Cast Blog: #RHOBH

Get Ready for a Darker Brandi

Kim: Don't Mistake My Sadness for Weakness

Kyle: I Have Never Had Anyone Put a Hand on Me

Lisa V.: I Tried to Warn Kyle

Eileen: Brandi Attacks, Then Deflects

Lisa R.: Kyle Didn't Create This Drama

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: More Fighting and a Peeping Tom

Kim: Kyle Should Be Worried, Not Embarrassed

Brandi: Kyle Wants to Help When There's an Audience

Kyle: This Was Brandi's Master Plan

Lisa V.: Kim's Demeanor Was Questionable

Eileen: Brandi Loves to Stir the Pot

Lisa R.: It Felt Just As Awkward As It Looked

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Disgust and a Push

Yolanda: I Would Like to Apologize

Brandi: I Won't Make Excuses

Kim: I Wanted to Hold Kyle

Lisa V.: I Want Max to Be Ambitious

Eileen: Being a Stepmom Is Challenging

Lisa R.: Lots of Transition Happening

Kyle: We Are an Emotional Bunch

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Surprise and an F-Bomb

Lisa V.: A Naughty Child Shouldn't Be Rewarded

Kyle: Brandi Was Rude and Offensive

Eileen: It Felt Like an Attack

Lisa R.: It Was Shocking and Unprovoked

Kim: Brandi Is Brandi

7 Faces We All Made During This Week's #RHOBH

Brandi: Lisa V. Was Making Me Uncomfortable

#RHOBH Spoiler Alert: Shock and Tears

4 Questions We All Asked During #RHOBH

Lisa R.: Portia Is My Spirit Animal

Eileen: Brandi Showed Us How Not to Make Amends

Yolanda: I Took One for the Team

Lisa V.: Yes, Love Is a Big Word

Kyle: Moments Like These Are Frustrating

Lisa V.: I Won't Erase the Past

Brandi: I Don't Enjoy Anger or Grudges

Eileen: I Could Feel the Tension at Kyle's

Lisa R Reflects on That Bittersweet Episode

Yolanda: These Are Teaching Moments

Get Ready for a Darker Brandi

Brandi shares why she wasn't speaking to her dad, what it means for her depression, and talks about the Joanna-situation.

Awwww. I'm so excited you all finally get to meet my maker, mother, and my love mamma Judy Glanville. My mother has always been the most giving woman I know, so when it came time to move I knew I could depend on her for help.

My parents have been married now for over 44 years. Normally my dad would have come to help me move as well. Sadly, at that time he was really struggling with some health issues, and we were unfortunately not on speaking terms. My father and I are a lot alike -- we are both outspoken, strong-willed, opinionated, temperamental -- and who do you think I learned the "f word" from. (Side note: my mother has never said that particular curse word -- but has made up for it with many others.) So I'm sure one can imagine what fights between my dad and I must be like. I do not like to argue with my dad, especially now with his health in a not great place -- so I am eager to make up with him as soon as possible.

That said, I gave my sweet and very laid back mom a tour of my new rental home. She doesn't seem overly excited by it, but that is just her personality. She really is happy for me. . .I swear! Going through some offices boxes we found some of my old journals and silly poetry books. Looking through them, I randomly come across a cute poem I wrote about the fact that my mom never calls me, we laughed so hard we were in tears.

Right around the time of my mom's visit I started to feel an overwhelming anxiety in the pit of my belly, similar to the one I felt years before when I fell into a depression while going through my divorce. It was the darkest time of my life, and with the help of therapy, anti-depressants, and a whole lot of white wine, I finally was able to find my happy again. With my dad ill with heart problems and us not talking for almost six months now (our longest break ever), I was starting to feel a little hopeless and that darkness was creeping back.

Since my divorce my dad has been my main man -- the only man that I knew I could count on, who would love me unconditionally and never leave me. I was starting to feel like I had lost him too. So get ready for a lot of a darker, slightly depressed Brandi -- with a little excess drinking and a little excess sadness thrown in -- as I take the journey to try to repair things with him. I am very self-aware, and I know when I am in a good place and when I am not. I have a great support group of friends around me that don't judge me for my faults or mistakes and who help me through my harder times. Moving on. . .

Watching Carlton and Kyle's lunch just seemed to be all sorts of uncomfortable, and I am glad I wasn't there. While I am very afraid of bees myself, I either scream and run or try to swat them away into the air. I have even been known to save a bee or two out of our new swimming pool. However when it comes to spiders, I am a straight-up murderer.

I love Kim, but her dog scares the crap out of me. But then my little a--hole dog Buddy scares the crap out Kim so I guess we are even.

I think watching Kim and Kyle reenact Lisa's faint is quite funny -- just because I have never seen those sisters stay that close to one another for that long. Haha. Lisa told me she did faint and she actually was injured from it. I do believe her -- although I did give her a bit of a hard time about how perfect even her fainting is. I also made fun of her a bit to her face for wanting off the show way before Carlton's lunch that you will see in the next episode.

Yolanda, Lisa and I have a lunch out back at Lisa's home. The setting couldn't have been more beautiful. During our lunch Lisa takes a few digs at Kyle (again) and a little dig at me about needing puzzles to help stimulate my brain. For a second, until Yolanda laughed, it was a little uncomfortable because Lisa'a digs towards me are becoming more regular and starting to slightly annoy me. Poor Yolanda, although she looks beautiful, she is still feeling pretty rotten. She and her family are always in my prayers.

You may have seen my recent appearance on Watch What Happens Live where Mr. Andy Cohen tells me that (unbeknownst to me) my name came up at The Real Housewives of Miami reunion. WTF! Ugggh!!!

