OK, so she missed her flight, big deal, sh-- happens, so you just deal with it. Now I had to go through the good-byes all over again. I had a get together planned for the night that she was supposed to leave. I hoped it would help me not to think about it. I needed the company. Looking at myself, I can see how drained and sick I looked back then. I was in a bad place. Those times were not easy. I'm thankful for Chris, my parents, my brother and his wife, Mary, during those times for being my rock and helping me to cope with it all. Thanks to Chris, Ashlee finally made it on the plane.
I can't even talk about that last scene with me crying looking at Ashlee's scrapbook or seeing her as a baby without my eyes filling up with tears. When you have children, you only want to give them the best of everything and teach them everything you've learned so their life may be a little easier than your own. You want them to look back on a happy childhood and grow up to be happy adults. Nothing hurts more than when your kids are hurting, and if you can't fix a problem they have or teach them to how to fix it, it feels very defeating and worrisome.
I will admit I didn’t miss the fighting between Ashlee and me when she first left. It was actually a nice break. Of course, after a while, I began to miss her very much. I still do. I still always worry about her, but we are in a much better place now and I am very proud of her. I love her very much. She has come a long way. We both have.
Being a Mother is the toughest job in the world, there is no book on how to do it and if we are doing it right. Your life is on tv for the world to see which is even harder because you live it once and can replay in your mind and on tv over and over again. I would hate to see my life like that. You are doing a great job and keep your head up. Hopefully she will look back one day and see how hard you tried. Pay no mind to the critics because people love to hate for some reason.Maybe because they have hate in there heart or maybe they are just bored. Either way I say screw them. You have a beautiful family and a positive attitude that will get you very far in life. Peace and Love~~~ Meredith
Jacqueline- I'm so happy to hear about you and Ashlee thats great news! It's really nice to see in your blog that you are not all about bashing Teresa and just putting all the blame on her that you admit that you were in wrong at times as well. Thats a breath of fresh air because it seems that the rest of your castmates like to ignore there wrongdoing like the fact Caroline and her children and Greg bashed Teresa all last season and the second Teresa makes a couple of jokes in a cookbook Caroline is offended! To me that was ridiculous! If you are going to make fun of someone all season or laugh when your children do then you have to be able to take it yourself. So the fact that Teresa apologized so many times I didn't understand why no one would just accept it and move on! No one was innocent in this situation! Not Kathy or Richie who made fun of Teresa all season Richie couldn't go a scene without bringing Tereas name up but then she acts like shes bothered by the lame joke comment in her notebook. Be careful with Melissa because a lot of viewers can see right through her she wasn't so nice with Teresa last season and this season shes playing the victim. I think if everyone stopped blaming Teresa for everything and really watched the episodes and look that they have fault as well her brother always talks about his hurt and blah blah blah its annoying he bashes his sister whenever he gets the chance and her husband! But he can't handle it when she does! And I think its disgusting hes supposed to be her family he shouldn't be discussing his probems with Teresa with everyone who will listen! Especially people who used to be her close friends! Come on! I know you are a smart person Jacqueline and I like you so just remeber that Teresa was going through a hard time but I never once heard her on the show say a bad word about you or your family or Caroline.
Jacqueline, you're a really good loving person! That was so well said, and I totally get it.
I totally understand what you're going through with Ashlee, and I'm so happy to hear things are great for both of you.
I cried as you were going through her scrapbook and old movies of her. We want so much for our kids and they don't get how much we love them. I pray that my son (I have 3), will turn his life around, and you're just fortunate that you had somewhere to send her off to for a little vacation.
I so want that story for my son. That I can say all the things you are able to say about you and Ashlee's life now.
Thank you for sharing it with us. You don't know how many other people are in the same situation, no one wants to admit it or talk about it.
Anyone who criticizes you hasn't walked in your shoes. I never criticize someone else's parenting skills or "how bad" their kid is, because you just never know what's coming around your corner.
By the way, love your husband, too!
You looked great on WWHL last night, and I wish the show was longer, so you could spill more details.
I hope and pray for all of you, that everyone comes back together and work things out. I don't like the families/friends fighting.
I do like the fun and chaos that goes on during the dinners and parties, and the kids.
Let Bravo know not everyone loves the drama of the fighting. Love RHONJ for the "FAMILY" and food and good times. NO MORE FIGHTING, PLEASE!!
Thanks for listening.
I applaud you for finally taking a stand with Ashlee. I know how hard it must have been for you, but she needed to get pushed out of the nest and she needed to see that Mommy and Daddy can't always be there to bail you out. I also applaud you for trying again with Teresa. You really do try to be Switzerland in all the drama. You are doing the right thing and setting good examples. Keep it up!
