Our season has come to an end. We have had so much fun together and yet we have hurt one another too. Watching the reunion was very emotional. Seeing us all together revisiting the struggles made me sad. I wish there had been a montage of all the funny times and the laughter so you could see how much we enjoy one another as well.
Kim and I got off on the wrong foot from the beginning. I wish I could turn back time, reach out to her, and take the time to understand her better. I am sorry for arguing with her and for allowing myself to get so frustrated that I said things I didn’t mean. When she and I spent time one on one, I enjoyed her company, and it was obvious that we could be friends. In a group setting, things just seemed to go wrong. If I could take back my part in that, I would. I can’t, so, I just have to live with that regret. I am sorry, Kim. I wish you happiness and I look forward to putting the past behind us and building our friendship.
Thankfully, Russell and I are working on our communication and spending more time together… without our Blackberrys. This experience allowed us to see that we needed to refocus our attention on our marriage and work on being there for one another. We are spending more quality time together having just returned from two weekend getaways and we will be heading to the Superbowl this weekend. The show gave us a wakeup call and for that, we are thankful.
I made wonderful memories with each of the ladies while filming The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. And, although the cameras have stopped rolling, our friendships and our lives continue to grow and develop. I look forward to more laughs and more moments with five women who will always hold a special place in my heart.
Thank you for watching. I hope you have enjoyed it.
All my best to you.
What was your opening tag line? You've worked to hard to get to that zip code and you aren't going back? Sums it all up doesn't up? I truly was hoping that they would not bring you back.
No new blog yet, but I just have to say --- seeing you for the first time this season, and you look so beautiful. Gorgeous. You look lovely.
The writing is on the wall........Taylor's co-dependency issues continues, as she has already found her new "sugga-daddy"!!!!! This girl could not stand on her own 2 feet if her life depended on it!!!!
I got a lot of strength at seeing you on tv the other night. You seem to have got your groove back ! I believe you and know what you went through . You don't have to be healed to help others , it's in having the courage to speak out that matters .. It makes those of us who have suffered in abusive relationships feel connected. It's good to see u happy .
Wow! Emotional mayhem! If ever there was an opportunity for a RH franchise to help some “real” housewives, this just may be it! Thank you Taylor for opening up about what you went through. You’re obviously still going through it and still processing all that you went through. Keep growing, keep an open mind to other perceptions about the “why’s” of Russell’s part and your part in it, and I know you will come out such a strong and whole woman! Hopefully any women (or children, or yes, even men) who are being abused will get inspiration from watching this amazingly real portrayal of abuse and suicide, and can get the help that they really need. Wouldn’t that be the best outcome of a RH season ever! Thank you again. This has all got to be so painful for you.
Speaking of which, would everybody on the show please quit dividing the women into “strong” and “weak” dichotomies. Just because Lisa or Kyle speaks up, or is LOUDER, doesn’t make them “stronger”. Because Taylor was in the most blatantly abusive relationship does not make her weak. All of us women are so much more than “strong ones” or “weak ones”. There is clearly strength in Taylor, Camille, and even Brandi.
You owe Brandi an apology. Watch part 2 of the reunion - you definitely brought up her slashing the tires before she asked when your book was coming out. (That was related to your unwillingness to listen to her explain how Lisa had your back after Brandi shared with her what Russell had said about the email.) You were unwilling to accept that Brandi was just using that as an example of how Lisa was supporting you (even Lisa tried to explain that to you). Then you asked about the tires, then you said snidely "I rest my case" and then, Brandi had finally had enough of you and brought up the book thing. In part 3 of the reunion Brandi apologized and you kept saying she brought up the book thing before you brought up the tire thing. Watch the episodes, you are wrong again.
First let me say that I am glad that you and your daughter are no longer in harms way. Yet I don't agree that you should be wrtiing a book on the abuses. I don't feel you are in any postion to give advice on getting out of a bad relationship. Last season you said " I just want these woman (at abuse center) to know that they can get out and have the life I have" Which is strange to me that you could say something like that knowing you are in the same postion as those women at the abuse center. This why I don't think you should have written a book on the topic because you are not heal yourself.
