Hi, everyone! Welcome back this week. So much happened in this episode, and once again, there were lots of highs and lows for me. Some of it is fun to re-live and watch (Ashley’s wedding) and some of it is painful (ummm date with Marcos).
All drama involving friends weighs heavily on my heart, so I immediately wanted to clear the air with Amanda at the sleepover. It wasn’t an interrogation. I felt I owed it to her to hear what she had to say about the situation, and it was all still so fresh -- my meeting with Joey had been just the day before. I take friendship seriously and wanted to hear her side because we are friends, and Amanda had every right to know what Joey told me.
In general, I’m protective, almost motherly, with my friends. If I see my friends upset after being repeatedly hurt by the same person, of course I’m going to advise keeping a distance. With the Joey situation, I I did vent to Amanda about the things that Joey has done to me. I have been hurt and in tears on numerous occasions, so I’m not going to pretend that I think Joey is a good friend to have around. All I ever wanted when I discussed Joey with Amanda was to protect her! Sometimes it’s the people with the biggest hearts that get hurt and walked all over. But, this is who I am. I’m fiercely loyal to anyone I believe to be a true friend in my life. I’ve gotten hurt in the past for standing up so strongly when it comes to matters with the people I love, but I will continue to take that risk because that’s just who I am.
On to more awkward topics… I can’t help that I think some things are private. I’m really old school when it comes to talking about sex. I just really believe in respect and privacy on the whole matter. If being respectful makes me uptight, then I guess Amanda will just have to get over that. Honestly, it’s a little weird that she even cares so much. If I want someone to know me sexually they will -- otherwise it’s just really not anyone else’s business. That’s just the way I am. Sorry.