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Kyle: Nobody Bothered to Support Me

Kyle shares how she was felt going into Cirque school and why she didn't speak out against the Brandi "bully" story.

This week Mauricio and I have dinner with Joyce and Michael. We really like them both and have fun together. Michael and Mauricio are both golf fanatics so they instantly had that in common.

Hearing "news" about my family on TV or on the Internet is not new to me. Often, I will see or hear things and have to call my family and say "What is going on? is this true!?!" Most of the time I know right away that it's another BS story.

However, this is the first time I have been in this position personally. I too have been guilty at times of thinking that there had to be some sort of truth behind these stories. I think it was reading about Jennifer Aniston that made me realize that a lot of these stories are literally invented. How many times have we read about and even SEEN pictures of Jennifer Aniston's "baby bump"? She has to be on her 14th child by now!

When I walked into the circus school, the last thing I wanted to do was be around most of the women to be honest. I was still upset from lunch at Carlton's, and did not feel like "bonding" with them. But my sister made this plan, and she had good intentions. I was happy when I saw Kim, Joyce, and actually Carlton, too. I was still completely unaware that Carlton disliked me so much -- and she was being pretty nice to my face.

When we first sat down, Kim was explaining why she invited everyone and why it was important to her. From the minute I walked in, I could feel the negative energy coming from the other sofa. So when Yolanda cut Kim off and was basically saying "Enough already. Let's get stared," I felt defensive. I felt like she was being disrespectful, considering Kim invited everyone and was excited to share this day.

We all moved on from that, but there was a very strange vibe in the room. Kim had pulled me aside and told me that Brandi thought I had called her a bully. UGH. WHY am I all of a sudden on the defensive when I hadn't done anything?!? Beyond frustrating. Here I didn't even want to be there to begin with because of the way the women acted at Carlton's, and now Brandi is pissed off at ME? I decided to go up and say something because it was either that or leave. I didn't want to do that to Kim since she had been talking about this day for a while.

After the lunch at Carlton's that you saw last week, a story came out on the Internet. SOMEONE leaked what happened that day and talked about what Brandi, Yolanda, and Lisa had said and how upset I was. Most of the information was incorrect, as usual, but they were right about me being upset. The word bully was never mentioned in the article but that was the paparazzi's (that Brandi ran into) interpretation of it.

Later things got more awkward when we all went for lunch after. The bully comment came up again. Again, I am having defend myself against something I didn't do. There clearly is not a lot of trust right now on ANYONE'S part.

Brandi and Lisa were clearly upset about the article and I was as well! The LAST thing I wanted to do was draw MORE attention to the lies in the tabloids, which is EXACTLY why I was so upset after leaving Carlton's lunch.

When Lisa suggested I tweet something in defense of them I really was shocked. When the tabloids first came out Mauricio and I hired a lawyer to sue. We soon learned that it was not that simple. We were also advised to not give it any attention. That is what the magazines want.

It was extremely frustrating because we WANTED to come out and say something! So when Lisa was upset that I hadn't made a "statement" or tweeted in defense of their behavior at Carlton's lunch, all I could think was "Are you kidding me?!?" I haven't even come out and defended the lies about my own family, but they wanted me to defend their bringing up the tabloids at Carlton's?

A few months before Carlton's lunch, Brandi had warned me this particular "magazine" was going to go after us. Once the lies were printed I didn't hear from any of the girls. The first time was when Lisa mentioned it was at my house when Mauricio and Portia were in the kitchen. The second time was at Carlton's.

After the story came out about Lisa, Brandi, and Yolanda at Carlton's lunch, Lisa went on a red carpet and made a comment saying she didn't believe any of the lies and they were BS. If that comment had stood on it's own, I would have been so grateful and happy to have that kind of support. Unfortunately, it came only AFTER the women had brought it up and the story had grown. It also wasn't lost on me that nobody bothered to say that BEFORE their character had been attacked and that they had in fact contributed to the story growing.

So much happens this season and so many of the relationships change between the women. It is very hard to watch at times. Some things I wish I had seen more clearly at the time, other things I wish I hadn't. Ignorance, really can be bliss at times. . .

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Kyle: Kim and I Will Never Agree on This Matter

Kyle clarifies the Kingsley issue and responds to Brandi's most recent accusation. 

I don't want to write this blog. I didn't even want to watch this reunion, to be honest. There. I said it. But here I go....
Let's just dive right into the text message from Lisa Rinna to Kim.
I was very shocked to hear about that text. There is no excuse for that. I believe Lisa R. knows that. I can understand Kim being upset about that. I am sure she was taken aback, as we all were when we heard it. However, I don't think Lisa Rinna is a dangerous person. She just made a really bad choice.


