Cast Blog: #RHOBH

Kyle: It's Still Out There

Brandi: I Don't Enjoy Anger or Grudges

Eileen: I Could Feel the Tension at Kyle's

Lisa R Reflects on That Bittersweet Episode

Yolanda: These Are Teaching Moments

Kim: My Heart Felt So Big

Kyle: Kim and Monty's Relationship Is Unique

Lisa V.: I Needed an Uncomplicated Friendship

Brandi: Kim Is a Survivor

Lisa R.: I Couldn't Be More in My Element

Eileen: Brooke Was a Gorgeous Bride

Brandi: I Felt Like a Grown Up

Yolanda: I Was Doubting My Parenting Skills

Lisa V.: A Scare Can Be the Ultimate Lesson

Eileen: Yeah, Vincent and I Bicker Sometimes

Lisa R.: My Heart Ached for Yolanda

Kim: The Call No Parent Wants to Get

3 Clues to Next Week's Episode

Brandi: Not a Good Time for My Phone to Die

Lisa V.: Hindsight Is 20/20

Kim: The Words You Never Want to Hear

Yolanda: 50 Is the New 30

Eileen: A Long Career Is the True Award

Kyle: An Invite to a Party Isn't the Answer

Lisa R.: God Bless Michael Bolton!

Quiz: How Well Do You Remember Episode 3?

11 #RHOBH Reactions That Sum up Our Lives

Kyle: I Would Take A Road Trip Over a Plane

Lisa: When You Reach Out, You Are Rewarded

Kim: Brandi and I Always Seem to Have Fun

Yolanda: A Homemade Meal Goes a Long Way

Brandi: I Was Surprised Adrienne Was So Receptive

The Real Story Behind Lisa R.'s Depends Ad

3 Clues to Next Week's Episode

Quiz: How Well Do You Remember Episode 2?

3 Times the 'Wives Were Just Like Us

Quiz: How Well Do You Remember Episode 1?

Kyle: Brandi Was Looking for Trouble

Lisa's First Impression of the Ladies

Yolanda: Fasten Your Seat Belts

Q&A: How Are Camille, Adrienne, and Taylor Now?

Kyle: It's Still Out There

Kyle explains why the tabloid talk was so hurtful, but where she hopes she can go with Lisa from here.

Well, this is my last blog for Season 4. This Reunion was a particularly difficult one. I had kept so much in for so long that when I finally said what had been on mind for so long, I couldn't stop!

First of all, I want to say that I didn't believe Brandi because we had suddenly gotten close. Brandi and I have never been close. We still aren't. We have gotten to know each other better but we are not close friends by any means. I believed Brandi could be telling the truth because of things that I heard Lisa say about my husband last year at the Reunion and during scenes I saw this season.

It seemed to be a common theme to speak against my husband -- whether it was watching Lisa going after Mauricio's and my integrity regarding our business at lunch with Yolanda and Brandi, or watching Lisa and Ken talk about the tabloids in their living room and seeing how Ken defended Mauricio while Lisa cleverly still tried to cast doubt.

Then there was the fact that Lisa brought up the tabloids in the first episode. It doesn't matter if it is brought up as a joke or as an attack.

No matter HOW it is brought up, it was still put out there. And all of us are smart enough to know that.

I think some of you think that I wasn't upset with Yolanda or Brandi in all of this. I was very upset with all of them after Carlton's lunch at her home.

Yes, it was in the tabloids but if it hadn't been mentioned during the show, it never would have been heard about again -- which is why I made the point to Lisa that I could mention lots of things I had heard about the women. But I never have, jokingly or not. Lisa herself was already joking on Twitter and on the show about the 3/4 of a nipple joke. And that was still AFTER she made the remarks in my kitchen regarding the tabloids.

If Brandi had told me this out of the blue without these other red flags,  then maybe it would have been different. Lisa also had said in Puerto Rico that she never saw the tabloids until after Palm Springs. However, she mentioned it in Episode 1 while we were discussing having SUR cater my Beverly Hills Chamber Of Commerce party.

At this point, I honestly don't even care anymore. I will never know for sure because I wasn't there. Lisa says continuously that she felt "ganged up" on. I also felt "ganged up on" last year at the Reunion and again this year with the "Dream Team." Joyce did as well. Lisa is not the only one to feel attacked.

I also have to say that I have nothing to do with Yolanda's or Brandi's issues with Lisa. I have my own relationship with her and these are separate from the others issues.

When Lisa left after the dinner in Puerto Rico I absolutely, 100 percent, did call her and texted her. No, not ON camera. OFF camera. Surely, they would have shown it if I was trying to reach her on-camera. Lisa also would have asked me the same question if she was told by Brandi that I had done something like this to her.

I do care about Lisa, which made this all the more difficult to swallow.

I didn't understand how Lisa wanted me to move on without even a tiny bit of acknowledgment on her behalf. She is still talking about my saying that "maybe she preys on weak people" three years later AND I have apologized and explained where I was coming from when I said that.