Also in what I have seen you can be very manipulating yourself with the woman on the show. I don't truely trust what you have to say because of this. From day one you were out to stir up trouble with the girls. First with the lie that you didn't say things about Camille Than you went and stir the pot between her and Kylie. When Kim call you out on it you flat out lied that you didn't said it and blamed her. Again this season you start out trying to manipulate the girls at the begin. I am not trying to bash you. I am trying to say that you are no angel in this. If order for you to truely heal and never go back to an abusive relationship. You need to admit what you are doing yourself.
Taylor, thank God you are still alive. You have a beautiful heart and daughter. I know it will be hard, but just know that you have alot of fans and people that care about you ,the people that have negative comments about you are either jealous, ignorant and so into themselves that they will make stupid comments just to make themselves feel better because their lives are so miserable, they have to say hurtful things., as if, your lips dictate who you are, you are amazing with so much strength, ignorant people think you must ask for their permission to change your body....and will always care what others think about them, I don't give a rats a what people think about me, I think you are very intelligent if you don't either. God bless you and your daughter.
I can identify with what Taylor was dealing with. The reason why we women sometimes don't leave or ask for help is because we are manipulated by a text book sociopath and when we reach out for help these men are good they make you seem like the crazy one, the longer we stay the weaker we become and harder to leave. God Bless You Taylor the system seems to fail us and they ask why you didn't leave!!! Duh!
Taylor, I commend you on your strength for taking yourself and your daughter out of a volatile situation. I am so sorry for your loss as well. I know how it is to hate the abuse but still hold out hope and love for the man you married the sweet and kind one that disapears when the abuse comes. It is so confusing and so hard for people who are not in it to understand. Even for those of us who are in it who want to believe the best in people ....however there are just some people you can not help no matter how much you love them. You deserve better and I am so proud of you that you took a stand for yourself and for your child.
I was not so lucky in my stance....I never thought it effected my children until the day my child told me about her abuse at the hands of the same man, my husband. My reality ended that day. I am on a new journey now, with my children. I understand your need to write a book and tell people about your story ...there are so many of us that live in silence. If your book only reaches one or a million the one would be worth your writing to get them out of an abusive relationship and show them that they are worthy of unconditional love.
I count you as one of the bravest women I have heard this trauma from....you were brave enough to put it on television where I am barely brave enough to tell my family. You are an amazing woman Taylor Armstrong and I thank you for putting your story out there. In doing so you helped many many women in likewise situations ...including myself.
We are not alone and will not suffer in silence. This IS NOT OUR FAULT!
Regards and a prayer for your new journey.
I listened to what your stated in your interview with Dr. Drew this evening and you are correct that no one "healthy" understands the cycle of abuse and why one stays. There are so many ebbs and flows.....honeymoon periods leading into the verbal and physical again. By the time we are infused in the relationship, our self esteems are so battered that we believe we don't deserve any better. We go back. They promise it will never happen again because they love us more than any one ever will and we fear we will never find that again, so we go back. We are happy for a while then another explosion and the cycle continues until there is a tragedy. I finally left my abuser when my daughter was born and I packed up in the middle of the night and fled the situation. I didn't want my daughter to live this way in her own life. I had to break the cycle and it was so difficult. So many times I wanted to go back and I couldn't. I understand. Many of my healthy friends abandoned me during my many cycles; tired of the drama, public fighting, his narcissistic personality and how I continued to go back. Now I am forever stuck with this person,but I am stronger now and on my own, however I still fear a relationship because of the continual fear of picking another like him and living that way.
I also lived through not one suicide (my brother) but two (my oldest, dearest friend and my daughter's Godmother). It's awful. I'm sorry you have to go through it.
