I think this episode should be renamed “Awkward.” The events that happened were definitely tough on a personal level, but at the same time, I can’t help but have a laugh about it in the end. All I can say is there’s so much more than what meets the eye—let me give you the behind-the-scenes scoop!
From the limo to the spa to the wine tasting, there was literally alcohol everywhere in this episode. But I am so strong in my sobriety today and know how to handle situations like this. I removed myself from the situation and was fine the whole trip. It was AWKWARD only because the people made the situation awkward by constantly checking in on me. While I am appreciative of everyone’s concern, I just want them to trust me when I say, “I’m totally fine. It doesn’t bother me.” Overall, the spa day was perfectly fine and fun.
Before I dive into the meat of the drama, can I just point out the limo conversations?! Here we go again! Every time we’re in a limo, it’s like the real Vagina Monologues. As for Brandi’s sexual fantasy, that was no surprise to me! Hilarious.
I was hurt that all Kyle could say was how embarrassed she was. As a sister, I would be worried, not embarrassed.
OK—now here’s the back story to the whole poker night debacle. Before the poker party took place, I had been struggling with bronchitis and pneumonia for weeks. I went to the doctor several times because I was in so much pain, so I really was in no shape to go to the spa day or poker night. And I definitely didn’t want to go out when Monty came back to the house before poker night after being gone for a couple days. I just wanted to stay at home with him, but I had to go to Eileen’s with the girls. I took the pain medication from Monty thinking it can get me through the pain I was experiencing. Little did I know, it just made me kind of out of it! But seriously, if I knew the medication was going to affect me in a negative way, I would have NEVER taken it. Careless decision on my part—lesson learned! Also, I was hurt that all Kyle could say was how embarrassed she was. As a sister, I would be worried, not embarrassed. I’m just grateful that Brandi was a good friend and supported me. What I don’t understand is why so many of the girls tried to make me stay when all I wanted to do was go home and rest after it got AWKWARD. Why would anyone want to make the situation worse after me and Kyle’s bathroom confrontation? Sometimes, we all just have to "let it go."
In the next episode you will see that I end up in the hospital with major injuries due to being sick, but because of my history, some people will automatically assume one thing, even though they have seen nothing but strength and courage in my sobority for the last three years. To quote myself, if I may, “I have nothing to hide from anybody.” I’m glad I’m able to tell my side of the story here. Despite all the AWKWARD drama between Kyle, me, and Brandi, I just want to focus on staying healthy, strong, and happy for myself and my loved ones! Until next time!