I have met most of these women only once and consider them friendly acquaintances -- but I don't actually know any of them personally other then Lea Black. As we all have seen from watching RHOBH, last season Yolanda said that fidelity wasn't her ex-husband's strong suit, but that she and her ex have both happily moved on in their lives and now have a wonderful relationship that focuses on raising their beautiful children together. Given my own personal past, I am extremely sensitive to all thing infidelity and will always stand tall and have a friend's back.

Yolanda and I had both heard that this woman from RHOM had an affair with her ex during their marriage. While at a Bravo party this other woman started to walk up to me -- and when she saw Yolanda turned and ran the other way. (We walked away as well.) We both thought it was very telling. Later in the evening, when one of the RHOM women asked why I was avoiding that certain person I simply said "I don't want to be friends with a woman that sleeps with married men" and motioned towards Yolanda. That was all that was said. I was simply being a loyal friend and that was it. Later hearing Yolanda's ex joke with Lisa and I about the odor situation, I assumed it all to be true. I don't expect Lisa to back me up on this because of our current rift and her closeness with Yo's ex -- but it is the truth.

While I know this is not my business to be involved in, I was inadvertently brought in and just trying to be a loyal friend. Of course it's Andy's job to ask all the hard questions. I wish my name hadn't come up on the Miami at all, but it did and I was truthful in my answers. Anyhow Yolanda has asked me as of now to no longer comment on this subject, and I will respect her wishes because she is trying to stay focused on getting her health back on track. So as of now if you ask me anything about this subject (yes, even you Andy Cohen) I will decline to answer. I think we all know I am a little passionate about the subject of infidelity because it hits very close to home for me. . .I have little respect for men that cheat and the women that they cheat with and that will never change.

In closing, I will say for everyone's information I was the one who left Eddie because of his excessive cheating -- not the other way around -- but I hope one day to have a closer relationship with my ex-husband and his wife for our children's sake.

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Eileen: Brandi Attacks, Then Deflects

Eileen responds to Brandi's comments about her poker party.

I'm in New York during an epic blizzard. What?! I'm a California girl, and this is a first!

I'm jumping in with Yolanda and Bella and the vertical/horizontal issue with her phone. I'm so happy, because now I know it's not just me!

Just to clarify...in Brandi's last blog she said she came to our poker party and was so hungry because it was dinner time and we had no food. Aww. I guess she has to blame someone for her actions. But honestly, folks? It wasn't EXACTLY dinner time. It was between 8:30 and 9:00 PM. And it wasn't a DINNER party. It was a POKER party. A DINNER party is where you sit down at a table and have dinner. A POKER party is where you sit down at a table and play poker. And even so, we had lots of hors d'oeuvres. Such as those "little pancakes that are for children" that are usually known as blinis. Take a peek at the end of last week's episode. You'll see us all gathered in my kitchen, and there are trays of uneaten food on the kitchen island. Things got crazy as soon as we sat down to play the tournament. Even though the food was catered and delicious (I know this because I ate a lot of it before the ladies came over), everyone was too distracted to actually eat it. Well, maybe Brandi didn't see all the food, and that's why she got so tipsy and acted like she did. And thank goodness she was a little tipsy, or that gash in her arm could have been so much more painful.

As far as having a nanny (which we don't have, BTW) take Jesse away for the evening? I'm not quite sure where we're supposed to send an 11-year-old boy at 10 PM when we couldn't arrange a sleepover. Nor did Vincent and I think it was necessary. After all, we weren't having a group of Portuguese sailors over for a poker game. It was four women. If we're ever moronic enough to invite Brandi over again, I'll make sure Jesse is safely sequestered away from our property. I wouldn't want her not to be able to express herself fully with "f---, c---, p----, c---, b---," etc. as loudly and as often as she pleases.

If we're ever moronic enough to invite Brandi over again, I'll make sure Jesse is safely sequestered away from our property.

Eileen Davidson

Kim must be in severe pain, or why would she have taken someone else's meds? Why is she at a party? I know she's going through so much with her ex-husband, Monty, and is very vulnerable, but is Brandi really the best friend for her? I know sibling relationships are complicated, but I still believe Kyle has her sister's best interests at heart more than Brandi does. What was the point of keeping Kim away from Kyle? Kyle wanted to understand what was happening with her sister. Brandi admitted she was drunk. That's who someone who is trying to stay sober has as her support system? Brandi has her own issues to deal with and watching her with Kim was disturbing and not a healthy combination, IMO.

Lisa R.'s charity event was lovely. I adore her beautifiul home and it has such a gorgeous view! I definitely bought a couple of pieces that I'm crazy about. I was so happy to help out this great cause.

I told Lisa V. when I stopped to pick her up (and seriously? THAT closet? Watch swans?! Fabulous!) that I can't stand unresolved stuff. It's sort of annoying me that I don't understand Brandi's aggressive behavior towards me. So I decided to talk to her about it. Two women just communicating, hopefully to maybe find some common ground. A deep and lasting friendship is probably not in the cards, but I'm hoping that at least we could have some resolution? Crazy of me? Maybe so, because I wasn't aware I was "lecturing" her. That certainly was not my intention. I'm not her parent or teacher. I'm just trying to understand. Brandi acts like I'm offending her by wanting to understand her. Clearly, my actions towards her have been insulting and mean. Wait. That's how she is towards me. I guess I am finally understanding her, after all. She attacks, then deflects. She's becoming predictable. Yawn.

I'll be auctioning off a lightly used poker tournament trophy (held proudly for a moment by Brandi), that was left at our house for charity. Opening bid is $100.00.

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