Taylor, I know how it is to live in abuse. And you even find yourself blaming yourself for the black eye or the hand print bruises. But I would stand when he put his hands on me pregnant or left hand print bruises on my children because these are my kids. My problem is it is hard to get help when the abuser has money. My exhusband pulled me down the stairs pregnant with our fourth child then weeks later went to the court legally kidnapping my one, two and three yearold claiming I was abusive. Most of his takings have lasted a month or two and then the court gives me back custody after they realize his lies. But he is never pentilized for what he does to me or the kids. A year ago he left a hand print bruise on my four year old and then had the Guardian Ad Litem cover it up and pull wool over a new judge's eyes by claiming I couldnt see my children until I had completed a psych eval. I am about to go to court in March but it has been a year that I have only seen my children 15 hours.. and they are three, four, five, and seven. This torture has been going on for years. And I will get three days to prove that I am not crazy and again get my children back. But will he be punished for parental alienating me or for the emotional or physical abuse?? He hasnt in the past. I get my children back to only live in fear of when he will try to snatch them again. I wish more people understood abuse. This man is capable of hurting me and my children(has on many occasions) but because his family are multimillionares people keep turning their heads. _Amy(Charlotte, NC)
Taylor, I have watched this show as well as all of the other housewives. Besides the fact that Beverly Hills is my absolute favorite, I just want to say what a roll model you are to me. I am 22 and I too have suffered from an abusive relationship I was with my boyfriend for four years who was mentally and physically abusive. It was when I heard about your great battle as well when I had decided that I as well deserved better for my life than a man that abuses me. I think no matter how negative someone is towards your stuggle no woman or male understands what we have been through until you have been it in yourself. It is a hard battle to break and when you said you just wanted him to hit you to get it over with, I too felt the same way he not only was abusive but unfaithful and made me believe that I was crazy not good enough to deserve more then what he gave. No matter what the press or fans have to say about you writing the book about your life I am very inspired I will be one of the first people to buy your book. There are days when i just want to go back to the relationship because it is all I know, and its people like you who are so strong as to why I do not go back. I thank you for sharing your life with America and being a great roll model not only for your daughter but for me as well.
Taylor, I was also in an abusive, co-dependent marriage for ten years. When I finally mustered up the courage and strength to say I had enough, he committed suicide. I am now working on making myself healthy so if I decide to have another relationship I WILL NOT fall victim to this again. I am scared to death at how large the world seems now that I am the master of my own destiny but there are now glimmers of hope and yes, sometimes even excitement. I want to praise you for how you are using your celebrity as a platform to bring awareness to this subject I know all to well. I related to you so much in this past season. Watching you go through it was like watching a more glamorous version of my story unfortunately with the same ugly ending. Kudos to you for enduring this horrific event with such grace even when you feel shattered inside. You are an inspiration! Keep it up!
I'm really proud of you Taylor for writting a book on domestic violence. It is very scary, My husband abused me for 3 1/2 years, I was scared to leave. When I finally did leave, I met up with him "one more time". He punched me in the face knocking one of my teeth out, damaging 2 others and having to get stitches in my lip (I will have a permanent scar on my face). Domestic Violence isn't a joke and alot of women are living in fear, are scared to leave and keep going back. People need to be made aware.
Dear Taylor, I too asked my husband of 31 years for a separation in August; he committed suicide in October, while i did not experience the physical and emotional abuse only a void and distance in our relationship; and his suicide was driven by health issues and IRS problems i too have tremendous regrets and loss. Thank you for the courage of your feelings and i too will hope to re-build a life but the nights are filled with fear loss and regret. i as well am trying to NOT listen to the judgement of others about my decisions and feelings about moving forward and the struggles they will NEVER understand. Much love and support
Taylor, with how hard you wanted Lisa to be your friend this season, you truly let your friend down at the reunion by not backing her up with all those blows she took from Kyle and Adrienne.
My deepest sympathy goes out to you and your daughter. I believe you tried everything and all that you to be a happy family but some men just don't now how to handle many things and the easiest person that use their power or emotional blackmail to make themselves feel better and HE is in control. I hope you daughter was spared the sight of any physical and emotional abuse. I am Catholic, and I believe any religion that can give you strength, courage, and hopefully some well deserved peace in your life.
On a different subject, in Season 2 during one on one interviews you wore the most beautiful cross necklace. It was a rectangular shape with a cutout of a cross in the middle. i absolutely would love to know where it was bought or if you've ever seen something like it somewhere else. If you know some information of the cross, could you please email me. I'm glad you got out while you still could. Many families end up losing there own life and also their children and then turn the gun on themselves. Keep strong and have faith that it ONLY GET BETTER FROM HERE.
