I am with Jenni on an American Airlines flight from St Louis to LA. I’ve had three glasses of wine and I’m feeling particularly somber and introspective. I realize I need to blog, but I feel like a teenage girl writing in her journal.
My design business has grown exponentially, but with success comes new challenges. I’m very grateful to have so many clients in this economy, but it has been very difficult adjusting to the onslaught of work. Because money was so scarce a year ago, I don’t want to turn anyone away out of fear. I now have roughly 15-18 clients, and everyone at Jeff Lewis Design is working like dogs. Correction—everyone but Zoila.
Cocktail hour helps to appease my disgruntled employees, but we all are burning the candle at both ends. I question whether I can keep up this pace, but downsizing is a last resort. It was easier when I had Ryan to lean on and I miss his support and friendship. I am still very sad over what transpired 10-months ago. Ryan and I have had very little contact and I have not seen Chloe since her birthday party. I have come to the realization that we may never be friends again. But life goes on, and I have a business to run.
I work harder now than ever, and I appreciate every dollar I generate. I try to instill my work ethic in my employees, but they don’t all get it. Sometimes my stress and frustration get the best of me, and I act out. When I react negatively, the guilt I have afterwards is often all-consuming. I sometimes wish I could rewind and redo. Since that’s not an option, I can only try to learn from my mistakes and respond differently the next time. I want to be a good person, but it just doesn’t always work out that way.
Jenni’s snoring has now grown so loud, I can’t hear myself think. She’s actually kind of cute when she’s sleeping, especially with the black freckles I added with my Sharpie. I wonder how long it will take her to notice. Hopefully, not until she gets home. I have asked the flight attendant for another glass of wine, but she’s too busy explaining to someone in coach why they can’t use the first-class restroom. I didn’t want to report the woman, but aren’t there plenty of bathrooms in coach for her to use? And more importantly, why are these wine glasses so small?
OMG I love your show!! You are so funny, I literally laugh out loud when I watch!! I am sooo glad you guys are back for another season. I cant wait to see what happens next!
I have a child with OCD and we are so entertained by his quirks, although they can also be a pain. I hope he can grow up to be a healthy, happy adult like you. So many people do not understand his ocd tendencies and judge him (i.e. teachers). I can't wait until he can live his life and still be productive without harsh judegments for something he can not control. All the best...but please try to be nice :) like I tell my son.
Jeff, Jeff, Jeff!!
Could you be any funnier??!! I love your straight-faced dry humor. It is clear to me how much you love your staff, and how your impulsive need to control ever situation get's in your way. You are terrific, good luck with your business
PS- What Ryan did was wrong, let him come to you and when (if) he does.....BE GRACIOUS!! ;)
Jeff I LOVE YOU and your show! Please Bravo keep Jeff on for as long as he wants to do the show. He's my fave. Oh and his staff too :)
JEFFERY LEWIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOOO GLAD TO HAVE TO BACK! MY TUMMY HAS A SIX PACK AFTER YOUR SHOW IS OVER! YOU ARE TOOO DAMN FUNNY! AND I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH THE DISAPPOINTMENT OF ZOILA'S PRESENTATION OF HAPPY HOUR! I MEAN I STILL WOULD HAVE DRANK THE MARTINI BUT I WOULD BE VERY DISGRUNTLED BY IT! AND SIDEBAR.. LAY OFF OF JENNI'S HAIR THIS SEASON! IT MAY BE A BIT POOFY BUT SHE'S TRIES!
So glad you're back Jeff! Wish you were in our area, our home can use your greatness! Thanks for the laughs you make my day!
All I have to say is I LOVE JEFF LEWIS!!!!!! I am so happy you are back. You are the craziest, funniest person. I thought I had o.c.d. bad. You got me beat by far. You are truly a family favorite. We love Jeff-isums!
Jeff...Welcome Back!!! we missed you so much and of course the "gang" I especially miss Ryan and Chloe...they were part of the family. Jeff can you try to forgive him? everybody makes mistakes but good loyal friends come so far in between in our lives why loose one you already have? think about it! money is not all...and even if he doesn't agree he knows better now. I suggest you call and meet an a neutral place have a drink and just talk about the present the rest will come...it takes time. We your fans just want the best for you, Jenni, Zoila, Trent, and the Blonde girl...forgot her name but she's so cute and nice! it's great to have her in the show, of course, I adore Jenni. Anyways, glad you are back, happy for you business is great and can't wait to see what the season brings! love you, stay well, and best wishes!!!
I agree Sandra, Chris is really hott. And I am forty something. I love Jeff and the whole team. I laugh til I cry.
