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Tamra: I Was a Fool to Defend Vicki

Tamra discusses how it felt to have Vicki throw her under the bus and why she feels destined to be the bad guy.

By Tamra Judge

After the shock of Ryan moving away and getting married to a girl he doesn't know, I thought it was a good idea to talk with Vicki. Vicki and I have been through so many of the same life experiences, and I wanted to hear take on things. Clearly there is nothing you can do to change the mind of a 28 year old, so I just sat back and hoped for the best.

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I really felt bad when I couldn't make it to Lizzie's Birthday party. Sophia had come down with the flu that day and was running a fever. When Lizzie called, I said I was so sorry but Sophia was sick and I could not make it. We talked a bit, but you'll hear more about that later. 

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Vicki found out that I was not going to the party around 5 pm when she texted me to ask me what I was wearing. I told her what was going on and I that could not make it. She was so upset and told me "I do not want to hang out with dumb and dumber," referring to Lizzie and Danielle.

And then Vicki gets into the limo and started blasting me saying I could have come, that I just didn't want too, and that she would never do that Lizzie. ARE YOU KIDDING ME VICKI? You were the one caught calling Lizzie "Dumb and Dumber" and saying how you didn't want to hang out with her -- and you throw me under the bus?

I am just disgusted with Vicki's constant backstabbing all season long. She is so sweet to my face, but behind my back she is trying to turn everyone against me. It's like she wants to pay me back for no one liking Brooks.

Which leads me into her conversation about how I went to her daughter and turned her against Brooks . . .That is another flat out lie! Briana has said in past seasons that she knew about Brooks for many years and has never liked him. She has expressed to everyone that she does not like Brooks. And after seeing their therapy session, I don't believe she will ever like him.

Vicki seems to forget that last year at the Reunion Briana told us all about the Brooks conversation with Ryan (that he recorded), when Brooks said some pretty horrible things about Vicki. I am pretty sure that was the nail in the coffin for Briana.

I did my best to accept Brooks this year to make Vicki happy. I felt like I did a really good job considering what I knew about Brooks, only to watch the episodes and see how much Vicki has bashed me all season. It shows me what kind of friend she is. It was OK for her to get involved in my marriage to Simon and not like him, but I am a horrible person for not being accepting of Brooks in the past and now she is going to try and make me pay for it? To think I was the only person that stuck up for her last year when Lauri was going after her. I thought I was being a good friend? I was a fool.

Heather and her party games are always funny -- but Fancy Pants really surprised me with her games this year. I am going to have to change her name to Dirty Pants.

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When Lizzie came up to me a the Valentine's Dinner to let me know what Vicki said, I was blown away once again. I never had a issue with Lizzie and thought she was a very sweet girl. It was Vicki that had been nasty to Lizzie all season. When I heard what Vicki told Lizzie I wanted to say, "So let me get this straight, Vicki calls me to tell me she does not want to go to your party then calls you names, my daughter is sick, and I am the bad guy?" Wow I am starting to feel like what ever I do, I'm going to be the bad guy.

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But all I could do is sit there and shake my head in disbelief, I didn't know Lizzie that well and wanted to talk to Vicki, my long time friend, to find out if this was really the truth.

Thank you to my amazing husband for the beautiful flowers.

The Valentine's Dinner was beautiful and we all had a great time. . .well, wait until next week to hear what happened.

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