So here we are ... my exit.
I just wanted all of you to know that no words could express how touched I am by the beautiful comments I've been getting all week here on my blog, on Facebook, my website and twitter. I am actually tearing up writing this. I have to say that our fans are the most wonderful people and for that I am grateful. You have all helped me get through some of the darkest times here on the show. You inspire me to be a better person, thank you from the bottom of my bubbies.
I want to comment a little on the other scenes this week, the scene with the farm made me laugh because that is what my family is all about, that's who we really are. This is what I thought this show was going to be about. A lighthearted funny show about a family that is a little crazy, good crazy. We would take day trips like that all the time and just laugh our asses off about the silliest things, like the pigs and their nasty unmentionables. I agree with Jacqueline for some reason I couldn't take my eyes off of its b*lls, I even had the urge to poke them with a stick or something. Gross right? But that's what I mean by good crazy. We are far from a normal family, but dangerous and harmful we ARE NOT. This kind of drama with this nut went a little too far for me. I didn't sign on for this.
I do hope you all understand why I HAD to go. No amount of money, attention, fame etc. is worth my happiness. I am finally at a point in my life that I can truly say I am happy. Like I've said before, my life isn't perfect ... what is perfect anyway? But when I put my head on my pillow every night and thank God for all my blessings, my last thank you is always for the ability to cut out any negative and strive for true peace in my life. We ALL have the ability to achieve peace. I hope I shed some light as to how, as I said in my letter to her, "If the things around you don't change, it's time to change the things around you." Of course there was much more to that letter that was NOT read on air. I felt I didn't get the chance to make it clear to her what I really went there to say, so a letter of closure was the best way to express myself. I explained to her that I had the right to remove myself from a situation that doesn't serve me in a positive way and I was leaving the show. I NEEDED her to understand that I meant business. The letter ended with a very clear STAY AWAY FROM ME OR ANYTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH ME. Of course she didn't listen...