This week is a difficult episode. I think one of the hardest parts of doing a show like this is having to relive difficult times.
Mauricio and I were excited to go back to Puerto Rico after having spent our anniversary there last year. It is such a beautiful place and the people are so kind and welcoming. Joyce was also happy to share her "home" with everyone and the trip perhaps brought her comfort after losing her father.
Our first day there started out promising and then took a turn for the worse.
I saw Lisa and Yolanda talking and then Brandi so I went to see what was going on. I wish I hadn't gone over at all. In spite of their conversation, I believe that both Yolanda and Brandi do care about Lisa and their friendship with her. Lisa and I have obviously had our problems and both of us have felt hurt by each other at some point. However, we had been slowly trying to repair our friendship. When Brandi told me that Lisa had put the tabloids with the lies about my husband in her suitcase and told her to bring them to Palm Springs, it stung. A lot.
After the Reunion last year, Mauricio and I were both hurt and didn't see or spoke with Lisa for months. After a rough start, this season things started to get better. When Lisa and I had Mauricio and Ken's birthday party we had started to speak more often and would always be laughing like we used to.
So when Brandi said that I didn't know what to think. Although I never knew Brandi well, everyone has always said Brandi isn't a liar. Brandi is the "truth cannon." Lisa herself had always said she loved how honest Brandi was. So, here I am hearing this, after months of having the tabloids brought up over and over.
When I walked back over to Lisa, I asked her because I wanted to hear what she had to say. I adore Ken and think he is an amazing husband but he wasn't there. So him saying "it didn't happen," didn't mean as much as Lisa saying that. I was thinking that maybe if this had happened she had been joking. Obviously, I wasn't there so I have no way of knowing what really happened. I was thinking to myself that we are in a good place now, so I wanted to put this behind us either way.
When Mauricio came up he was clearly upset. My husband rarely gets upset and I knew he was serious. First he was mad that this topic was brought up once again. He was also hurt by what Brandi had told us. When he walked off, I went after him, but he was so upset he didn't want to be around anyone. When we got back to the hotel he asked me "If this really happened how can you sit there and be nice?" He ended up going for a long walk and said that he didn't want to be around this group if this was going to keep happening -- and I couldn't blame him. I felt that he didn't think I was taking it seriously enough and wasn't being supportive of him.
We all went to dinner that night and I felt that the only way to find out the truth was to ask the question while Lisa and Brandi were both there. Well, you know the rest.
Lisa and Ken didn't like that I didn't just take their word for it on the beach. I don't think It should be expected that I just take her word when she didn't give me that same respect at the Reunion last year. I think if roles were reversed Lisa would have done the same thing in attempt to get to the truth. If we are working on getting our friendship back on the right track, then I want to know that we really are friends and our friendship is worth working on. I was not there when this happened so I will never really know I guess. I do wish Lisa and Ken had stayed and Mauricio and I could have sat down and talked the next day.
I think we would have all felt better.
Until next week. . .