I REALLY LIKE JACQUELINE; I THINK THAT THERE ARE JUST SITUATION THAT ARE VERY HARD AND THE ONLY PEOPLE TO SAY OTHERWISE ARE THE ONCES IN IT. EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY AND YOU'LL SEE ASHLEE DO BETTER ONCE SHE ACKNOWLEGDE EVERYTHING THATS HAPPENING. AS A MOTHER YOU MAY INCOURAGE OR TRY THE BEST YOU CAN BUT SHE HAS THE FINAL SAY.
Jaqueline, sometimes it's okay to just let things go, and move on. I for one don't understand why you would want to pursue a friendship with Teresa. I understand you two HAD a friendship, but people change, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse BUT when you have to work THIS HARD at maintaining a friendship and/or feel uncomfortable or awkward in that persons presence, then it is time to leave it in the wind, and roll on! Of course there will be sadness, but time really does heal all!
I think you all are doing what you an for her. But you can not help someone if they are not ready. Your doing great and the right thing. She will grow up we all did lol good luck from lisa reaves in Texas
Hello Jacqueline! i just wanted to say i enjoy watching u so much! i have a teenage daughter and i understand the drama that goes along with it! i feel so bad for Lauren, i too have struggled with my weight in the last several years. i have health problems in which i had to take alot of steroids for a long time and i have low thyroid and are unable to take the medication to stablize it. i would hate to be on a very popular television show while ur struggling with ur weight and how u look at yourself. Of course we think she is absolutely beautiful inside and out but its all about how you look at yourself and i know personally thats all that matters! But im so happy to hear she is doing well and looks great! Good for her...she's a wonderful person and deserves it! Just would also like to say that sometimes women on these HW shows can be very catty, mean and down right child like! But u have always presented yourself as a wonderfully mature, kind, loving and open-minded woman. To end this i would like to also say im glad things are going great between u and Ashlee and that u and Teresa are trying to be cordial. God Bless u and ur beautiful family!
I truly hope y'all can finally accept at least one of Teresa's apologies. Everyone knows she isn't the best with words, and I think that's a big part of not coming across as sincere.
Stop your battle with Teresa and go enjoy your family.
ps you have way too much time on your hands when you can write pages and pages of useless blog.
Ending a friendship is tough but I believe you have done it with class and dignity and respect and that is all a true friend can do.
Happy Belated Birthday!! Maybe it's because we share a birthday that I admire the heck out of you, naw, I'd admire you anyway. Stay strong and don't let the BS and haters bring you down!!!
Jacquline my heart breaks everytime I see you working so hard with Ashlee. Itll get better and it takes a child to really grow up and see how good they have it. The tough love you and Chris gave are needed. She will so greatly appreciate it one day. KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK. Also keep shaking those haters off girl.
You and Chris have shown tremendous love for Ashley, Chris is great guy. While I am sure that Teresa should own some of what has happened in the past, so should everyone. We have heard this is a dark season, hopefully it will not continue to be everyone bashing Teresa. Unfortunately, the rest of you also seem very calculating in what is said on camera and off. Melissa is no angel. Even in your blog, you are telling us how much you would like to heal the friendship, but you seem to say that if Teresa does not see it as you do, it will not happen, I think for many of us, we saw last season, Teresa felt backed into a corner, having too relatives start to film a show she is on, when they were not in a healthy place. With everything else going on in her life, she was trying to survive. You and Caroline had become like family too her. We all know rumors of something happening during the group trip, maybe legal reasons is why it was not shown. But now we are supposed to believe this is about words in cookbook, Caroline and kids, along with Richie, Melissa and her own brother have been saying negative statements going back to last season pre-trip. So as you tell us, you like to look at both sides, maybe step back and look some more. You and Teresa were fun to watch, your friendship showed. It is sad, but it is not all Teresa's fault.
I think you're great, but I am sad to see your friendship with Teresa end poorly. Just keep in mind that she is going through a lot and probably feels that everyone is against her, so of course she is going to be defensive. I also hope Teresa sees that her snide comments are hurtful and she really should stop. I hope you two can find a common ground. I think Caroline acts so high and mighty and I hope you don't let her get in your head too much. You are my favorite on the show and the most "real" out of everyone. You know your life isn't perfect, but you do your best.
It's so refreshing to see/hear someone on TV who is genuine! I think you are a great wife, friend, and mom - you are only doing the best you can do, and you are definitely someone to look up to :) Keep trying and keep your head up!
