Stassi Schroeder shared that she and boyfriend Patrick Meagher called it quits earlier this month after recently rekindling their romance. Now the Vanderpump Rules pal is opening up about what led to the split.
Stassi discussed the breakup with her friend Rachael O'Brien in the latest episode of her podcast Straight Up with Stassi. She explained that things became tense between her and Patrick right before they were set to embark on their first real couple's trip to Mexico this week. "We get into an argument on our anniversary — that he did not remember — our four-year anniversary. Granted, OK, we broke up for a really long time, but I mean, our four-year anniversary, we met four years ago on that day," Stassi recalled. "Nothing new happened to where I would be broken up and jilted a day before our Mexican vacation for our anniversary that I only remembered. Cool."
Stassi was hurt that Patrick didn't seem as excited about their anniversary as she was, and she became emotional while recounting their fight. "I mean, when I reminded him of our anniversary, I just got, 'Aw, that's sweet.' I didn't even get a f***ing daisy, not even a weed, nothing," she said. "What did I get? Broken up with and told that he's not coming on our Mexican vacation that I already prepaid for. So that's fun. So that's cool. That's really cool."
She continued, "I gave him time. I said, 'I'm gonna give you a few hours. I know you don't mean this. I know you're gonna regret this."
But Patrick didn't change his mind. "So I start going crazy, like mindlessly sobbing, taking mad amounts of Xanax to calm down," Stassi said. "And I'm like, 'Rachael, I need ya girl.'"
So Stassi enlisted Rachael to join her on the Mexican vacay she had planned for her and Patrick. "So we get on the flight. Rachael is sitting next to me," Stassi said. "Keep looking over every 2 seconds before she fell asleep, being like, 'Yep, this should be Patrick, should be my romantic f***ing flight. We should be cuddling and making out.'"
Stassi said that she misses Patrick "every f***ing minute." "I legit thought that if I was gonna get married in my life that Patrick would be it," she shared. "I thought the second time around would be different, and I was jilted."
The Vanderpump Rules pal said that this breakup "feels worse" than the other times that they've called it quits. She also said that she doesn't know if they'll ever be able to get back together again because she doesn't know "how to bounce back" from Patrick not putting their differences aside in order to join her on the trip to Mexico. "I'm really sad. I'm really f***ing sad," Stassi added. "And I think that's what makes it harder to say if we'd be able to ever reconcile again is because how many more f***ing times can I do that? The one thing that I do deserve is consistency."
Stassi admitted that she's hasn't been perfect in the relationship, either. "I'm not innocent. I can be a terror when we fight. And I've started therapy. I feel like I've put in all the effort that I, I did my part, that's what I feel like. I feel like I've done my part," she explained. "This isn't anything new. Like, once we get into a fight, and I try and keep my cool for so long. You know, with every single relationship, people know exactly how to get you upset. And he got me to that point, and I didn't understand why."
Now Stassi said that she thinks Patrick is "too prideful" to make up with her and join her on the Mexico vacation like they had originally planned. "I think that's what makes it all so much harder is that knowing that we both really love each other. And four years later I'm still equally, like just as attracted to him as the day I was when I met him. And I love the way that his brain works and I feel like we get each other and I love his humor and all the things, I feel like he's a really moral, standup guy," Stassi shared. "And yes, everyone has their faults, and I was willing to accept his, and he was willing to accept mine. And I'm f***ing confused. I'm really upset and really confused. And so it's making it way harder because it's not like he just dumped me. It's not like he's just like, 'I don't love you anymore. I'm not interested in you anymore.' That's not what it was."
Despite her comments on her podcast, Stassi said that still believes that Patrick is "a good guy." "I was scared to do this podcast because I don't want to paint him like he's a f***ing bad guy," she said. “Please, I don’t want anyone to go and hate him. He’s a good guy. He’s a d**k for not f***ng coming on this trip and breaking up with me for whatever f***ing prideful reason that I know he regrets now, but he’s a wonderful person.”
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