I'm so happy that your show is back!! I watch and find myself crying because I'm laughing so hard. I have been watching your show since day one. I felt bad for you about Ryan, but always trust your gut. He was lying to you. His body language said it all. Good luck to you and your staff. You're wonderful!!!
Love the show, love the cast. Two comments: Why don't you call the Dog Whisperer for your dog problem? That would make two great shows. (An episode for each of you.) I also have to comment on you making Zoila pick up the cat poo without gloves and then making the remark about the poo sticking under her fingernails...do you really want her touching everything else in the house (including food) with all that bacteria under her nails? I'm sure she scrubbed her hands, but...just sayin. Also (I know, it's a third comment), you employ these fine people...you don't own them.
Are you kidding me? What a joke. Jeff you are the one that makes the show great. It was so obvious as to what Ryan was doing, you handled it the best you could and your better off now without him, you dont need people in your life that you cant trust. Good job, love the show.
Jeff, I really love your show. Don't worry about Ryan, I'm sure he'll do fine. It's just to bad he did what he did, at lease you found out.
Really I think you should be nicer to Jenni, she's been with you through think and thin. EVERYONE makes mistake, it's only normal. Maybe if you didn't take on some many new projects at once this season, you wouldn't be so stress out.
Don't get rid of anyone, as you said in your show you said "I have to think before I speak." I'm sure you'll do fine. Can't wait to see you next show.
GREAT to have you back, Jeff!. So sorry to hear that you are working so much. I understand the economy demands it, but I sincerely hope you can find great clients (who pay well) and less work. You deserve tons of rest.
Again, I am happy to see you again.
I have been waiting for your show !!! your show is my favorite . I love your sense of humor and everything about you...you insipire me to do better. I hope your show is on for a long time. Your a hard worker, multitasker, and a good role model. Please don't change, your the best.
from your number 1 fan!!!
Jeff, O.C.D. has been my curse and my blessing, people who don't have it can never understand how our minds race and chaos is an every moment accurance. Trust for me is huge and I see that in you also, oh heavens lets not forget the paranoyia that comes with it. Being on the outside looking into your life or at least what bravo sees fit to see, It's obvious that Zoila is your rock she is the one person who you seem to not take yourself so serious with. She can pull you from crazy in a second where no matter how much you love everyone else when you hit crazy you seem to jump in. I can relate my family has dealt with my moments for 43 years there will be no nice retirement home for me only a spot in crazyville at least that's what the tell me then they laugh me not so much. People seem to get alot of laughter at my exspence oh well. All I know is hold close what or who you trust but done squeeze the life out of them or they will run for there life, and rightfully so because we are not right man seriously count your blessings. Zoila, Jen, Jett, The dogs, food, shelter, a job, security, ect. Much love and respect..............
Oh, Jeff how I feel your pain about Ryan. I am an Interior Deisgner with my own business and my former business partner (a close friend for over 8 years) -took advantage of my trust and helped himself to more than his share of the profits for over 18 months. I found out by accident and had to confront him after examining the bank records. IT WAS BRUTAL!! What made it so much worse was his total lack of emotion when I confronted him - no remorse, very much like Ryan's response to you - just "Oh, well" - and the very next day he contacted our entire crew and they left me, too. Our project manager, who had been with me for 4 years before I teamed up with my business partner, left with him and then after 6 months tried to comeback and work for me again - NO WAY!! He even contacted former clients and asked them to contact me directly about taking him back - I am Italian and betrayal cuts to the bone -I have forgiven everyone but I will never forget what they did and I will never allow that to happen to me again. My mantra is "This is business, it is not personal" and that way I can make sure I am never taken advantage of again.
Good luck to you with everything - You were right to confront Ryan - If and when he apologizes, be gracious and accept - and of course you can resume a friendship - but NEVER DO BUSINESS with him again!!!
Jeffrey, Jeffrey, Jeffrey
I guess there isn't too much that hasn't already been said in these blogs. You are an amazingly talented man and your special love for Zoila and Jenni is sweet and fun to watch. Even when you "flip out" they in turn love, understand and accept you. So here's my thought, why don't you and Jenni just have a baby(s) already? Her clock is ticking and you have so much love to give it just seems like a natural conclusion... My best to you! Jacci
Jeff I love you and the show. Your staff is what makes you who you are. Zoila is the best of them all. I think you should have an episode where you do her job or you should take a trip to her native land and learn Zoilanese. That would make for great T.V.
