Jeff Lewis

Jeff compliments his hard working team (except for Zoila of course).

on Aug 10, 20100

Dear Diary,

I am with Jenni on an American Airlines flight from St Louis to LA. I’ve had three glasses of wine and I’m feeling particularly somber and introspective. I realize I need to blog, but I feel like a teenage girl writing in her journal.

My design business has grown exponentially, but with success comes new challenges. I’m very grateful to have so many clients in this economy, but it has been very difficult adjusting to the onslaught of work. Because money was so scarce a year ago, I don’t want to turn anyone away out of fear. I now have roughly 15-18 clients, and everyone at Jeff Lewis Design is working like dogs. Correction—everyone but Zoila.

Cocktail hour helps to appease my disgruntled employees, but we all are burning the candle at both ends. I question whether I can keep up this pace, but downsizing is a last resort. It was easier when I had Ryan to lean on and I miss his support and friendship. I am still very sad over what transpired 10-months ago. Ryan and I have had very little contact and I have not seen Chloe since her birthday party. I have come to the realization that we may never be friends again. But life goes on, and I have a business to run.

I work harder now than ever, and I appreciate every dollar I generate. I try to instill my work ethic in my employees, but they don’t all get it. Sometimes my stress and frustration get the best of me, and I act out. When I react negatively, the guilt I have afterwards is often all-consuming. I sometimes wish I could rewind and redo. Since that’s not an option, I can only try to learn from my mistakes and respond differently the next time. I want to be a good person, but it just doesn’t always work out that way.

Jenni’s snoring has now grown so loud, I can’t hear myself think. She’s actually kind of cute when she’s sleeping, especially with the black freckles I added with my Sharpie. I wonder how long it will take her to notice. Hopefully, not until she gets home. I have asked the flight attendant for another glass of wine, but she’s too busy explaining to someone in coach why they can’t use the first-class restroom. I didn’t want to report the woman, but aren’t there plenty of bathrooms in coach for her to use? And more importantly, why are these wine glasses so small?

91 comments
aussiegirl
aussiegirl

Jeff,I'm begging you plleeeaaassseeee - for the love of god!!!!!! What is the name of the artist that took the photograph of the motel sign in the living room of Vally Oak!!

Joe from Minnesota
Joe from Minnesota

I just started watching the show during the summer, plus I've watched some reruns, so I have a decent sense of what's going on. I'm glad Gage is part of the show now. Watching the "Reunion" show it stuck me the number of times Jeff talked about "his children" or "raising his children." He never talked about raising "out children." I just notice things like that. Not a criticism, but feedback.

hm14
hm14

Hi Jeff, I am proud of you. You have done a great job. You are the same age as my daughter also born in 1970 so I can relate. I have worked all my adult life and have been around the block with all kinds of employers and employees. I agree with Linda L. For the past few weeks it has become very obvious that Gage is knocking everyone off one by one. Look out my friend. You'll be left with no one - only Gage, who is looking forward to spending your money. Good luck to you and God Bless.

Linda L
Linda L

Jeff, I love your show, I love Jenny and Zoila! I must say though that I dont care for Gage, he's creepy, rude and it seems as though he is trying to get rid of Zoila and Jenny....I would watch him if I were you! What does he bring to the table???? You and your team deserves better, and I hope he doesn't burn you. Luv your show and I wish you lots of happiness and good health!

LAgirlFan
LAgirlFan

Hi Jeffrey!

I am so glad you are blogging! Please continue to blog, please do drink wine, it's a must. :)

You are simply fabulously perfect! How do you handle yourself? Seriously!

What is the story with that woman client who does NOT like Jenni?? Jenni is beautiful and funny with tremendous potential!

Keep the humor coming! Please give the team a raise soon, they are awesome! Zoila!!! Shes great too!

cheers Jeffrey Lewis!!!!

marilyn miller
marilyn miller

Happy to see your show back. Jeff, you and Zoila are meant to be together. You two crack me up. Watching from Kansas City, Mo.

jerg1983
jerg1983

May I just say that I love your show, as well as your work....I have to be honest thought when I say that I think Gage is an ass. He gives off a very creepy vibe.

SophiaLove
SophiaLove

OMG I KNOW!!!! I have been dying to know who he is.He is physically my type and a hard dependable worker.Amazing characteristics in a man. I would love to be a hammer in his hands hahaha

redbird
redbird

Jeff, love your show. I am obsessing on that beautiful picture of a silver rose that is hanging on your dining room wall. Please let me know where I can purchase it. Gotta have it!

