Tamra Judge: I Grew Up Keeping My Emotions Bottled Up
"If there was an issue we would sweep it under the rug."
It's Lydia's birthday and wow what a lucky girl she is. Two cars, Chanel, and a helicopter ride to Catalina. Now that's a birthday.
Peggy's daughter is 100% correct. She's not in my situation so she can't just say "patch it up" she doesn't know the whole story. Peggy says it's petty for Vicki and I to be arguing. MY question to her is WHO'S arguing? I'm just over Vicki's crap and I don't choose to have friends that stab me In the back all the time. I'm moving on -- chapter closed!
As a fitness enthusiast I cringed listening to Kelly order all that food so high in fat. I haven't eating like that in years. Not saying it probably didn't taste good. I'm with Michael on this one, I'd rather stay home. I'm not a social butterfly. Eddie likes to be on the move all the time, I like to be home. But some how we are always together. It would bother me if Eddie was out all the time without me. We spend 95% of our time together.
Watching David eating the chips made me laugh and annoyed at the same time. I hate hearing people eat. The girls say their mom's healthy cooking is disgusting is pretty typical, my kids say the same thing sometimes. I'm very excited that Shannon is opening a healthy affordable restaurant. We need more of them in OC.
Growing up there wasn't a lot of communication in our family. If there was an issue we would sweep it under the rug. I grew up keeping my emotions bottled up. It was heartbreaking and refreshing to hear my mom open up and tell me how hard it has been for her as well. She misses her granddaughter so much.
Divorce is horrible on everyone involved. Sometime I think, If I didn't get divorced we would not be going through this. But I did and now I'm trying to navigate through it the best way I can. I've definitely have made mistakes along the way and beat myself up with the "what ifs".
Lydia's launch party was very well planned out. BTW can I just take a moment to say how hot Meghan looked. That body of hers is so amazing especially after just having a baby.
When I asked if Vicki was there I wanted to be prepared if I ran into her. I have no desire to intimidate Vicki like she had said. Never entered my mind, if you're intimidated Vicki that's your own insecurity. I don't play that game. The ice was broken at the Sip-N-See but honestly I'm still uncomfortable around her. The bottom line is I have moved on...someone tell Lydia. Not everyone needs to be friends. I wish her well but I don't care to be her friend. Vicki talks so badly about me to everyone and never takes accountability. She tries so hard to make me look like horrible. She's constantly saying things like, "Tamra throws grenades and walks away". No, that would be you! When have I done that to you, Vicki? Or the best one, I divide and conquer "maintaining the control over one's subordinates or encouraging distance" say what? Again that would be you. Every time you meet someone new you tell them horrible things about me before they even meet me. You did that with Shannon, Heather, Kelly, and the list goes on.
I agree with kelly I don't like going to events by myself. I usually don't, but I wanted to support Lydia and Eddie has zero tolerance for bulls***...aka Vicki. So he didn't want to go. Bless your heart Lydia you keep trying. I just bust up every time Vicki says, "I'm really hurt by what she's done to me". What have I done? It's funny that she thinks I will come at her with "defense and justification" otherwise known as "the truth". Give it up Vicki, you can say everyone did you wrong until you're blue in the face but your actions speak louder than your words. Finally something both Vicki and I agree on "the damage is done". Really Vicki, no one was giving you dirty looks at all...show up late and leave early and blame it on us. Classy! I love you Lydia but honestly Wicki is dead to me. No, that doesn't mean I wish death on her. It means I don't want to acknowledge her...or do I? Lydia keeps pushing and I'm starting to think maybe I should meet with Vicki?
I tried to explain to Peggy who only knows Vicki's side that you don't attack someone's marriage. Vicki has been spreading this gay rumor around about Eddie for a long time. It's not just that she "repeated a rumor to Kelly" she's been blabbing her mouth for a while. It all started after I told her I didn't think Brooks was a good guy. Hmmm is there a connection?
I've always known Vicki wasn't a good friend, she was a fun friend. Vicki has attacked nearly everyone's marriage. She gave Meghan a few years before she would be divorced, accused David of horrific behavior toward Shannon, and has spread rumors that Eddie is gay. The best part is she always says she has "proof" but never shows it. It doesn't take a degree in psychology to know what she's doing. She wants our husbands to look bad! Because we told her Brooks wasn't a good guy. It's so transparent and juvenile.
I've never talked to Peggy about my friendship with Vicki so when she told me, "it's not worth it, you're dwelling on it," it pissed me off. Even her own daughters told her she not in my situation and who is she to say "patch it up". It sounds like Vicki has been in her ear talking crap. For Peggy to say she wants to have compassion for me but I need to move on is a joke. I have moved on and the only reason we are talking about Vicki is because Lydia brought it up and now Peggy is giving her two cents. I finally stopped trying to reason with Peggy and asked her, "what do you want me to do?" her response, "do what you want to do"...LOL, poking my eyes out right now.
It's a blessing to have a friend like Shannon. She's a loyal friend that has my back and would never do anything to hurt me. I feel very blessed.
Next week is the Spartan Race AROO!
