Cast Blog: #RHONJ

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Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

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Caroline addresses her battles with Teresa and menopause.

Hello again! I can't believe we're back, it seems like we never left -- is that a good thing or a bad thing? I'd like to think that most of you would answer GOOD!

Seven months ago we left you with quite a cliffhanger, and I'm sure many of you have questions that need answers. I completely understand, so here's the good news -- Season 4 will explain it all. Be patient, read between the lines, and as the weeks unfold you all will have a better understanding of decisions that were made and the reasons behind them.

Watching the first episode made me uncomfortable; to be brutally honest I'm not in the mood to relive it all, but it is what it is, so here I am. That being said, I think I'm going to keep this blog very generic and get down to the nitty-gritty of things as the weeks progress. Baby steps, baby steps.

OK, here we go -- the cookbook comment and the apology that followed. I want you all to think; do I strike you as the type of person that would end a relationship over a shallow comment in a cookbook? The answer is no, I'm not. The cookbook was the tangible piece of evidence I needed to state my case regarding all the rumors I had been hearing for months. A rumor is a rumor, nothing more, but when you see something written in black and white, there's no denying the truth. The worst part is when the opportunity arose to discuss the comment, I was looked right in the face and lied to. No accountability, no remorse. That was my ah-hah moment -- the truth was revealed and I made a decision, end of story. Again watch and read between the lines. I'm aware that some of you won't agree with my decision, and quite frankly that's fine. This is how I feel, and I'm standing by it. Let me know in September if you agree with me. By then you will have had a pretty good idea of where I'm coming from.

MENOPAUSE -- I'm not quite myself these days and the doctor believes I'm knocking on the door of menopause. If that's the case, then open the door and let me in! Teach me what I need to know; how will I be feeling, what's next emotionally and physically, and how do I deal with it in a positive manner. I'm not going to fight it, because whether I like it or not, I realize this is a battle I won't win. The fact of the matter is simply this -- I'm getting older and my body is going through some changes. I've decided to educate myself and go with the flow. If I have to go through this, I'm doing it with dignity. Wish me luck! Like I said earlier, I'm easing back into the Housewife stratosphere, so that's it for now.

Thank you to each and every one of you who watch us week after week, you are appreciated more than you know. I love reading your comments on Facebook and Twitter, the good and the bad, so keep them coming! You can find me on Facebook -- go to fan pages and search Caroline Manzo. My Twitter handle is @carolinemanzo -- stop in and say hello!

See you all next week!

xoxoxoxo

C.

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Amber Marchese dishes on her first reunion and why Dina Manzo confuses her.

Hello Housewife friends!  Welcome to the jungle baby! My first reunion was a wild ride. Call me sick and twisted, but I had an unbelievable time at the reunion when most, I have been warned, dread it. I felt like it was “The Great Purge” and when I went home I was felt relieved of any built up tension. I don’t care if anyone has a grudge against me, my slate is clean and I harbor no ill feelings towards anyone. I love to argue my point, and I truly stood by all of my convictions this season, so I was ready to say exactly what was on my mind, and then some. 

I know the twins and I went at one another pretty hard, but that is what the reunion is all about. It is an opportunity to get it all out and potentially understand one another's position better. Then we can each make our own decisions as to where we want to go with our relationships. I am very much the type of person that can say some of the meanest things and sling mud, but hug it out at the end forgetting anything negative that was said. It just rolls off my back. I actually think it is healthier to say what needs to be said, and then move on.

One thing I did question after the reunion was if Dina actually has a heart or if I should start calling her the Tin Man. I actually have not figured her out yet. Is she really just a coldhearted bitch, or has she been hurt so many times that she has become warped and jaded. I feel I don’t owe anyone any reason as to why I call cancer “the cancer,” but I will give it once more anyhow. “The cancer” is “the monster” to me. It is a way for me to take away its power and to minimize it. “It” destroys lives, so “it” does not deserve a name. It is just “the cancer” -- it was “the monster” or “the dragon.” Although Dina claims to have an understanding of how devastating cancer is to a family, her actions and blatant lack of empathy proves otherwise.

In addition, I did not think it was appropriate for me to interject into family quarrels at the reunion; however, this is something that I feel strongly about. I have met Jaqueline and I have spoken to her on many occasions. In the very short time that I have gotten to know Jaqueline, I know and have empathy with the struggles she has caring for Nicholas. I felt that Dina’s interpretation of her nephew was callous and completely out of touch with reality. The only thing that keeps playing in my mind is, "You know nothing John Snow."  No, thank God, he is not hooked up to machines with cancer; however, what the Laurita family goes through is extremely difficult on a day to day basis that will continue on for a lifetime. It is emotionally and financially devastating. Although, Dina "visits" children with cancer, at the end of her visit she gets to go home, leaving it behind and goes on with her daily life. Since Dina does work with children with cancer, I pray that she can abstain from a self-absorbed lifestyle and become a loving, involved aunt.