Dear Taylor---My heart went out to you as soon as I heard the tragic news about Russell. I hope you are doing better now... You are one of my favorites on the show, I really hope the show and you will come back for another season!!! I can´t believe the not-so-nice things that people write about you... don´t listen to them! I have loved to watch you on the show. You have so many good qualities, if anyone can´t see it, it´s too bad for them. You´re sweet, caring, talented, stunning and 100 other good things! And, you really are strong!
I am very sorry for your loss. The greatest thing you can do is get back to the girl that you once were, it's okay to be yourself. In watching you on television, I do wish that you stop giving into ever single emotion that comes over you, no wonder you are emotionally exhausted. Just relax, let it all go and learn how to enjoy the here and now. Playing the victim in every situation is just frustrating those around you. You are not a victim, once you realize that, you can start to be really happy! Good luck to you!
I was in an abusive relationship for many years. Don't listen to others who have never walked in your shoes. Being abused makes you doubt everything and you can barely breathe let alone worry about your friends. Your scared and alone and don't ever think it will end. Keep your chin up and love your daughter.
My heart goes out to you. People just don't understand why a beautiful and educated woman would stay in an abusive relationship. I stayed for 25 years and just recently got out. I was strong in every other area of my life except in this relationship. I was too embarrass to say anything to anyone, plus he always told me he could do a lot of damage before anyone could get there to help me. I was hit, chocked, knocked out, kicked, and shoved. I was also a victim of verbal abuse from my husband. I was the one who worked and knew I would have pay spousal support to him if I left. This year I was able to disappear after we filed bankruptcy and lost our house. I was unable to get any government or non-profit support since my child is an adult. I'm a couple of months from being homeless since I gave up a great job to disappear. I can't get credit either. People don't understand how hard it is for someone to leave. Abused women neeed something similar to witness protection to get them back on their feet. My prayers are with you and your daughter. Hold your head high and continue with your counseling, it will help you.
Taylor, I think you are immensely brave and honest. I wish all good things for you and your baby girl. Keep your chin up.
I was hoping Season 2 would be kinder/gentler than Season 1. I guess that was too much to hope for. I know all the adults are capable of handling handling themselves, and maybe even picking up the pieces behind them... but I really worry about the kids. I worry the most about "Taylor's" daughter... it looks to me that she has never been comfortable with all the attention. Very sad to see the child put in that position. This "Taylor" person has hijacked the show two seasons now; and with the real-life tragedy of the husband's death... you (producers) go and air it all. Wow, what has our world come to!
Taylor, I don't know if you will ever read this comment. After reading all the abusive and hurtful things people post, I almost hope you aren't reading them. But in case you are, please don't take to heart the hurtful things people have said. Unless they have been in an abusive toxic relationship, they cannot possibly know the brainwashing and systematic torture and abuse that causes the irrational behavior they are judging you by. Unfortunately, it took me 25 years to get away from my abuser. You will heal from this and go on to have a much happier life, Taylor. I sincerely wish the best for you and your daughter, and pray that you will continue with your therapy. It is so important for you to learn what it was that made you believe you didn't deserve better treatment... in order to keep from traveling down that path again. I have a deep sadness for Russell too. He did monstrous things, but I believe there must have been some good stuff there too for you to have loved him. What people don't understand is that you had to placate Russell in order to survive. You had to tiptoe around your words because you were afraid to awaken the anger in the beast. Take care of yourself Taylor, and please ignore the ignorant comments.
I just want to comment on Monday's episode with Taylor's counselor attending the party with her. To me it seems like a conflict of interest and unethical on behalf of her counselor. It makes me question his license. That party was not the appropriate place for a session with all the girls. I don't know why these parties are places for all these tears. Taylor I am sorry for your loss.
Taylor , I've watched these episodes and I plainly see that you were telling Russell something different from what you were telling the Ladies. We will never know what you told him they said that would make him want to sue someone. I pray that you introspect and ask forgiveness for the pain you've caused. I think the fact that you made the rounds on the talk shows after Russell's death speaks volumes.. Instead of protecting your dead husband's name you wanted to protect your image. I don't for minute think that he abused you physically as you said. And you were angry win Camille for regurgitating what you said....but you weren't angry with Lisa....why?.....
