Our trip to Paris was really fun. Such a beautiful city. Everyone was having a great time and getting along for the most part.
I knew my sister was not herself, but didn't know exactly what it was. I asked her a number of times, but she kept saying she was extremely tired. We were all really tired from jet lag, but I knew something was wrong. I know my sister so well and could tell this was not alcohol.
She had expressed to me that she felt sick and was abnormally tired. I was worried and not sure what to think. We later figured out what was wrong.
My favorite part of the trip was the Love Lock bridge with Mauricio. It was so romantic and I was impressed that he actually brought a lock with him to do that! Kim laughed at me later that I actually thought my kids may be able to find our lock if we put it in a "good location" Wishful thinking I guess!
As you have seen, my relationship with Lisa has been strained at times. It's been one year since the Reunion, where she was upset that I didn't defend her with Adrienne. Our relationship was in a bad place at the time of the Reunion. Something had happened between Lisa and I off-camera that changed our relationship. I didn't want to explain that to everyone because I knew it would make things worse. There are two sides to every story. I just didn't tell mine.
We did make up, but it seemed like it was always one step forward, two steps back. I was really feeling that in Paris, so that is why I said something on the Eiffel Tower. If I didn't care about Lisa, I would let it go. But I do care about her and feel that after one year, it's time to move forward.
Life is too short.
I will never look at the Eiffel Tower the same after that day. I will always think about our conversation up there and the fact that Lisa kissed me on the lips!