Jac you should have just been there for your friend Teresa and not worry abt her saying things are 'fine' while they r not..Its obvious that she didnt trust you and rightfully so am sure she already had a slight feeling towards you!
Jacqueline, I so enjoyed reading your blog. You could be very successful in a career in psychology, social work, or counseling! I have thought that about you from the beginning. You reflect on things with great honesty, emotion, and self-understanding. Your empathy is something that sets you apart from the rest. All the best to you.
Jacqueline - You were always my favorite...I feel out of all the woman you have the best heart, your forgiving nature shines through because you want to see the good in everyone. BUT after seeing the reunion show I was just floored. I know you didnt go because your were in a bad place but those woman tore Teresa apart and it was so very hard to watch. I was never a big fan of Teresa until I saw that show...She held her head up and kept on going .. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive Teresa, she may be diffrent from when you first met her but she clearly cared about you as her friend...
Teresa needs a friends and family,,,,She is doing everything she can to work off her debt and worry about Joe going to jail. Her marriage seems unhappy and still lots of money problems. JAC...your friend is trying to dig her way out of a hole and the entire cast of New Jersey Housewives are just throwing more dirt her way,
Jacqueline, You have been my fav from the start! You're 100% real and I think you are a fab friend/mom/wife/sister in law/ etc.... You have the biggest heart and So many of us here in Mo see it.... we are your Mo housewives fan club. Just want you & Chris to know that we Love you guys (even if it is through the t.v.) WE see Great people with Big hearts... and we all love yor smile! So keep it up... we're in your corner girl ...AlwaYS
Good for you Jacqueline for wanting to move forward. Life is too short to hold grudges. You and Teresa don't have to be best friends, but freeing yourself of the ugliness is a giant step to at least be cordial. Again, LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR MESS!!!
I really respect your outlook on life and your feeling towards others. It is so nice of you to let the viewers into your world and let us understand what you are going through. Sometimes people have to remember that even though you are on TV, you still go through trials and tribulations. You aren't any different than the rest of us. Your stories may even help others that are going through the same issues. I appreciate those qualities in you....and I am so glad you and your daughter are in a better place now. Bravo to you!!!
Jacqueline, You were contradicting things alot in this blog. Confusing. However, now it's the Manzo's turn to apologize to Teresa about all their mean jokes.
Honeslty , You and Caroline have really disappointed me. Did you ever sit Caroline and her kids down and talk to them about some of their negative and hurtful comments that they may have said about Teresa ????( her being stupid, the way she talks, dresses and her kids), but you want someone to apoligize to Caroline ????? Probably not. And what is the difference between your twitter apology and Teresa's apology in a magazine?? The public has access to both media outlets, so what makes your aplogoy more sincere or more heartfelt ?? Everyone makes mistakes, its just sad, i used to be a fan and now im not!!!!!!!
Hey Jacqueline..... First Mother and daughter relationships are always special,beautiful yet tough,all you can do as a mom is to continue to encourage and support her,yes I understand that you don't want to see her make a mistake but in failures is when we learn, if after all that she still refuse to live her life productively,that is on her,it has nothing to do with her being raised by a single mother,lots of people are raised by single parents yet not a lot let that be their definition....regarding Teresa,we can see that she is being treated unfairly by her husband,must be hard for her to have the world see that when all she wants to present is perfect unity,when one is hurting,they tend to lash out at everyone around them.....Things have a wa of working out,give yourself a break and just continue to be a good person.Good luck with everything!
Congrad's with Ashlee, I know that it hurt you to have to use the measures that you did and that it was just as scary to you as it was to her but look at the positive that came from it. I'm glad that your in a good place with Ashley I have two boys older than Ashlee and I had to do exactly what you had to do with my oldest son. Believe me it'll work out for the best for you and your family. LOL we have one big thing in common being scared to drive to the airport. I don't have a fear of flying never have it's always been the drive that scares me.
I'm not a Theresa fan, I've never been I think that I see her as Caroline does I just saw it all along. I can't wrap my head around the things that she says and does especially to Melissa. She isnt sorry for anything thats just my opinion if she was sorry and I do get the timeline she wouldn't have had the attitude she had at the reunion, she didn't have to turn evil no one else was going for her blood she was the one that opened it up and tried to make it get to that point. I have to say that Melissa handled her a lot better than I think I could have she showed a lot of grace and class, they all did considering how loud rude and agressive Theresa got. Not to mention that she is now sorry about the insults she said in her blog, she continues to lie, she said to caroline last week that she meant what she said 110% she said that she didnt insult anyone, in her blog today she references insults. I could list what I've caught her saying that she either denies it or trys to turn it around on someone else. She wants to be the victim it doesn't fly with me. The only thing I think she's a victim of is the way her husband treats her, but she could get out of that situation if she wanted to. Her financial problems are her own and I don't feel sorry for her about any of it. I find her claims of not knowing anything to be bull I believe she knew.
