Teresa and I had talked a few times about how she got paid for these articles, with the exception of People magazine and that she had two more covers coming out in In Touch after her vow renewal cover. She did share with me some of the stories she wanted to put out there about herself, but when new stories came out in the tabloids, I didn't know anymore what was true or what was not true. I didn't want to pry into her business by asking her about them, but at the same time, I wanted to know because she was my friend. I cared about her and everyone else in America was reading these tabloids and talking about it while I knew nothing. It was crazy that she would talk to the tabloids but not her "best friend" or family about her life. How would you all feel? Really think about that. I was supposed to be her best friend, you'd think she would mention them to me. It never seemed to occur to her that I was worrying sick about her. How could she expect everyone to ignore it? How could she not think about addressing it with us or be offended if we asked any questions about it, especially if the articles mentioned one of us? It was like a hit and run.
I was wondering if Teresa was just profiting from people's pity by benefiting from a big media scam while she was really living the high life or was my friend really in trouble, denying it to herself, suffering in silence and getting deeper in debt. I was starting to not respect her choices, and I really felt like I didn't know who she was anymore. I felt like I was always trying to justify her actions to everyone. So much about her life was being fabricated, so I had no idea what was real anymore. From what I was hearing from some of our mutual friends, I was starting to question whether or not our friendship was even real or if she just needed me as an ally on the show. I heard she wasn’t pleased with me because I wasn't joining her army in her fight against her family. Who in their right mind would help her fight her family, especially when we all had to work together? A true friend would help bring them back together. A true friend would never expect me to harm her family and start another war between them.