Cast Blog: #RHOBH

Get Ready for a Darker Brandi

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Let Them Eat Cake!

Kyle: I Couldn't Do Anything Right in Kim's Eyes

Lisa V.: Everything Is About to Boil Over

Brandi: Someone Poked the Wrong Bear

Eileen: Kim’s Emotions Are Already Running High

Lisa R.: Kim Tends to Forget Key Events

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Caught In The Crossfires

Lisa V.: I'm Not Afraid of Kim

Lisa R.: Why Do You Want People to Fight Over You?

Kim: I Shouldn't Have to Defend My Actions

Eileen: Kim Has Exhibited Disturbing Behavior

Brandi: Having Fun for A Change

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Shock and Suprise

Kim: Brandi And Kyle's Feud Has Nothing To Do With Me

Brandi: Addiction Is Not a Negative Label or Insult

Kyle: Brandi Pulls Out Her Dagger to Deflect

Lisa V.: At What Point Is It Enough?

Eileen: Is There Any Line Brandi Won't Cross?

Lisa R: Let's Call a Spade a Spade

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Battle Between Sisters

Brandi: I'm a Ride or Die Friend

Lisa R.: Everyone Needs to Own Their Sh--

Kyle: Brandi Puts Out Lies, Hoping They Will Stick

Eileen: Brandi Is Acting Like a Mafia Enforcer

Lisa V.: Brandi's Behavior Was Unnerving to Watch

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: A Clash and an F-Bomb

Brandi: Lisa R. Should Be Disappointed in Herself

Kim: Don't Mistake My Sadness for Weakness

Kyle: I Have Never Had Anyone Put a Hand on Me

Lisa V.: I Tried to Warn Kyle

Eileen: Brandi Attacks, Then Deflects

Lisa R.: Kyle Didn't Create This Drama

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: More Fighting and a Peeping Tom

Kim: Kyle Should Be Worried, Not Embarrassed

Brandi: Kyle Wants to Help When There's an Audience

Kyle: This Was Brandi's Master Plan

Lisa R.: It Felt Just As Awkward As It Looked

Lisa V.: Kim's Demeanor Was Questionable

Eileen: Brandi Loves to Stir the Pot

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Disgust and a Push

Get Ready for a Darker Brandi

Brandi shares why she wasn't speaking to her dad, what it means for her depression, and talks about the Joanna-situation.

Awwww. I'm so excited you all finally get to meet my maker, mother, and my love mamma Judy Glanville. My mother has always been the most giving woman I know, so when it came time to move I knew I could depend on her for help.

My parents have been married now for over 44 years. Normally my dad would have come to help me move as well. Sadly, at that time he was really struggling with some health issues, and we were unfortunately not on speaking terms. My father and I are a lot alike -- we are both outspoken, strong-willed, opinionated, temperamental -- and who do you think I learned the "f word" from. (Side note: my mother has never said that particular curse word -- but has made up for it with many others.) So I'm sure one can imagine what fights between my dad and I must be like. I do not like to argue with my dad, especially now with his health in a not great place -- so I am eager to make up with him as soon as possible.

That said, I gave my sweet and very laid back mom a tour of my new rental home. She doesn't seem overly excited by it, but that is just her personality. She really is happy for me. . .I swear! Going through some offices boxes we found some of my old journals and silly poetry books. Looking through them, I randomly come across a cute poem I wrote about the fact that my mom never calls me, we laughed so hard we were in tears.

Right around the time of my mom's visit I started to feel an overwhelming anxiety in the pit of my belly, similar to the one I felt years before when I fell into a depression while going through my divorce. It was the darkest time of my life, and with the help of therapy, anti-depressants, and a whole lot of white wine, I finally was able to find my happy again. With my dad ill with heart problems and us not talking for almost six months now (our longest break ever), I was starting to feel a little hopeless and that darkness was creeping back.