I love you. I think you are by FAR the sweetest ands most misunderstood housewife...of ANY housewives. I am so sorry for the sadness you have been through. I wish I could just give you a hug! XO Lauren
I hope Taylor gets the help she needs. I don't thing she was every truly, madly in love with Russell. She liked his money. There is always drama with her. She drives me absolutely crazy. Can't stand her whiney voice, and those lips are awful. I hear she already has a new boyfriend. So much for grieving. Just go away to a quiet place now Taylor and heal
Taylor - What happened with Camille vocalizing your admissions of abuse should be commended. I come from Hushed abuse, and the day I decided to not take it anymore and vocalize it is the greatest day of my life. I feel you need to thank her personally on camera for stepping up to the plate for you. She actually did the right and noble thing. NO ONE should hear of abuse and say or do nothing. Thats what the abuser wants. Now I know you know all of this, but when your in it, the shroud of abuse runs your life and you don't make or think proper decisions. It takes an outsider willing to take everything in her body to speak out to you and for you, and that is what Camille did, and I'm proud of her. I'm disappointed that seeing you on Watch what Happens Live that you were not MORE appreciative of Camille for you. I would hope that if someone came to you confessing abuse the way you came to all the HouseWives confessing, that YOU would take everything in your body and speak out to them and for them. I want to see you on Camera give Camille a REAL HUG of appreciation and women to women REALNESS of TRUE Friendship along with the rest of the Housewives to rally around in support. I know one thing. When I was in your situation I would know in my heart of hearts that Camille was being NOBLE and REAL and there are millions of people that would kiss her for being so brave as to speak out. All I want is for you to be REAL and TRULY thank her. I would be sooo disappointed if I didn't see that happen, and would just loose faith in The House Wives of Beverly Hills if this didn't happen. This is for all the abused women, children, and men, that need to see the support and Back bones of all of the House wives who have the platform to make such an impact. Be Safe and Enjoy this Gift of LIfe, Luv, Kathryn
Watching this show was a lesson in patience - From the start Taylor pulled in any one who would listen to her ranting complaints about Camille. Camille was honest, yet she was blamed. Taylor then used the previous tea party episode as a jumping off point to air her manic behaviour at another party. She had to have an audience and she got what she wanted-no matter who she hurt or used. Phenomenal. I wonder did the other women see that? What does she contribute but the stereotype of a middle-aged hysterical shrew? I thought we, as women, had evolved from that generation that gives men food for fodder, i.e. women are shrews, are hysterical, are manic, are not capable of controlling their emotions even in public. We all, no matter whether rich or poor, must go through stages of development towards maturity of mind. This is a grown woman with lots of problems and she needs to seek help privately. Since the money she makes flaunting her problems is a catalyst to keep on doing this in public-it would seem she has sold her soul. Is this what her child needs to see as an example of how to comport oneself in life and worst of all in public-for the television audience is the public. Money is not a carte blanche to air one's dirty linen for all to see. Taylor needs lessons in breeding and to drop the egocentric behaviour.
Do yourself and daughter a favor and resign from the show there is something disturbing about you and the way you blame your cast mates for your personal problems! You make watching the show unbearable!
I just wanted to say that you looked wonderful on Watch What Happens Live show. You look so healthy! Do you have any advice that you can give on how to deal with someone who is in an abusive relationship but keeps going back? This person is ruining relationships including the one with her 7 yr old that lives with me for this person. It's hard to know it happens but not being able to do anything about it.
I believe you owe Lisa an apology. You are mentally unstable. No wonder your daughter has bad manners. She takes after you.
Taylor, you knew darned well that Lisa said "I'm not your best friend" but for effect and so the others would feel sorry for you and to think Lisa was bad you said "I'm not your friend." I like how you change things around to your favor. Like when you said that Camile was feeling insignificant and then said that Kim was baiting you. Geez....own up the the drama you create.You started all that fighting at the end of last season and are to blame for Kyle and Kim getting into that big fight....and for Kyle and Camille's fight too. Not a fan.