You show us that humor with a touch of evil keeps you young and good looking! Keep it up Jeff, I literally cannot get enough of you :)
I recently starting watching your show and find you funny and entertaining. I admire your talent, success, and being able to keep your people employed while having a sense of humor to help you get through your work day. I need a sense of humor where I work to help me get through my day too. I understand what you mean about the homeless and clowns.
Happy to have you all back. I about peed my pants when you said the lesbian could take you. What a riot. You don't have an edit button and that's what I love. I really enjoy your humor. You need to crack down on Zoila. She's needs to start treating you with more respect.
Thanks, many, many thanks for sharing your business life with us. It's the most fun I can have with my clothes on, on a weeknight, by myself.
I'm watching your show as I type and I can not stop giggling. Do you really have Zoila give you massages. I wish my housekeeper was so down to Earth and joked around(and could take a joke) like she does. I would love to hire you for my kitchen renovation just to be in the presence of natural comedy. Your house is so clean and chic and am dying to start renovating my new home and copy your bath tub that the cat pooped in. I wish you the best and am looking forward to your upcoming episodes.
Zoila is adorable and I don't care if she does any work. She is making your house a home. Jenny is taking her job for granted. She is hilarious and good at making quirky rap songs and being fun, but she's a terrible real estate assistant or whatever her title is. You should have fired her last season, or even the time when you had to fire her ex-husband. Plenty of people have an actual interest in rehabbing properties and design and could learn alot from you. Trace is adorable, the blonde is dumb, and Jett is ok. after Zoila had to read him his rights about his smart mouth last season. I hope you don't get too attached to his baby.
You should get Zoila to read these comments out loud to you during cocktail hour to keep in touch with your fans and to improve her English, though I love the captions Bravo uses for her.
Jeff...glad to have my Flipping Out fix again...best show on Bravo by far...to bad about the Ryan-gate (especially since you can't see Chole); but the best revenge is your success....
What is it about you Jeff? I love your show. Your fresh and funny. BUT,Sorry Jeff I can see your really a nice guy deep,deep, deep down. I would watch your show over any other Bravo show. So glad your season 4 has started. What a blessing you have to be able to make people really smile. Love you and everyone on your show.
I appreciate your show and you Jeff, I grew up in Charleston SC and my Mom taught me only your way...
I just love you Jeff and so happy to see the next season and I love your staff! I do not miss Ryan, I had my thoughts on him to..but sometimes you have to let the leaches go. And just look how you grew!!
So proud of you! I can see you with your own child next and it really is calming to you..so I wish you best all the best! So happy to see you prosper! I do REI and design too so hope to meet you one day here down south!
XXOO muah! to you and all the staff!
Ryan was never your friend in the first place or he never could have done what he did...don't you get that? You were HIS friend...he was just picking your brain and getting whatever he could. It sucks but sadly people like you live on the planet with people like him. Done...overwith...gotta gotta gotta move on. Your decorating style is so cold...where is the heart in it? Everything is cut and cold. Nothing warm or inviting. Your cast mates are great. The show grabs one's interest but I'm not sure why. Break a leg with the business. Be nice.
I've wanted to comment for some time now. Love your show. Love the characters and love how you validate professionalism. I'm always inspired to improve my business and attitude after watching your show. Also, I enjoy seeing the process of your design and not just "before and after" shots. We would all benefit from a little more OCD. (You know, I don't think it's really OCD, anyway. It used to be called work ethic.)
Hey Jeff! I completely admire your work ethic and think that it is quite inspirational, especially to my generation of over-privileged brats. You are also a very eloquent writer and have a firm grasp on reality, unlike most bravo stars. I know you were kidding about the Zoila comment, but I think it would be great to see you treat her a little bit nicer. I know she has a thick skin, but I'm sure it still hurts sometimes. But all in all, you are a pleasure to watch.
I adore you... I especially love your dark humor.. You crack me up. I would so enjoy working for you. I am somewhat obsessive so I would be perfect working for you. No, not asking for a job. Just saying, i could work with you because I am the type who likes thinking ahead and coming up with every scenario possible and anticipate, so that problems do not arise.... And I recognize my mistakes and apologize for them... Keep doing your thing sir.. From one gay man to another, BRAVO..
Hi Jeff! Love your show! Love your aesthetic! BIG ????? question: What is the name of the (looks like vintage-ish) motel print that you sit in front of during many of the one-on-ones?
Just one comment: I'm an employer and I would NEVER talk to employees about other employees. You're really better than that
Anyway, keep up the great work! It has been very cool watching you get healthy! We're all works in progress! (OMG, that was cliche'...lol)
You've shoud've seen my face when I saw that you're doing another round on Bravo!! I was soooo delighted and coudn't wait to watch the show last Tuesday. I know you're a busy guy so I just wanted to say thank you for coming back!! Missed you and many times I thought to myself... I wonder how Jeff Lewis is doing these days! Congrats on bringing the business back up and wish you the best!!! ... By the way, your humor is a classic!! Love love love!