Lee S
Lee S

For THE LOVE OF CHRIST!..Please tell us where that damn MOTEL picture can be found...! I'm sure it's not in my budget, but I'll sell something or someone to buy it...

Bree Stalhamer
Bree Stalhamer

Huge fan of the show!!!!! Your taste is impeccable.. I must know where I can purchase the wine glasses you use at home. I'm obsessed with them and must find them. Can you share the designer? The long stem ones with the flat base of the glass...... Someone, anyone, help me find them :)

Jon Sterling
Jon Sterling

Jeff,

Seriously, where did you get such a great work ethic? Is it OCD based, or did you train yourself to work day in and day out with few breaks in between? If you have a formula, or sell it by the six pack, please let me know my MC number is XXXX-XXXX-4923 j/k about the card. But really - damn I admire your drive...

-Jon

Chris M
Chris M

By the way: we want more lesbians!

Lo
Lo

jeff your contractor chris is so good looking who is he?

Flipped Out
Flipped Out

I would also like to know the answer to where the "Motel sign" print can be found. I have been looking for it all season.

Thanks!

myrnak
myrnak

Jeff ---- your humor -- your interactions -- I can count on your show to put a smile on my face -- strange how television deceives us into thinking we know you. best wishes for even more success m If it's your choice not to see Chloe then you have to make another one. You'll add technicolor to her color spectrum.....she'll need that when she grows up. Ryan doesn't seem like a bad guy -- just a frustrated one -- I wouldn't want to 'partner' with you on national TV....attention is just too weighted in your direction

Chantal Montreal Canada
Chantal Montreal Canada

Jeff, I would like to comment on your excellent show. I admire your business sense, your coaching skills, your confidence, your assertivness and your ability to listen to your client needs. It certainly allow you to choose the correct product for your clients. I just wish you could of been my brother or friend when I started my career in sales. I do medical sales. No one in my family are in business. It was quite hard at first but I manage and became stronger and more assertive over the years. I watch your show to give me energy. It really gives me a lot of drive to go and accomplish more when a new week start. I think your very intelligent, that you are great and that you are a beautifull person inside and out. You really cute too ::)) I wish you many successes for you during this difficult economy. PS: my mother tongue is french so please to pay attention to my grammar.

Lori B Rosen
Lori B Rosen

Jeff, Luv you & Flipping out. I am watching your show as I type this..you need to call me for a consultation! I am an astro"LOGICAL" life coach, I can help you with your employees! It is important to hire compatible people for a business such as yours. I can save you a lot of time and energy in the training and hiring department. Blessings~~

BillP
BillP

I'm watching your great show tonight- glad business is good and luv to see your interesting projects and great designs. One word of unsolicited advice- you should dump Sarah- she doesn't seem to have the motivation or interest in details. The gum chomping drives me batty- glad she's not sitting next to me!

Monica
Monica

Hi Jeff,

Been watching your show since it started. I would love to work for you. I have worked for someone very much like you for over 20 years since I was 20. Its not that you are difficult as much as you just want things done efficiently and correctly the first time. It looks like all of your assistants just like to do things to purposely frustrate you. You're great on the show and my family and I love watching you. It's just funny that my family and staff always joke with me that I could work with you, no problem. Don't change a thing about you! Your clients would be the biggest losers if you do.

SM
SM

Jeff,

I absolutely love the show. I think your bossly ways are fantastic. I hope all your employees understand how lucky they are....YOU ARE A DREAM BOSS! My background is Project Administration so if you ever need an assistant please let me know. I will always have directions for you when we are leaving to meet a client....:)

Kate_T
Kate_T

Jeff,

I totally adore you and so love your sense of humor! You definitely deserve such a pat on the back for your hard work! I hope to afford you one day! And believe me you will get 97% free reign!!!

Only watching Flipping Out
Only watching Flipping Out

I stopped watching all the shows on Bravo EXCEPT for Flipping Out. Love it. Jeff Lewis has the dryest sense of humor. Looking forward to tonights episode. (working now but will watch rerun at 11 EST..)

germain
germain

They have had your show on all day and I watched every one even tho I had seen most of them before. You and your staff are so entertaining and down to earth! Keep up the good work, Jeff. I hope you are on TY for a long time to come.....

