Cast Blog: #RHOBH

Apples and Oranges

Eileen: Brandi Attacks, Then Deflects

Lisa R.: Kyle Didn't Create This Drama

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: More Fighting and a Peeping Tom

Kim: Kyle Should Be Worried, Not Embarrassed

Brandi: Kyle Wants to Help When There's an Audience

Kyle: This Was Brandi's Master Plan

Lisa R.: It Felt Just As Awkward As It Looked

Lisa V.: Kim's Demeanor Was Questionable

Eileen: Brandi Loves to Stir the Pot

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Disgust and a Push

Yolanda: I Would Like to Apologize

Brandi: I Won't Make Excuses

Kim: I Wanted to Hold Kyle

Lisa V.: I Want Max to Be Ambitious

Eileen: Being a Stepmom Is Challenging

Lisa R.: Lots of Transition Happening

Kyle: We Are an Emotional Bunch

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Surprise and an F-Bomb

Lisa V.: A Naughty Child Shouldn't Be Rewarded

Kyle: Brandi Was Rude and Offensive

Eileen: It Felt Like an Attack

Lisa R.: It Was Shocking and Unprovoked

Kim: Brandi Is Brandi

7 Faces We All Made During This Week's #RHOBH

Brandi: Lisa V. Was Making Me Uncomfortable

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Shock and Tears

4 Questions We All Asked During #RHOBH

Lisa R.: Portia Is My Spirit Animal

Eileen: Brandi Showed Us How Not to Make Amends

Yolanda: I Took One for the Team

Lisa V.: Yes, Love Is a Big Word

Kyle: Moments Like These Are Frustrating

Lisa V.: I Won't Erase the Past

Brandi: I Don't Enjoy Anger or Grudges

Eileen: I Could Feel the Tension at Kyle's

Lisa R Reflects on That Bittersweet Episode

Yolanda: These Are Teaching Moments

Kim: My Heart Felt So Big

Kyle: Kim and Monty's Relationship Is Unique

Lisa V.: I Needed an Uncomplicated Friendship

Apples and Oranges

Kyle clears the air about what you didn't see behind the scenes, and her relationship with Kim.

This is a very difficult blog to write. There's so much pain and emotion in this episode. It feels so strange to even refer to it as an "episode." This is my life. This is Kim's life. I wish we were just characters on television, but this is all too real.

That night never should have happened. It was incredibly difficult to go through in the first place and it's even more difficult to watch and relive it.

Throughout the season I have come across as angry toward my sister. At times, it seemed unwarranted. I know that. I know how bad it looked. The truth is, I was angry. There were problems brewing between my sister and me off camera. I'm not good at hiding my feelings as well as others, so I brought my feelings in front of the cameras. Viewers only know what they see, and sometimes, they saw me reacting with force and emotion that didn't seem to make sense.

First off, let me say, I love my sister so much. Sometimes, I wish I loved her a little less. You may be thinking, "You have a funny way of showing it." And you're not wrong. However, our arguments were never about what was happening at that moment. My mom used to say, "They're crying about the apples, but it's really the oranges," and that's exactly what was happening here. The tension between Kim and me was never about her not "having my back" in New York. There is so much more to it than that. I didn't want to come out and say what it was that was really bothering me because this is a private family matter. It would have saved me a lot of criticism, believe me, but it's not just my story to tell. It's Kim's story too.

After this horrible argument between Kim and I, we didn't speak for a long time. My heart was broken and I suffered an incredible amount of anxiety and panic attacks. Next to losing my mother, this was the most difficult time of my life. It is so difficult for me to even write about it now. The details of what happened with Kim after that night, is her story to tell. I will not go into that here. I do want to say that I have learned a lot about my sister and myself during the taping of this show. I have been able to look at our relationship from an outsider’s point of view. I've realized that my pain and worrying about her comes off as anger. It was not helping Kim or our relationship. I love my sister and only want the best for her. Kim knows that.

I would also like to clarify, that I do not resent my mother in any way. After losing her, I felt that it was not only my job to look after Kim, but all of the sisters jobs to look after each other. I think my frustration came from feeling as if I were ill equipped to handle it at times.

As hard as it was to watch what happened between Kim and me, it was also challenging to take in what the other women went through, too. The end of this episode was heartbreaking. Seeing Camille suddenly as a single mommy brought tears to my eyes. Being an unwilling participant in a divorce has to be profoundly painful. Camille and I have been through a lot together this season. However, when I see her in these "scenes," I see a mom and a wife that has been left by her husband. I feel so bad about what is going on in her life and about what has happened with our relationship. I wish we could turn back time and start over. What happened between Lisa and Cedric is unfortunate. I had a feeling things would turn out this way and warned Lisa. It's a shame because I know how much Cedric meant to Lisa.

