Happy New Year everyone, I don't believe I have ever been this excited to start a new year.
A new year with hopefully new beginnings. . .
Unfortunately, looking at tonight's episode, this is not the case. Somehow, in this group, we keep going over and over the same things so here we go again.
Sitting at Lisa's dinner was extremely uncomfortable. I felt like a fish out of water. I think today's show gives an extremely clear picture of my friendship with Brandi. Like I said before, her behavior is unacceptable, but I love her for the loyalty and kindness she has shown me during my battle with Lyme disease. Sadly, empathy seems to be a rare quality in this group, so I really appreciate that quality in Brandi.
Regardless though, it is extremely hard to see a friend behave the way that she did and I am not going to defend it -- but I am also not going to walk away from our relationship while knowing she is in a severe depression.
So even though I could barely get out of bed myself, I felt the need to check on Brandi at her house. When I got there, I could see the pain in her eyes and sense the extreme demons she was fighting. Unfortunately, you are only seeing two minutes of a deep one-hour conversation where we discussed her issues and battle with severe depression. I felt really sad for her, but I also had to speak up because I started to feel like a hypocrite for sitting through two of these very dysfunctional dinners without getting much of my true opinion in. I am raising daughters and would be absolutely mortified if any of them would see women communicate that way.