JM in hotLanta
JM in hotLanta

Jeff, Get Jenni an office already. Geez how can you stand to have someone at your elbow all the time?

longtime viewer
longtime viewer

Ryan looked honest to me. Jeff, you are acting paranoid. You defamed this guy without clear proof. You should not have handled it on the air like you did.

mom2rescues
mom2rescues

Miss Ryan terribly he made your show great without him the show is only good..

Lets start a Facebook page to bring Ryan back..

Renada
Renada

I am totally in luv w this show theres just something about the relationship they have that just makes you want to watch. I wish i could get a flip.

Sara- "jeff, u r great"
Sara- "jeff, u r great"

Jeff you are so right about Ryan!!! I just saw the reunion( I know it aired 10-09), and I hate him! So what if it's about the money, isn't it called business? I know that it's about a friend betraying you, which is really hard to face, but he isn't a true friend. He couldn't even be a man and apolozige. People like him should be shot in the knee caps. Jenni is your new best friend, and she is super funny and a great dancer. hahahaha Live it up without Ryan. You live and you learn. Jeff you are awesome! Zoila is f'n awesome too! I love her.

Linda Louise
Linda Louise

I have watched your show since it started. Love it, Love it, Love it!!!!! Please think about moving to the East Coast!!!! Washington D.C, Southern Maryland and the East Coast Ocean beaches, Virginia, New York!!!!! We need you here!!!!! A new start on the East Coast!!!!! Bring your staff......

frank enrodz
frank enrodz

i love your show dude. never had so much fun watching somebody with ocd whine so much. if every channel had a character like you there would be something more worthwhile to watch on tv... and DEB RULES !!! i think it would be real cool to match you up with daniel tosh from tosh.o for an episode. maybe a smackdown between you two

Fan from Kansas City
Fan from Kansas City

Jeff, I love the show. The design part of the show, the relationships, and the humor. You have an eye for perfection. I love to see the work in progress of the homes. No matter what happens with Jennie's television career, I hope the two of you can maintain your wonderful friendship. I too have lost someone close to me due to trust being broken. It is hard when you let down the walls and let someone in to find out they decided to use you for their own gain. It is such a deep pain that is not easily overcome. Especially when they try to turn it around and try to blame you, it is just so hurtful. I hope you will find a healthy way to deal with the broken trust and not allow it to destroy the wonderful person you are. I hope Ryan never tries to use the love you have for Chloe to try to get back into your life. I believe one can forgive but it doesn't mean you need to allow that person back into your life. I wish only the best for you. KC Fan

frank enrodz
frank enrodz

i love your show dude. never had so much fun watching somebody with ocd whine so much. if every channel had a character like you there would be something more worthwhile to watch on tv... and DEB RULES !!! i think it would be real cool to match you up with daniel tosh from tosh.o for an episode. maybe a smackdown between you two

lyn bell
lyn bell

O.M.F.G: Luv, luv, luv, you sooooo much and you rock. I am a big fan of you and your show and I just wanted to tell you to keep on keeping up. Don't ever change you and continue being real.

MegT
MegT

I love the show and I'm so happy you're back!!!!

Leslie Fry
Leslie Fry

Love the show, I never miss it. I think Jeff and the crew are a riot. I say Jeff should run for president! Ya....JEFF LEWIS FOR PRESIDENT!

Ramsey NJ Mom
Ramsey NJ Mom

I just love this show! I am a BRAVO fan and this is the bestshow they have! I actually laugh out loud when I'm watching! Have a great season!!

NinaSol
NinaSol

Love this show and your work ethic! You're an inspiration to all us entrepreneurs out there! How do you make it look so easy?

bigfan1975
bigfan1975

Jeff - I was so glad that our satellite provider added Bravo to our line up (at least temporarily). I missed your show last season and have been DVRing all last years repeats. I love you and love your show. You need to lighten up on people, but I think you know that and I've seen you make great progress. You are very lucky to have people like Jenni & Zoila who can take your abuse and still love you. I was very impressed with how you handled the Ryan thing. I was completely blown away - I never thought he would do something so underhanded and then blow it off like it's nothing. You could see from the smirk on his face that he knew he'd been caught piggybacking on your name. Without you that show is nothing and he would have none of the recognition he does now. He owes you more than he can repay. He owes you an apology. He's so worried about what kind of example Jeff sets for Chloe but doesn't he think about the example this will set for her when she sees the show someday? He's a nice guy but needs to face up to the fact that breached the ethics of friends. At least you still have Jenni, Zoila, Jett & Sarah - they are priceless - don't let them go. You put up with Elwood for too long. You are like a car wreck that I can't stop watching. My guilty pleasure. Thanks!