Since my divorce my dad has been my main man -- the only man that I knew I could count on, who would love me unconditionally and never leave me. I was starting to feel like I had lost him too. So get ready for a lot of a darker, slightly depressed Brandi -- with a little excess drinking and a little excess sadness thrown in -- as I take the journey to try to repair things with him. I am very self-aware, and I know when I am in a good place and when I am not. I have a great support group of friends around me that don't judge me for my faults or mistakes and who help me through my harder times. Moving on. . .

Watching Carlton and Kyle's lunch just seemed to be all sorts of uncomfortable, and I am glad I wasn't there. While I am very afraid of bees myself, I either scream and run or try to swat them away into the air. I have even been known to save a bee or two out of our new swimming pool. However when it comes to spiders, I am a straight-up murderer.

I love Kim, but her dog scares the crap out of me. But then my little a--hole dog Buddy scares the crap out Kim so I guess we are even.

I think watching Kim and Kyle reenact Lisa's faint is quite funny -- just because I have never seen those sisters stay that close to one another for that long. Haha. Lisa told me she did faint and she actually was injured from it. I do believe her -- although I did give her a bit of a hard time about how perfect even her fainting is. I also made fun of her a bit to her face for wanting off the show way before Carlton's lunch that you will see in the next episode.

Yolanda, Lisa and I have a lunch out back at Lisa's home. The setting couldn't have been more beautiful. During our lunch Lisa takes a few digs at Kyle (again) and a little dig at me about needing puzzles to help stimulate my brain. For a second, until Yolanda laughed, it was a little uncomfortable because Lisa'a digs towards me are becoming more regular and starting to slightly annoy me. Poor Yolanda, although she looks beautiful, she is still feeling pretty rotten. She and her family are always in my prayers.

You may have seen my recent appearance on Watch What Happens Live where Mr. Andy Cohen tells me that (unbeknownst to me) my name came up at The Real Housewives of Miami reunion. WTF! Ugggh!!!

I have met most of these women only once and consider them friendly acquaintances -- but I don't actually know any of them personally other then Lea Black. As we all have seen from watching RHOBH, last season Yolanda said that fidelity wasn't her ex-husband's strong suit, but that she and her ex have both happily moved on in their lives and now have a wonderful relationship that focuses on raising their beautiful children together. Given my own personal past, I am extremely sensitive to all thing infidelity and will always stand tall and have a friend's back.

Yolanda and I had both heard that this woman from RHOM had an affair with her ex during their marriage. While at a Bravo party this other woman started to walk up to me -- and when she saw Yolanda turned and ran the other way. (We walked away as well.) We both thought it was very telling. Later in the evening, when one of the RHOM women asked why I was avoiding that certain person I simply said "I don't want to be friends with a woman that sleeps with married men" and motioned towards Yolanda. That was all that was said. I was simply being a loyal friend and that was it. Later hearing Yolanda's ex joke with Lisa and I about the odor situation, I assumed it all to be true. I don't expect Lisa to back me up on this because of our current rift and her closeness with Yo's ex -- but it is the truth.

While I know this is not my business to be involved in, I was inadvertently brought in and just trying to be a loyal friend. Of course it's Andy's job to ask all the hard questions. I wish my name hadn't come up on the Miami at all, but it did and I was truthful in my answers. Anyhow Yolanda has asked me as of now to no longer comment on this subject, and I will respect her wishes because she is trying to stay focused on getting her health back on track. So as of now if you ask me anything about this subject (yes, even you Andy Cohen) I will decline to answer. I think we all know I am a little passionate about the subject of infidelity because it hits very close to home for me. . .I have little respect for men that cheat and the women that they cheat with and that will never change.

In closing, I will say for everyone's information I was the one who left Eddie because of his excessive cheating -- not the other way around -- but I hope one day to have a closer relationship with my ex-husband and his wife for our children's sake.

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Kyle: I Couldn't Do Anything Right in Kim's Eyes

Kyle discusses the building tension between herself and Kim and what it was like to kiss Steven Tyler.