Taylor and I grew closer during taping. She opened up quite a bit to me. She is kind and vulnerable, and I wish her nothing but happiness. She deserves it.

Mauricio and I also became a lot closer to Adrienne and Paul during this time. They are both wonderful people with big hearts and strong family values, which I share. I'm happy to consider them my friends.

Doing this show has been an incredible experience. I was fortunate enough to work with a wonderful production company and such incredibly dynamic women. We have had a lot of fun in spite of there being some very emotional times.

Thank you so much for supporting all of us by watching. Your comments have brought me comfort at times when I really needed it. I will miss blogging and reading your thoughts.

Lots of love!

Xoxo, Kyle

Lisa R.: Kyle Didn't Create This Drama

Lisa R. thinks there are two ladies who aren't taking responsibility for their actions.

I have to start the week off by giving a shout out to all of you. During last week’s episode and throughout the week, your tweets have been pouring in, and you guys really make me laugh. Yes, as a matter of fact I DID want to dive-roll head first out of that car ride with Kim onto the freeway and run. Run Forrest, run! All of your support and understanding means everything!

So, we pick up right where we left off, but before we do, I’d like to note that Kyle wasn’t the one to create any of this drama. It was Kim that chose to walk back in the house after Brandi had escorted her outside and told her NOT to go back in. There was a lot of alcohol and God knows what other drugs influencing a lot of the behaviors, so no matter what, the outcome wasn’t going to be a good one. Like a Dr. Phil quote I used on Twitter last week, “When you choose the behavior, you choose the consequence.” While I have compassion and empathy for these women and what I see playing out in front of me, there seems to be a lot of blame that both Kim and Brandi are trying to place on Kyle, and in my opinion they aren’t accepting the consequences from their behavior.

Now that some time has passed and I have really had some time to digest the situation, I myself have some questions just like all of you. Why did Kim go to Eileen’s poker night if she was sick with pneumonia and bronchitis? I don’t doubt that major illnesses like these made her feel terrible. So, then why go in the first place and then exacerbate these illnesses by smoking cigars all evening? I’m quite certain that had I been as ill as she was, I would have been in my bed pickling myself in oil of oregano and overdosing on vitamin C and echinacea. But again, as I didn’t know where she was in her sobriety, I also didn’t know where she was in her illnesses.

To me, there seems to be a lot of pain being masked by alcohol.

Lisa Rinna

As far as Brandi goes, my comments are coming from a place of experience and concern. I’ve been, like I know many many of you have also, a part of lives that have been affected by addiction. And to echo Yolanda’s sentiments, I have a hard time wrapping my brain around the idea of grown women, mothers in particular,
behaving this way. To me, there seems to be a lot of pain being masked by alcohol. Granted, I don’t know what goes on in Brandi’s life outside of this. I only know what I observe in this environment.

I’m just so happy that the darn Stella & Dot party was successful. Hallelujah! Holly Robinson Peete had done a similar party that had an amazing turnout, and I was beyond thrilled to host my own. The Noreen Fraser Foundation’s mission, "to find a way to live with cancer and not die from it" is very close to my heart. Both my mother and sister are recent breast cancer survivors with double masectomies, so it was very important to me that the party be a successful one. It meant so much to me that everyone, with the exception of Kim being in the hospital, showed up despite what had recently gone down. By the grace of God, everyone kept their composure, bought a ton of jewelry, and appeared to have a good time. Big thanks to Stella & Dot for helping to raise so much money and to Gourmet 47 and Hourie for catering the amazing food.

Giant kudos to Eileen for speaking her mind with Brandi at my house. She always knows how to remain classy and sophisticated even in the most uncomfortable of situations. I admire her deeply for that.

Lisa V.’s impeccable brood continues to grow as we see her add Pumpy to the family. What a gorgeous and incredibly lucky dog she is to take on the Vanderpump name. If only she truly knew what a lucky bitch she is!

Next week is the Gay Mixer and yes, I finally understand that I shouldn’t come naked. Again, I ask my dear gay friends forgiveness for not understanding what Kyle meant. Sometimes it just takes me a minute to catch these innuendos. Oy. Be sure to keep your seatbelts safely fastened as we are still experiencing turbulence!

Until next week….

Xo, LR

 

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