Cast Blog: #RHONJ

Caroline's Frustrations

Amber Calls Out Andy Cohen

Dina: What am I Doing Here?

Amber: Is Dina Coldhearted?

Dina: "The Reunion was Very Hard to Watch"

Teresa: We Love Hard, We Fight Hard

Dina: The Ladybug Event was Perfection

Amber: I Felt I Like I Was Being Hazed

Melissa: Continue to Pray for Teresa's Family

Why Amber Shares Her Cancer Story

Dina: I Was Team Santa

Teresa: I Don't Blame Jim

Bobby's Unacceptable Behavior

Amber: Dina is Jealous

Melissa: "We are Heartbroken"

Dina Reacts to the Sentencing

Kathy Talks Kevin Jonas

Amber: Dina Was Planning a Blood Bath

Jim and Amber Were on Different Pages

Dina on Bobby's "Bizarre" Behavior

Amber Calls BS on Dina

Nicole: Words are So Powerful

Teresa: "Kudos to Dina!"

Teresa: I Love the Show, I Love My Fans

Praying for a Positive Outcome for Teresa

"Tipsy Melissa is My Spirit Animal"

Dina's Lose-Lose Situation

Jacqueline on Her Status with Teresa

Why Teresa Told Dina the Rumor

Amber on Her Cancer Scare

Teresa: There was an Agenda to Hurt My Family

Melissa: I Do Feel for Amber

Dina: Gia's Beautiful Inside and Out

Nicole: This is Not 'Jerry Springer'

Amber on Her Meltdown with Teresa

Amber's Emotional Call to Teresa

Teresa Thanks the Fans

Dina: Florida Will Be the New Scary Island

Teresa: I Wish I Never Heard the Rumor

Amber on the Shocking Rino Rumor

Victoria Gotti's Big No No

Caroline's Frustrations

Caroline explains why she had to ruin the group's zen.

Hey guys, long time no speak! I hope everyone enjoyed their last few days of summer; I spent mine down the shore with Al and the kids along with a constant flow of friends and family. Life is good.

The past two episodes of RHONJ were pretty intense, wouldn't you agree? As promised, the viewing audience witnessed a few very real and emotional moments from cast members that you would least expect, my husband Albert being one of them. I'm not gonna lie, that knocked me for a loop, I wasn't expecting that at all.

The equine therapy session was amazing; I only wish you could have seen even more and how Wyatt interacted with each of us. He had the capacity to look right through you and challenge you without being aggressive and threatening. I don't think there was a dry eye amongst us when Rosie, Al, and Joe Giudice opened up to him. I appreciate Wyatt for that.

The high wire challenge was awesome. Everyone cheered each other on as they climbed the ladder and at times we laughed so hard our bellies hurt. Kathy and Rich showed us all how it's done by going the farthest. Rich following Kathy's lead was something to see! I wanted to participate, but my fear of heights wasn't having it. I literally had an inner battle with myself as I sat and watched everyone complete the task, but I knew that the possibility of me having a panic attack was real and that would not have been fun. I actually worked myself up so much that I sat there crying in frustration. I know my strengths and I know my weaknesses, and for me fear of heights is up at the top. I resigned myself to accepting defeat and calling it a day. Everyone else gave 100% and had a blast. For me personally, it's those moments when everyone has their guard down that mean the most. No one is looking to hurt, we're just a group of people having a really great time together. Unfortunately those times are far and few between with this bunch.

Melissa's birthday dinner started out great. Everyone was getting along and on the surface you would think we'd accomplished understanding and peace amongst the group. I was frustrated, because I knew deep down inside the issues weren't resolved. We'd been through the motions before, and I wasn't in the mood to go back to Jersey where relationships undoubtedly would have reverted to strained at best. I know I ruined the zen moment, but think about it, it wasn't really zen, was it? Ultimately the truth came out and now Joe and Teresa can hopefully move forward together instead of divided. United we stand, divided we fall... Keep on watching.

All in all, Mirival turned out to be a really great experience for all of us. Who would have guessed!?
 
That's it for now, see you all next week! And as always, thank you for watching!

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