Well, the end is finally here. I couldn't think of a better way to end the season, than with Pandora and Jason's beautiful wedding. Lisa and Ken did a beautiful job making this day magical. Ken's speech was so heartfelt that it brought me to tears.
That wasn't a difficult task this season. I shed a lot of tears this past year. My relationship with Kim and trying to keep her issues under wraps were too much for me at times, especially with cameras hovering around. Kim and I had gone through so much at the end of Season 1 that I tip-toed around her. I wanted so much to be the way we "used to be." People accused me of being an enabler with Kim. However, when the cameras were down, I did confront Kim. I didn't want to address it in front of the cameras unless Kim wanted to. It wasn't my place. I never intended to "out" Kim in Season 1. What happened that night in the back of the limo was from years of built up pain and frustration. I do believe that all of this has helped our relationship. We are in the best place in our relationship that we have been for years, although, it was painful getting there.
Watching Taylor's marriage unravel was also painful. Taylor was clearly at her breaking point. The other women and I really did try to protect her and advise her as best we could. Leaving Russell seemed such an obvious choice to me, however, not everyone has the strength or the courage to leave. At times it seemed our group questioned Taylor and her stories of abuse. However, with time the picture became much clearer. I personally was worried about using the words "domestic violence" or "abuse." If Russell was capable of the things we were being told, what would he do if we dared to utter those words on camera?
I guess what we have learned this season, is that addiction, domestic violence, and even suicide do not discriminate -- no matter where you live, how big your house is, or what kind of car you drive.
The issues that we have dealt with this season are real life issues that people struggle with every day. Thank you so much for watching this season and for the enormous amount of support I received from all of you during my struggles with Kim. It meant so much to both my sister Kim and me.
With love and appreciation,