Watching Taylor struggle day to day with her abusive relationship outside the home is difficult to watch. Abuse in relationships are very secretive and many times people have no clue what goes on behind closed doors. Abusive people are usually master manipulators and act this way because of their obsession with power and control. There are many types of abuse which overlap with one another. There is physical, emotional, sexual, and verbal abuse which include acts such as: intimidation, namecalling, hitting, withholding affection, and isolation just to name a few. A reason why it doesn't make sense to the other ladies is because they have never lived it. It seems so hot and cold to them, but domestic violence is a cycle: the build up ( walking on egg shells), the climax ( where the abuse happens), then the honeymoon phase ( abuser gives false promises to change, gifts, begging for mercy etc). Therefore Taylor probably came to the girls after an abusive episode and was distraught then Before they knew it she was off to some fancy trip that the abuser Planned because he felt guilty. I just hope women educate themselves and take these claims seriously. Domestic violence is more prevalent than people acknowledge and I hope these women at least validate Taylor and possibly talk her into seeing a counselor specializing in domestic violence. It will take some time for Taylor to overcome the emotional abuse.
Taylor you are my fav!! But that dress you wore to Adriennes fashion show??? What were you thinking? (did he make you cover your skin so that no one would find you attractive?) But I do believe that what Russell said about it all being b/s is a lie. You are so beautiful, and for someone with your low self esteem and confidence...there has to be more than what is displayed on camera. No 1 as gorgeous as you should EVER cry...I feel bad for you considering that the show is focusing on your marriage & the problems. Don't regret it because there is No relationship that is perfect. These girls all have problems, they are just too scared to lay it out on the table. Kudos to you honey!!
Taylor,i think you rock!!!!!my mom was abused by her first husband,almost killed a couple times,my brother and I are so blessed she left him and found the best daddy we could have ever asked for.your way out was different but god is going to bless you both with the love you deserve.i am sorry it happend the way it did though.suicid hurts so many people,it leaves us sad,angery,and woundering if you could have helped it...you couldnt have,so if you feel blame...please let it go and focuse on good and new.with all the love in.my heart,you rock!!!!!!!!be strong beautiful!!!!!
Taylor you rock!!!!!be strong for you and your girl!!!dont pay atintion to all the haters!!i prey that you both hill stronger than ever.i know that I only know you from tv but,i do just love you so much and my heart hurts for you both.be strong like I know you can be!!!rock on beautiful!!!!!!!(i mean that you are beautiful inside and out)
I just adore you on this show. I am sorry for what you are going through. BUT YOU ARE REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!! Showing life isn't all wonderful no matter how much money you can have. Girl stay strong because I am so rutting for you every show I watch. I do see your breaking point but you are ready to come out of it and i know YOU CAN DO IT... forget everyone else stay strong because you are finding yourself again and I am sure it has been a very long time. I sooooo support you as a viewer and my heart is right hear with you. Never give up remember you have found your voice and I am so glad to finally see you as a strong women.
Good Luck Tay, you and your daughter will be fine, You are doing WONDERFUL
Taylor, I have to tell you that the "cock-a-doodle-do" comment was laugh out loud funny! As well as "Ohh camel!" was very funny too. You are sweet and funny and beautiful. Blessings-
Taylor, I'm very glad you found your voice. Keep your head up. I'm so sorry for what you are going through but you will make it.. You are a GREAT WOMAN
Why are you always trying to come between two people>? First it was Kyle and her sister and now it's Lisa and Kyle. You would think after what you have been through you would be better than that. Don't hate Lisa because she has a great relationship and she is successful. Why don't you work on you and quit worrying about trying to demean others.
I was reading your blog and you definitely do get a point for me like for real! no more blackberrys from now on just communication, understanding , and alot of comprehension , and positiveness. Hopefully next season you and adrienne are back cause i really do love you all and i am going to miss you both very much like you all have no idea but it is what it is and their is no holding back . Keep your marriage alive and strong you can do it! god bless!
Taylor, My deepest sympathy to you and your family. I am widowed as well. I left my husband, but my children were older and stayed with him in the house. I received a phone call that my kids needed me. I came home to what I thought was gonna be another domestic!!! My husband passed away due to suicide.(05-12-10) Don't beat yourself up, it's not your fault.Long road and story. You are not alone......survivors of suicide support groups help alot!!!! Trust me. That and therapy.
A married sugga-daddy as well. Ugh!!!