Having said that, Lisa has never come to anything I have invited her too. Kimberly has always really liked Ken and wanted them there. When I went to Lisa and Ken’s to drop off dresses for the charity, I was in a very good mood. I gave her the dresses and we talked for a little. When I mentioned Kimberly's graduation to her she told me she had been in Wisconsin all weekend I had to laugh because my hairdresser saw her that night having dinner at SUR.
She got caught. At this point in my life I really don't have time for petty things like this nor do I really care. I'm turning 50 this year and have so much to be grateful, for like my children and my daughter's engagement. As for Ken jumping on me the way that he did. . .He was right I have missed some parties, but I also missed out on life. These are things that I regret and have apologized for since I have been sober. No one knows, unless you have walked in someone else's shoes, what it feels like to dislike yourself so much or to feel like you can't go on another day. Or to think that today might be the day that I am going to change. Wanting to change but knowing how. It is a horrible feeling. I think Ken's comment was unnecessary, and I have forgiven myself a lot for the past. I feel terrible about some of the things I missed or things I did. However, in order for me to not pick up a drink today I have had to realize that the past is the past! And today I love myself and my life, my children, sisters, family and of course Kingsley! Thanks for taking the time to read my blog!