I don't have a problem with any of you for not being more forgiving of her over all bad behavior, I don't believe she's sorry for any of it. If she felt sorry about the way she had treated everyone we would have seen her being alot less aggresive at the reunion. Once again I think a lot of people are thrown off by the timeline.
Jacqueline....What did Teresa ever do to you?
I remember Teresa consoling you when you were having a hard time with Ashlee during the last episode.
Also, everyone except for you, always made jokes and talked about Teresa and Joe behind there backs. What she said in her cookbook (and I have it) does not pale in comparison to the way she was treated and bad mouthed by her own family, not to mention Caroline and her adult children and their friend.
Why is she the only one that needs to apologize.
She is entitled to her feelings.
AS the mother of a troubled adult daughter I know the pain you are going through and hope it ends quickly for you. If only Ashlee understood that it doesn't get any easier, that she is in the easy part of her life. Sigh....oh well...mine graduated from college at least but even that doesn't necessarily keep the problems at bay...Best wishes to you all....
I have to admit, I see a lot of myself in Ashley. At the age of 20, she doesn't have much direction, nor does she seem to have a plan - but not all 20 year olds do. I believe Ashley, as most girls from broken homes do, doesn't quite feel like she belongs anywhere. It doesn't much matter that people love her, feeling accepted doesn't have much to do with how others feel about you, but about how they make you feel. I don't find odd that her priority is her friends - they are likely the only ones around her that don't make her feel badly about herself.
I really think she should have been supported in her desire to move to California. I think she needs to be as far away from everything she knows to figure out who she is. I think she would succeed better on her own terms than on the terms of others.
I really hope Ashley finds herself before she never has the courage to prove to herself that what everyone else thinks of her just isn't true.
It appears that you and the Manzo's figured wrong. Yes you led the viewers down the garden path about Danielle and dragged her through the mud on national TV. This time Karma is wagging it's head. WE the viewers are not fools. WE very clearly are reading between the lines and the Trash Tre season is back firing on you mean insipid people. It's called Blow Back Jacqueline.
You are a great mom. It's hard to watch you and your family go through everything with Ashlee. I hope she makes it through this rough patch. Hugs!
hey jacqueline hows it going i think your a great mom some people might think u are a push over because ashlee keeps getting her way i understand your her mother but sometimes you gotta let your kids learn for themselves that everything Is not all peachy and keshie and there is something called the real world .........
Had Teresa leaned on her friends and family, all of you would have talked trash and shared what she confided to all the world. She is smarter than any of you realize.
Thanks so much for sharing your heart, Jacqueline. I'm going through the same thing with my beautiful, 21 yr old daughter. She's talented and bright, but no drive whatsoever. She doesn't worry about anything, is always scrambling @ the last minute with everything, has wasted the last 3 years of college, and now tells us on the middle of finals that she's not going back in the fall. She doesn't know what she wants to do, but she knows school is not right for her. She depends on us for $, works PT at the mall, and is content with just getting by. My husband adopted her and her bio dad has been out of her life for several years. I have to wonder if this is some of the issue. My husband loves her as his daughter, and they have a great relationship, so I really don't know.. She doesn't want to answer to anyone. I see so much of my situation in yours with Ashley. It's so hurtful that I want more for her than she does and I worry more for her because she doesn't worry about anything. Possibly too much has been given to her all these years. Thanks for the inspiration you provide; good luck and know there are others who feel the same!
I don't know why its so hard for you guys to be friends with each other? Its really simple...don't talk badly about them behind their backs and enjoy them for the person they are, not how you think they should act. Teresa never said anything bad about you on the show so you have no reason to trash her the way you have. Its YOU not being a good friend here.
No offense Jacqueline, but when Teresa has leaned on her "friends" you guys turned on her! I think you're a nice person, but you seem to be heavily influenced by Caroline. Also, an apology is an apology....take it or leave it. You and Caroline put so many conditions on your friendship with Teresa...why was it OK for everyone to make fun of Joe & Teresa at the Punta Cana trip last year but she can't make a few harmless digs in her book? She didn't say anything that bad.