Have you ever heard of an empath? Well I am one of the many roaming the earth; I absorb feelings and emotions around me, and let me tell you, the range of emotions in this Boca house was off the charts.
I think I was mostly taking on Nicole's feelings, maybe because I have gone through a lot in my own relationships and I connected with the feeling of being disappointed in someone you thought would always have your back. Bobby had no idea what he was contributing to by not coming out of the bathroom. Well no, I take that back, ALL of us including myself tried to get him out of there and let him know what was happening downstairs. It was bizarre to say the least, but I will say we were all drinking too much that night. We had a very light dinner before this all went down, but the tequila and Belvedere were flowing.
I knew something like this would happen, and that was my urgency in telling TerEsa what was swirling behind her back. If this all went down and she found out I knew and didn't say anything, I would feel horrible. I stand by what I did and don't look at it as sh-- stirring or gossiping at all. Giving a friend a heads up in my opinion is the right thing to do, and I would do it again...maybe just a little differently next time. I was in a lose-lose position, and in my book TerEsa gets a pass for whatever reaction she has. If someone was saying such horrific things about my mother, I don't know what I would do. Take a look at this video I made to learn how to protect yourself from absorbing other people's feelings. I just wished I had taken the time to do this in Florida!
So bummed you couldn't see the rest of our Everglades trip. It was SOOO much fun to explore the swamp and what lives in it. I'm not just talking about gators! Hopefully it will make the lost footage. I wish the show could be about all the fun times we had, the bonding that I'm not sure now was as genuine as I thought it was. I won't let that change me, I choose to see the good in people and I know my side of the street is authentic and sincere.
Thank you for all the emails, tweets, Facebook messages, etc. I adore you guys and I so appreciate your support. It means the world to me!
Sending you a ton of love,