about losing my parents on top of losing my breasts as a symbol for how short life can be. These women dwell on things that happened in the past, as if it’s the only thing they have to talk about in life. They fail to look at the bigger picture and choose to be so sensitive over the smallest things. I’m aware things I say are misinterpreted at times, but I want everyone to know that my heart is in the right place. For some reason, I’m always put in uncomfortable situations. Anytime I feel tension in the room, I try to break the tension by saying something silly or a joke they may or may not understand, but sometimes it does not work in my favor.
All in all, people need to just learn how to ignore things and let certain things go. Don’t try to relive the past in every moment of your life and try to correct everything and everyone. Let go of the toxic emotions.
I’m glad Kelly was able to make amends with Tamra and Shannon before the Sip-N-See. The tension between them was resolved, and I hoped that we could all be in the same room at the Sip-N-See. But I was wrong.
On another note, as I deal with the loss of my father and my health battle, I am choosing to focus on my family and on my own recovery and not on personal attacks against me.
I will not further engage in a public exchange with anyone, but it must be stated that the accusations against me are false and my actions have been grossly mischaracterized.
Please know how much my family and I appreciate all of those who have stood by me and supported me. Your support is extremely appreciated, and my family and I are very grateful.