Oh sweet lady, I have had you and your daughter in my thoughts and prayers for so long. I have never actually blogged or emailed a celebrity before, but you are the exception. I too, have lived with and thru DV, and it was shocking how many of my 'friends' didn't believe me when I finally had the courage to end a 16 yr marriage. He was my high school sweetheart, and just like you said, "when it's good, its the best, and when its bad, its the worst..."I always thought it was my fault, if I was thinner, prettier, made more money, acted more sexy or less sexy and the list goes on and on. I was so relieved when he finally moved out, but there was this void - a stillness in the house that was so unnerving, yet soothing at the same time. I wish I could hug you, and somehow erase all the horrible memories that you will carry with you the rest of your life. It does get better, it does get easier. surround yourself with people that love you for the woman that you are, and don't let the media suck you into a new icon for DV -you need time to heal and learn how to be comfortable in your own skin - maybe for the first time
It's was strange when it finally dawned on me that I was in charge of my life - I could decide what to cook, or when to do anything for that matter. It took about 6 months - then I finally laughed and cried at the same time because then I knew it was real - I was really in charge of myself for the first time - ever!!!
You are so beautiful both physically and spiritually; I'm sure there are men lining up around the block to comfort and love you. Just know that you are worthy of love and devotion, and all of the beautiful things in life.
If you ever need someone to call and talk to confidentially of course, or would like to visit the Portland Oregon area - I'm here for you & Kennedy. Not sure if this will post publicly, but you have access to my email account, and would be glad to give you my phone number if you need a "sister in spirit"
I admire your strength and the courage it took to go on the Dr Phil show, and thank God for the protection He gave you and your daughter. I sat and cried for you and your baby girl -how blessed you were to have survived this ordeal.
Just know that you are a beacon of hope and light to many women that know your story. I know that God has a plan for you, and He will carry you thru this. With much love and adoration, Bella