Jeff, I am obsessively and compulsively addicted to your show!! Looking very forward to another great season of your "words of wisdom". You are so entertaining...thanks for letting us invade your privacy and catch a peek!! I love it when you verbally abuse your employees and punish them for their mistakes....it truely is your world, Jeff ;)
Jeff and Jenny; Thanks so much for making us laugh. Plus, a big thank you for the free advertising for McDonald's. I own 3 stores and I couldn't put a price on all the positive things you said about our food. Anytime you are in NY, lunch is on me.
jeff i live in west palm beach florida. i love you and you dont know it. iamsure that you problaby wontrad this . and it hard for me to say tis but i trully want to be like you. iam not goin to tell you what you allready know, but one thin you dont know is that i would love to be like you. i am 41 i look like you and , you should bring you show to florida it be great.. i want to work for you. but iam just dreaming. i watch you all the time as much as i can. please respond lolol i know your buzzy, but if youget the chance to read this . i wont wear short shorts i love you .. i dont know you but just fom a show , really i do want to be like you .. please take time to read this .. and respond . thank you
I met Jeff and Jenni when he was in St. Louis right before Christmas. I was visiting my ex and staying in the Ritz Carlton. Which is where they were with a client in the dining room. I'm a New Yorker and I really don't get excited about seeing celebrities, but when I saw Jeff, I just had to run over like a schoolgirl. Which I'm not. He was SO gracious. He asked my name and introduced Jenni. Such a gentleman! And even better looking in person. I am not just saying that. I never believed Ryan for one minute and he should be ashamed of himself. We all do things that aren't quite right, but we should own up to them. I don't think anyone believes Ryan. I wish all the best to Jeff, Jenni, Zoila, Jett and his whole crew.
Hi Jeff, I totally get you! your amazing at managing a million different things, and dealing with every person that works for you there individual life problems and you do it with a great sense of humor, even when you flip out , its totally right. I Manage several large dental pratices, and if you rely on your support team, and they make a mistake, everyone looking like uhh , is so irritatating, when I make a mistake I cop to it. And its so obvious you invest so much of your time and energy into your staff, and you give so much. So when the same care and attention is not returned its hurtful. You are human, I totally get it. You crack me up , I am the same way sometimes I blurt, but I totally love everyone, when are they going to get me? Im like you I do not talk behind my staffs back I tell them up front when they are being lazy and I keep one employee even though he totally has adhd because he cracks me up , and he is loyal. But it todays financial world streamlining lowering overhead and increasing profit is a must. Anyway you are great!
I don't agree that Ryan made the show..Ryan was just Jeff's partner. This show is about Jeff and staff. I love this show. I love that everything is not perfect. But Jeff, please don't disrespect Jenni by using foul language at her. I thought it was very wrong for you to get mad because she didn't have a phone number. Even though you're the boss, you should have that number in your blackberry also. You're just as responsible as she is. If you disrespect her then you would disrespect your own mother. Stop treating your staff like slaves and treat them like employees (and loyal friends who have been with you through thick and thin). If you let Jenni go (you're a total moron !). IF I weren't working for (a major oil company as an assistant).... I'd come work for you and straighten you out ! Unfortunately, I'm also getting ready to retire, so I don't have another 20 years to deal with you. But, I love your show anyway. You're a fantastic designer and you do care about your clients.
Having watched the show since season one, I was so saddened by the reunion between you and Ryan. Like you, I had hoped Ryan would own up and take responsibility for his actions. When he started to throw himself into the "victim" category, I was shocked and disgusted. A person who has consistently talked about you as though you were beneath him and an embarrassment to be burdened with should not say he's spent years defending you. He spent most of his time on camera rolling his eyes or making condescending comments towards you. I feel like letting go of that relationship, while painful, is the right thing for you. When someone is toxic in your life, the best thing to do is cut that poison out. I'd rather spend an hour with someone who is demanding and quirky but sincere than five minutes with someone who's fake. I wish you every success for your future. You make me laugh and I think, when all is said and done, your work is absolutely the standard of perfection.
Flipping Out is my favorite show ever only because of you Jeff, Ryan KNEW how important TRUST is to you yet he still betrayed you...that says it all about him, remember that ACTIONS speak LOUDER than words! Love Zoila must say that she compliments your show A LOT! wish you even more success... you deserve it!!!!