Viewerase
Viewerase

I love your show, I love Zoila and jenni too. You are great.

chata98
chata98

Flipping Out is my favorite show ever only because of you Jeff, Ryan KNEW how important TRUST is to you yet he still betrayed you...that says it all about him, remember that ACTIONS speak LOUDER than words! Love Zoila must say that she compliments your show A LOT! wish you even more success... you deserve it!!!!

Marellenmac
Marellenmac

Having watched the show since season one, I was so saddened by the reunion between you and Ryan. Like you, I had hoped Ryan would own up and take responsibility for his actions. When he started to throw himself into the "victim" category, I was shocked and disgusted. A person who has consistently talked about you as though you were beneath him and an embarrassment to be burdened with should not say he's spent years defending you. He spent most of his time on camera rolling his eyes or making condescending comments towards you. I feel like letting go of that relationship, while painful, is the right thing for you. When someone is toxic in your life, the best thing to do is cut that poison out. I'd rather spend an hour with someone who is demanding and quirky but sincere than five minutes with someone who's fake. I wish you every success for your future. You make me laugh and I think, when all is said and done, your work is absolutely the standard of perfection.

Beckyy
Beckyy

I don't agree that Ryan made the show..Ryan was just Jeff's partner. This show is about Jeff and staff. I love this show. I love that everything is not perfect. But Jeff, please don't disrespect Jenni by using foul language at her. I thought it was very wrong for you to get mad because she didn't have a phone number. Even though you're the boss, you should have that number in your blackberry also. You're just as responsible as she is. If you disrespect her then you would disrespect your own mother. Stop treating your staff like slaves and treat them like employees (and loyal friends who have been with you through thick and thin). If you let Jenni go (you're a total moron !). IF I weren't working for (a major oil company as an assistant).... I'd come work for you and straighten you out ! Unfortunately, I'm also getting ready to retire, so I don't have another 20 years to deal with you. But, I love your show anyway. You're a fantastic designer and you do care about your clients.

Erin Gill
Erin Gill

Hi Jeff, I totally get you! your amazing at managing a million different things, and dealing with every person that works for you there individual life problems and you do it with a great sense of humor, even when you flip out , its totally right. I Manage several large dental pratices, and if you rely on your support team, and they make a mistake, everyone looking like uhh , is so irritatating, when I make a mistake I cop to it. And its so obvious you invest so much of your time and energy into your staff, and you give so much. So when the same care and attention is not returned its hurtful. You are human, I totally get it. You crack me up , I am the same way sometimes I blurt, but I totally love everyone, when are they going to get me? Im like you I do not talk behind my staffs back I tell them up front when they are being lazy and I keep one employee even though he totally has adhd because he cracks me up , and he is loyal. But it todays financial world streamlining lowering overhead and increasing profit is a must. Anyway you are great!

jetsgirl
jetsgirl

I met Jeff and Jenni when he was in St. Louis right before Christmas. I was visiting my ex and staying in the Ritz Carlton. Which is where they were with a client in the dining room. I'm a New Yorker and I really don't get excited about seeing celebrities, but when I saw Jeff, I just had to run over like a schoolgirl. Which I'm not. He was SO gracious. He asked my name and introduced Jenni. Such a gentleman! And even better looking in person. I am not just saying that. I never believed Ryan for one minute and he should be ashamed of himself. We all do things that aren't quite right, but we should own up to them. I don't think anyone believes Ryan. I wish all the best to Jeff, Jenni, Zoila, Jett and his whole crew.

ivan armenteros
ivan armenteros

jeff i live in west palm beach florida. i love you and you dont know it. iamsure that you problaby wontrad this . and it hard for me to say tis but i trully want to be like you. iam not goin to tell you what you allready know, but one thin you dont know is that i would love to be like you. i am 41 i look like you and , you should bring you show to florida it be great.. i want to work for you. but iam just dreaming. i watch you all the time as much as i can. please respond lolol i know your buzzy, but if youget the chance to read this . i wont wear short shorts i love you .. i dont know you but just fom a show , really i do want to be like you .. please take time to read this .. and respond . thank you

Rosemarie
Rosemarie

You're a trip! Love your show and Jenny deserves a raise.

MsSofie
MsSofie

Does anyone know if Chris the general contractor has a website?