Now onto Amsterdam and the space cake talk. Brandi went after me in Amsterdam regarding the space cake, because she doesn't like me and wanted to deflect from her own behavior once again. This was her big chance to say something about me, calling me a hypocrite for not partaking in the space cake. I have said it before, and I will say it again: I NEVER said I haven't smoked pot. I HAVE. It's just not my thing. I have a lot more fun having a few margaritas. Kim knows that. I would have appreciated her chiming in there. Also, I have NOT eaten a pot brownie or a space cake ever, and my husband had warned me that it would not suit me well, knowing my personality. You cannot gauge exactly what you're ingesting, and it wouldn't be smart. I didn't want to have a bad experience and "freak out," so to speak. Brandi herself wasn't partaking, because of her own reasons (which had to do with her divorce, as she explained), so wouldn't that make her a hypocrite then? WHY did she care if I did or did not choose to? Because she wanted to jump at the chance to make me look bad, since her behavior and her drinking had been front and center. Her drinking was out there, because she puts it out there, and she has nobody to blame but herself. If I HAD chosen to eat a space cake, she would have jumped on that, too. Anything to divert from her own actions which she was comparing to ours. All of us may have a few drinks, but NONE of us behave like her when we drink.
I only address this because it was on television. Her opinion of me is completely irrelevant to me. I only cared, because I am a mother, and her trying to make me out to be something I am not is reckless, as is everything else she does.
Ok. Enough of that. She beat that non-event to death. I think we can move on now.

Now this is the hard part...Kim and I had not spoken since Nov 1st. We both knew the situation with my daughter, Alexia, and Kim's dog, Kingsley, was bound to come up at the reunion. We don't get to pick and choose what we want to talk about.
Alexia had spent the night at Kim's house on Halloween. The next morning, Kingsley bit her. While scary, at first it didn't seem that serious. However, what the first doctor failed to notice was that the tooth had pierced the bone and also broken it. Five days later, we found out that her bone was infected and she needed surgery to clean out the bone. Kim was upset, because I had posted pictures from the hospital. Like I said at the reunion, I NEVER said her dog bit Alexia. Never mentioned her OR her dog. TMZ ended up finding out that it was Kim's dog, and she blamed me, because I posted the pictures from the hospital. I did not do that to hurt my sister in any way or to "get Instagram followers," like she suggested. With all of my family coming and going at the hospital, people were bound to find out and talk.


We were all with Alexia at the hospital trying to distract her and have fun. As any mother would do. We were all trying to make the best out of a bad situation. We invited family and friends to visit and tried to keep her spirits up. In hindsight, I wish I hadn't posted that picture, but I certainly didn't mean to hurt Kim. She posted a picture when she was in the hospital this year. Yolanda and Camille have done so regularly. And where is her responsibility in all of this? However, I do feel bad about what it has led to. And I've told her that. I also felt terrible because I know she loves Kingsley, but I also love my child. It was a difficult time for all involved. I didn't blame Kim personally regarding the dog and was willing to drop it and move forward, yet she was too angry with me regarding the Instagram post to be able to do that.
I wish that since I was willing to let go of my anger regarding my daughter being bit and what she had to go through that she could have let go of being upset about the Instagram post. I HAVE to believe she knows I did NOT do that to hurt her.
For Kim to throw out that she would say something about Alexia ( like she did to Lisa R. regarding Harry ) nearly took my breath away. But her dog is off limits?
So there you have it.
I don't even know what to say or do anymore. Clearly, we will never agree on this matter. And now we have more issues to work through, like my hurt and anger over Kim threatening to say something about my child. I know she loves Alexia, and it was just her being angry and "in the moment," but it's going to take me some time to get past that. All I know is I am glad I don't have to relive all of this again on TV. Now I need to take a step back .
Hopefully, time will heal my relationship with Kim. Time and having an open and honest relationship.
It's been a very difficult season. That's for sure. Thank you all for watching.
XO,
Kyle

P.S
Some things I would like to clear up:

A) I NEVER asked for Kingsley to be put down. I love all animals and know how much Kim loves Kingsley. That was never part of our argument.

B) Brooke's wedding : Brooke did a small ceremony at my sister Kathy's house (part of it aired this season), so that Monty would be well enough to walk her down the aisle. The wedding we were referring to at the reunion is her actual "big wedding " coming up. And NO, I did not do anything "unspeakable" or "unforgivable" at the wedding at Kathy's house like Brandi has (once again) put out there. It was a beautiful, perfect day that Brandi Glanville is now trying to throw negativity on. She was NOT EVEN THERE. On top of everything else Brandi has done, she now wants to turn that beautiful day that my family celebrated into something to lie and gossip about. Shame on her.

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