HAPPY NEW YEAR
This has been an incredible year for me! I wanted to make a drastic change in my life and that I did. I stepped outside of my comfort zone in order to achieve my personal goals. Adjusting to a new city, new friends, a new job, and a serious relationship hasn’t been easy to say the least.
NeNe’s “glam baby” is so precious! NeNe is so in love with her and she looks like a little baby doll. I appreciate the straight talk that she gives to her son about his new responsibilities, and I love her sensibilities.
I can’t imagine what it’s like for Kandi to deal with Riley adjusting to her new romance; she is very precocious. Being a single mother can’t be easy, but the key is good communication. I hope their family continues to grow.
It’s amazing to me how one’s ENTIRE existence on the show revolves around me. In her every scene I’m being negatively talked about, demeaned, and berated with insults to anyone who will listen to her recreate the truth i.e. when Kordell stated in the prior episode that she has apologized four times, NOT TRUE. The truth is I immediately apologized to her in Anguilla and I have NEVER received an apology. The character assassinations on my personhood continue despite my desire to put it all behind me.
You can’t force a friendship but there is no need to fight or continue conflict. It’s just wasted time and energy. The insults she made in Anguilla were so hurtful that only time can heal those wounds. In the meantime, I’ve moved on and have been pleasant and cordial, and I hope that she can too without all the gratuitous nastiness.GOING AWAY PARTY
That was such a fun day! Cynthia is such a great friend to NeNe, and it’s nice to see all the women have some smiles and a genuine good time. Although someone tried to start negativity by saying they would want to be “emancipated” if they were my sister, I chose to ignore the dig. I won’t be caught in that trap again.
GOOD RIDDANCE TO BAD RUBBISH
I’ve always been the noncommittal person in a relationship. I was so eager to break that spell that I was willing to settle for someone who has since proven to be not good enough for me. The mark of a real man is honesty, courage, and strength. WHEN YOU CATCH A SMALL FISH THROW IT BACK IN THE WATER
Walter said he loves me and he wouldn’t be there if he didn’t. Yet his body language, his nonchalant and often cold tone, and his lack of affection toward me said loud and clear: I DON’T WANT TO MARRY YOU. So why lead me on? Why waste my time? Why humiliate me in front of the world? I was so focused on making the relationship work that I lost the one important counsel that I always give to other women: Look to a man’s actions and not his words. I am embarrassed but I hope that all women can learn from the mistakes I’ve made in love.
I appreciate all of you who have taken the time to encourage me to move on and find genuine love. I’m actually excited to be single again, because I’d rather be alone than be with someone who treats me poorly. I just need to make better choices with whom I allow in my life. Even though the relationship didn’t work out, it was a blessing in disguise. God has a better plan for me, one that I could never have seen for myself. I have faith and trust in Him that the right man will find me. I thank you all for your kind words and gentle encouragement to move on and past this relationship misstep. You have shown me kindness by not laughing at my pain, and I truly appreciate you all.
Please don’t feel sorry for me, because I am resilient and I am not easily broken. I will move on and love like I’ve never been hurt before and dance like no one is watching! Why? Because I’m still and will always be Gone With the Wind Fabulous!