I commented on Lisa's new found "friendship" with Carlton because I know Lisa well enough to know that she doesn't agree with or condone Carlton's behavior. I will not even comment on Carlton because she is not important to me in my life and don't feel she is worth my time. She is free to dislike or hate me all she wants. I wish her well in her life. It just won't be around me.

Going forward, I accepted Lisa's apology. All I wanted was for her to acknowledge my feelings so we could move on. I can always forgive and forget if I care about someone. Only time will tell where our relationship will go. I know that I am only interested in moving forward in a positive way and don't want to continue to bring up the past over and over. Life is too short and we all have too much to be grateful for.

Thank you for watching this season and being a part of our lives.

With love and gratitude,
Kyle

Lisa R Reflects on That Bittersweet Episode

Lisa Rinna discusses the difficulties of becoming the caretaker for her parents and missing Kyle's BBQ.

What an emotional and bittersweet episode for me! My family means so much to me and to recently come to the realization that we are at the point in our lives where I am now the caretaker, rather than my mom and dad, is a hard one. Let me give you a little backstory on my dear parents, Frank and Lois. . .

Last November, my mom had a stroke and was in the hospital for three weeks, followed by outpatient care. This came as a devastating shock for us because my mom has always been in good health, incredibly vibrant and full of life since she worked and played tennis up until the day she had her stroke at 85. So, for her to not remember anything or speak incoherently was really life changing for everyone. My dad, being 92 years old himself, is on oxygen full-time and has relied on my mom to take care of him for some years now. With both of them needing round-the-clock care, my sister and I were faced with the very difficult decision of what to do. Hearing my dad tell us that "Where I am now isn't home. It's only where I sleeps at night," still brings tears to my eyes. How heartbreaking to know he feels this way. I realize there are many of you out there that can also relate to these difficult decisions we have to make as our parents age and their health fails them.

My mom made it very clear that she didn't want someone else living in their house with them, so the decision was made to move into the assisted care facility they live in now. In hopes of mom getting better, we didn't put the house up for sale right away, but as time passed, we realized the days of mom and dad being able to live in their own home were gone, and we put the house on the market this past summer. The house sold quickly, which is what took me up there to collect my childhood items and memories. Standing in our empty home, holding my mom as we both cried while reminiscing about old artwork brought back a flood of old memories I hadn't thought of for many, many years. And, of course, driving around Medford with my girls, saying goodbye to the neighborhood I grew up in was so bittersweet. As I mentioned on the show, I never quite felt like I belonged in the Medford community, but I am so incredibly grateful for the time I spent there because it's hometown charm is what made me who I am today and I wouldn't change a second of it. I really do have wonderful memories full of BBQs and friends and of course, colorful Jell-O salads thanks to my mom!

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As you can see, my two girls are a hoot. They are unfiltered and say what's on their mind at any given moment. (I have no idea where they get this from!!!) I just love them for it AND am tortured by it at the same time. It meant the world to have them up there with me during this emotional time. HH was up in Vancouver filming his new show Rush, which meant he couldn't be there, so the comfort of my girls by my side was everything. I think having Delilah and Amelia with me to see and experience this circle of life is an important part of growing up.

I'm also glad you got to see some of the amazing watercolor paintings my dad has painted over the years. Their beauty has brought so many people so much joy and I'm happy that they're hanging up for people to keep on enjoying. He is an exceptional artist, and it's just heartbreaking to know that his shaky hands and failing health won't allow him to continue doing what he loves. He's a special man and I love him dearly.

It is so sad to say goodbye, but I will always have the memories and I feel so lucky to still have my parents only a quick flight and phone call away. I cherish the time I get to spend with them. They are my everything.

Alright, let's talk about what the other girls were up to while I was gone! First of all, I loved the lunch I had with Yolanda and Eileen before I left for Oregon. Such a small world to watch the two of them discuss how they were connected through their kids before actually meeting each other. And then to see Yolanda call Eileen to invite her to Kyle's BBQ made me so happy. I just knew the girls would love her! Oh, and Eileen is now $100 richer because she won that bet Brandi made with her at Kyle's house. Not only was I the original Billie Reed, but I created Billie on Days of Our Lives! Time to pay up, Brandi!

The BBQ at Kyle's house looked so beautiful and fun, I'm really sad to have missed it. Man, is she lucky to have her Ladysitter, Justin. I am not even kidding when I say that I want to steal him away from her. He is fabulous with helping Kyle and I know she knows how lucky she is to have him in her life!

Just when you think you couldn’t love Lisa V's adorable zoo any more than you already do, she introduces you to her gorgeous gay swans, Hanky and Panky. How much more fabulous can you get?

I think it's interesting to see Brandi trying to get some kind of closure with Lisa V. We have to remember that there are consequences to our actions with others. Sometimes we can move on quickly, other times it takes longer and sometimes not at all.

I hope you're all ready for a wonderful and stress free holiday. Take this time to enjoy your family and friends and I will see you back here next week! Sending blessings and love to you and your families!

Xo, LR