Scheana Marie Gets Candid About Her Past Relationships: "I Wasn't Really Being My True Self"

If Scheana Marie's romantic past was a carnival ride, it would be more of a roller coaster than a glide through the tunnel of love. The Vanderpump Rules pal's marriage to Mike Shay ended in divorce; shortly thereafter, her romantic relationship with longtime friend Rob Valletta was also put on ice.  If breaking up is hard to do, then breaking up twice is even harder — and Scheana recently opened up about that in a major way. 

Speaking to Us Weekly, the SURver admitted that she cringes at certain scenes from Vanderpump Rules Season 6. (Hint: She talked about Rob. A lot. Peep the clip above if you need proof.) "Just seeing where I was last year and how I obsessed I was with my relationship and all of that and coming into this year, I feel like I’m much more self-aware, self-deprecating, and I feel like I’m me again for the first time in a while… I kind of lost myself for a couple years and got caught up in the things that weren’t important," she shared. 

Scheana also reflected on prior seasons, which showcased the tough spots in her marriage. "I think season 4, it got really hard just dealing with  Shay’s addiction and martial problems and season 5, pretending like everything was fine. I felt like I wasn’t really being my true self, I was putting on this facade of ‘everything’s sunshine and rainbows and no, no, no, I’m really happy," she shared. 

Sheana added, "Even with Rob, there was so many times that things didn’t really [seem] right, but I ignored it. I ignored signs, I ignored other opinions. I was just like ‘No, no, no, this is perfect,’ because I couldn’t admit that me jumping into a relationship a month after a divorce was a bad idea. I couldn’t admit that things weren’t perfect. I just wanted everyone to think, ‘Oh wow, this is her fairy-tale ending, she got divorced and met the love of her life. And everyone lived happily ever after.’ And that was not the case." 

But the SURver has different plans for Season 7 (premieres Dec. 3 9/8 c.) "I think this year, I’ve done a really good job at being as honest as I possibly can be and vulnerable. If I’m sad, you’re going to see me cry. If I’m angry, you’re going to hear what I have to say,” she said. “I think I held back for a long time and kind of tiptoed around certain people. I didn’t want to upset people. I wanted everyone to think that my life was perfect when it certainly wasn’t." 

She's also focusing more on her friendships. “That’s one thing I think Stassi, Kristen, and Katie love about me is they’re like, ‘We can make fun of you and you’re not going to get your feelings hurt now?'… I think that will be fun to see me not getting so butthurt about things that don’t matter." Get a sneak peek at the new season, below.