Yolanda invited us all to do the Fantastic Race. I had no clue what we were in for. When we arrived, I was happy and relieved to see Camille and even HAPPIER when I found out Brandi and I were on the same team. Phew!

Once we started, I was unexpectedly into it. I really liked this running around Beverly Hills, playing childhood games. I had to laugh, because all the women were tortured to have to actually drink a shake! Hehe! All in all, I think it was a great idea and something none of us had ever done (except forLisa R.). It certainly wasn't going to repair the issues between Brandi and me, but we both went along with the game. At this point I was relieved we could actually be in the same room and be civil, even though I knew we would never be friends. I had to laugh when Brandi said "Aggressive Spice” to the girls outside of Villa Blanca. Hey! That's my line that I used on HER. Haha.

It was all worth it (or so we thought it would be), because the reward was a trip to Amsterdam! I had never been and always wanted to go. Of course I had imagined going with Mauricio, but I thought it would be fun--at least with most of the girls.

On the way to Amsterdam, Yolanda invited the women to stop in Calgary, because she and David were hosting a big event for The David Foster Foundation. Lisa R., Brandi, Kim, and I joined Yolanda. Kim had expressed to me privately that she wasn’t happy with Lisa R. I told Kim Lisa was worried, and Brandi told Kim she was questioning her sobriety after poker night. Knowing what we know now, it's frustrating watching Brandi not explain her role in that conversation. Lisa R. had actually gone to talk to Brandi about HER behavior, and Brandi quickly turned it around and made it about Kim. Brandi also expressed concern and revealed things that I know Kim wouldn't appreciate, and yet she went to Kim and said, “I just want you to know what Lisa R. has been saying."

When Kim and I discussed her issues with Lisa R., I told Kim she should pull her aside privately and let her know that while she appreciates the concern, she didn't appreciate her talking about it to other people. I said that Lisa R. would understand, and the issue would be dropped.

As soon as we arrived to the plane, Kim was giving Lisa the cold shoulder. When Kim and Lisa R. started getting into it, I wanted to get a parachute and jump off the plane. It was so uncomfortable being stuck in between the two of them. Kim was then mad at me for looking uncomfortable. Oh boy. This should be fun...

Calgary was amazing in spite of the awkwardness on the plane. The event was beautiful and such an amazing cause. The event raising $8.2 million dollars was truly impressive. The energy in the room was so exciting. I am a huge fan of many of the people who performed that night. It was so nice to see these people coming together to help these children. The highlight of the night came when Steven Tyler and I danced together on stage to "Walk This Way" AND he kissed me! OMG. I still can't believe that happened! I've always loved his music, and he was so kind, fun, and generous that night that I am an even bigger fan now.

When we arrived in Amsterdam we stopped for a moment to use the restroom, and I set my bag aside, and then we resumed walking out. After we were downstairs, I realized I had left my bag there. I felt terrible and told the girls to go ahead, but they decided to wait. Brandi and Kim were clearly annoyed with me, but it was an accident. What can I say? We were all jet lagged, and I wasn't exactly at my sharpest. The topper was when we all crashed on the escalator and Brandi actually hurt her leg. It didn't look like that big of a deal on camera, but it was actually scary. It was a full escalator, and we were all starting to pile on top of each other. Luckily someone hit the stop button.

I couldn't do anything right in my sister's eyes, and things only get worse from here on.

Kyle Richards

Outside, Kim turned to me and snapped at me again. First she said I blamed her for the escalator mishap (which I did not), then said whenever she's late I laugh at her and leave her. She was referring to Season 2 when we were going to Hawaii, and she left her passport and missed the flight. I never laughed and made fun of her. I was frustrated and couldn't exactly make the plane wait for her. I couldn't do anything right in my sister's eyes and things only get worse from here on.

Next week is the most intense moment we have ever had in five seasons of RHOBH...

Thanks for watching and sharing our ups and downs with us.

XO,

Kyle

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